When was the worst you've ever felt? What was going on?

About six years ago. Was just going through a separation that would lead to divorce. I had just moved to the bay area and had no friends or family around me at that time.

LOVES COMPANY

The first thing that comes to mind, is reading my divorce decree, 10 years ago.

It was the end of a 12 year long relationship. The part that cut into my heart, was reading about my son, and how this document meant the end of him having his mommy and daddy in the same home.

LaVisHh said:

Oh. This is making me sad:sad2:

I cannot tell you that... but I can say it won't be happening again.

AzureStar said:

Losing your virginity made you that miserable huh?

Attitude said:

Hmmm...

Do you want to piss me off?

AzureStar said:

Actually I dont.
Sorry for making a mockery of your pain dear.
I'll wait for a better time.

dont be

dupeid


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Attitude said:

Okay then!

AzureStar said:

sharpening claws for that future opportunity...
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The worst I ever felt was in 1980, someone shot and killed my grandfather while he was working at a liquor store, and to make things worse it happened the day after my 15th birthday, now everytime my b-day comes around I'm always reminded of that very sad day.

I was sick for many years and had to undergo a few surgeries.
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I don't think I can label a specific point where I felt at my most low. There have been plenty of low spots, but plenty of high ones too, for which I'm thankful.

Moonbeam said:

shake shake shake my


My sadest moment is to sad to share...plus I am in a
great mood and do not want to be saddened.
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Moonbeam said:

Precisely...

Sorry to hear that Paisley. Maybe think of it as a nice way to remember your grandfather? Kinda special, in a way, like a connection the two of you share.

The worst I ever felt was breaking up with my girlfriend of seven years (we never got married but lived as if we were), and then also having to leave her children behind who I had raised as my own. I loved her and them VERY much, and the breakup tore my heart apart. And then hardly ever hearing from them again after putting so much love into that family for so many years. Felt like I lost them all to Death. ...still hurts a few years later.

Hearing my mom scream out from the other room. Said she had a bad dream that she gotten a phone call saying that my uncle (32 yrs old) had been killed on his motorcycle. Grandma called back 2 minutes later screaming that it was true. Then the police were at our door to take us to my grandmas. Poof! He was gone...
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A few moments come to mind...

One involves leaving a certain place and certain beloved friends. I felt so dazed and empty that day--and for many thereafter...Ireland is a wonderful country!

The other times involve being betrayed by people I thought cared for me and who I trusted, thus having to end the relationships as a result. These occasions usually involved men who were either physically abusive or emotionally unavailable to me.

Another was when my college roommate shot herself in the head with a rifle, commiting suicide.

Maybe I'll post more later! You might be surprised at what I've experienced! But I can honestly say that I gleaned something from each event. I'm not necessarily saying I'm "glad" they occurred, lol, but I am saying that each time something inside of me shifted slightly and made me more and more compassionate towards others. In fact, I've concluded that this is what suffering is for--to learn compassion.

AnotherLover2 said:

very true

TRON said:

It was at my sister's funeral...I couldn't bring myself to show what was going on inside me in front of my family and friends, so I slipped away quietly in the church, went into the bathroom, locked the door, and collapsed on the floor, crying uncontrollably...my knees literally buckled, and I just let all the pain out in solitude...

AnotherLover2 said:

Indeed... well said.

This is how I have dealt with all the things in my life that have brought me pain and loss... I find it hard/difficult to discuss these things here though... I think if I had to start, I'd be a wreck for quite a while...

So I think I'll just avoid answering this thread, if no-one minds...

to all those who shared...

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wellbeyond said:

FUck me...

So like, what happened to her man?

Attitude said:

Cancer...

wellbeyond said:

Of the liver or something?
I take it she was young?
Good of you to share that with us dude.
My gran is starting to get ill.
Shes just had two strokes in the space of a month and shes barely keeping grip on reality.
And shes the only one looking after my blind grandad.
And, its gonna get worse...

This thread is bringing me down... I have tears in my eyes...

My Grandmother's death in May of 2001, then my Grandfather's only 10 months later...

Whenever my mother cries...

Any loss of a loved one...

When my dear friend (and future brother in law) put a gun 2 his head and pulled the trigger... if only he had let us know how he felt... if only I had been there...

I feel 4 u all... but it's good 2 cry sometimes...just let it out.