I wish I could wear what I wanted.

I gained lots of weight... which I need to work harder on losing.

I hurt myself long ago, dancing. I used to do the Turkish drop and hurt my left knee, so now I am afraid to hurt it again.

I really miss dancing the way I used to.

SherryJackson said:

Anything is possible. And from your other post it seems like you've found someone.

MikeyB71 said:

It appears that you are under the misconception that there is only one language spoken in Britain. Don't forget about the Celtic languages and Scots

I wish to find my talent in music, whether vocally or writing, or even playing guitar (at this old age). Vocally, I'm ok but I need a coach and someone to help me chose songs that I can master more easily.I lack patience with myself and I'm embarassed easily when it comes to singing, I have no idea. My father was a musician. Then I wish that I had enough money to live very comfortably where I only had to work for life fullfillment not because without working I wouldnt be able to aford soap to wash my butt with.

Find a way to live with my bf most of the year despite of all the obstacles we are facing (visas, money, etc.) and be happy with him for the rest of my life.

whistle said:

Be a great dancer.
[Edited 5/23/10 11:08am]

Mephiles said:

Heh...yeah. I think I have...so many things stand in our way tho. School, parents, distance etc... I truly care about him. And I think I love him. And I know he cares...but I'm afraid. I don't know what to do really aside than just pray and leave it in God's hands. But I can't predict the future, and the uncertainty is killing me. I just don't want him or I to get hurt. Life is so hard...even harder when you're lonely. Sometimes I wonder why things like this happen...I lose someone I love, and when I find someone that I care about, various factors stand in the way. All I know is for the next few years...him and I are gonna have to learn to be lonely...but he knows I support him and have all faith in him. Always and forever...

"If only the world wouldn't get in the way
If only people would just let you play
They say you're both being fools
You're breaking all the rules
They can't understand..
The magic of your wonderland...

When you're the best of friends,
Having so much fun together
When these moments have past
Will that friendship last?
Who can say, there's a way
Oh I hope, I hope it never ends
Cuz you're the best of friends"

SherryJackson said:

Natalie Cole..

What are you afraid of specifically?
You love him..there is no need to "think"
You say you don't want him or yourself to get hurt, let me ask, would you hurt him? Would he hurt you?..
Life is as hard as you make it.
Next few years huh? Listen, If you love him like you say you do, and he feels the same way, then there isn't anything to worry about or be afraid of. Whatever those "various factors" may be standing in the way of you two. You two have to overcome that or knock down those barriers so to speak.
Is your life better with him or without him? If you rather be with him, prove to whatever or whoever is standing in your way that, "this is my life, I love this man and nothing is going to change that." Prove that your life is better. You like Michael Jackson, all you gotta do is look in the mirror, make that change. if You want him you CAN get him and keep him.

swim
be good at volleyball and baseball- love those games
dance- like salsa or something
rollerblade
speak italian better
read/write in arabic
travel the world- have places in greece, italy, france spain and new york
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Mephiles said:

What are you, a shrink?
I appreciate your advice, Mephiles. But you don't know my cirumstances. If life was really that easy, then i wouldn't have problems. Yes, I care about him. Yes, I'm happy when I'm with him. And don't you preach to me about "making the change". Lord knows I try to. I do all I can to make good in this world. And yeah, you're right (in agreeing with bolded text). Love, if it's true, lasts forever. And like I said before, if God wants it, it'll happen. I care for him...but i don't want him hurt because of me. I work hard at my friendships, and I vowed long ago I'd never hurt anyone the way others have hurt me. And besides, now is the time we should be thinking about our futures. I'm still trying to find my way in life and so is he. Now's that's a change we need to work at and believe in.

But in my heart personally...if he really is the honest, decent man I think he is, he'll prove it. I know I've done everything to show him who I am. I've said it before I'll say it again...for true love, I'll wait forever...and from where I'm standing, I've got nothin' but time.

i will start easy lift my right arm over my head with out pain shooting through my shoulder.

SHOCKADELICA1 said:

if you could i would marry your ass! (and i am *ordained and everything)

* one of those fake on line ones that are still widely accepted so in theory I could legally officiate at a wedding.

Mephiles said:

Hehe....I have to think. I can never shut my mind off. Thinking is the only way to live life for me. If you don't think, you make big mistakes. I don't want to make mistakes, at least not serious ones.

But to keep in line with this thread, there's something I wish I could do. Think less...and have the future just solve itself out. Just leave everything solve itself, and no worries. I wouldn't need Herbal Essences hair colour before my time..

SherryJackson said:

Well, i meant change in what you can do to help your relationship. You'll change the world someday. One step at a time

There was a time when there were no worries between you 2. But now there is, through issues against your will correct?

Believe me, being apart from someone you care deeply about hurts like none other. But from what im getting from your post, I believe your only separated as much as you allow yourselves to be. Love knows no boundaries. Dont let anyone or anything stand in your way if you really care for him

Ultimately though, its your decision. I am sure you will make the right one.

Mephiles said:

Yeah, it does. Like crazy. But he knows I care...so I'm not too worried about him not knowing.

Well, we gotta get our lives in order. I know I have to get mine in top shape before I can even think about true commitment. I'm not saying this to be cruel, I'm stating a fact. He and I both know that.

There were no worries..such a lovely time it was. And no, I'm not gonna let anything get in the way of my happiness. I work hard for things I want and for things i think are worth fighting for. I never shyed away from it. I believe in God/fate and that everything happens for a reason. I'll always be there as a good friend should (and I'm not the kind that runs after men. Frankly, I just keep to myself)...but as far as anything else is concerned, that's just a "wait-and-see" matter. He and I know that too.

You're right about me making the decision. One day, though. When uncertainty isn't the biggest concern in my life. Like Christopher Tracy says "Goodness will guide me while love is inside me...untill then, life's a parade"...and the world's a stage.

SherryJackson said:

Alright. I wish you the best.. It all should work out

Mephiles said:

You're awesome....

And so Mephiles..now that you've listened to my story of ennui..and to keep in line with this thread...is there anything in this world you wish you could do?

SherryJackson said:

*sigh.. I personally wish I could spend time with the person I am in love with..
That's the gateway to the rest of my happiness..

Mephiles said:

Ay...unrequited love... She must be something if you think that way about her...