awww I'm sorry my thoughts are with you orgnote me anytime if you wanna talk!!
im here for you

prb I know how you feel.

We lost (asthma attack) our daddy 10 years ago last year and when certain memories or events come that remind me of him my brothers and I get emotional, still.

insatiable3 said:

thank you

TD3 said:

TD3 said:

Isn't it something? I mean you're going about your day and then BAM. It's right between your eyeballs and the tears begin...
Christmases are the worst. It was just the four of us, Mom, Daddy, my brother and me, but we had so much fun together. Even after my parents divorced and my brother and I were grown, getting together was the best.

Shyra said:

my dad on december 24th..the day before christmas
and his oldest granddaughters birthday
i still dream about him..
and them..its scary how real it feels

for Tracy. Your dad had an awesome daughter.

peb319 said:

i always get depressed at christmas....so busy at work, all the pressures of one day..
and then there are the ppl who are no longer there to share it

Vendetta1 said:

thanks Ivy

he was by no means perfect, but who of us are

To every one of you.

Yo prb. im realy sorry about your pops. it has been a year since my grandmother died.
and i feel her every day. much respect and love from your freind nyse

Awww

Well it's just gone a year since my mum died from breast cancer.

I sympathise and relate to a lot of what you wrote prb.

Scattered her ashes a few weeks ago actually. Strangely I kept a part of my mind occupied knowing that had to be done. But now that it's done, it feels pretty terrible.

Some people talk about closure in these kinds of circumstances. Personally I think it's bullshit. It's not possible to reconcile, or come to terms with going through something like this. You just get used to your new reality. Or indeed maybe that's what people mean by closure? I don't know. In the end everyone deals with this sort of thing differently; and you only find out when it happens to you.

It does make you appreciate what you have. And I still have my Dad.

^

I lost my dad to throat and brain cancer 9 years ago (in September) so I know EXACTLY how you feel. I've been missing him a whole lot lately as a matter of fact and I had a dream about him last week. I hate the dreams though, it feels so real, but then you wake up and it's back to reality.

Shyra said:

Me too girl, I'm still grieving at this moment, my dad passed away September 23, 2001. It was a week after the 9/11 attacks, so everytime I hear about that tragedy it automatically reminds me of when my father was terminally ill that week in the hospital bed.

TyphoonTip said:

you would have been thru your year of firsts...first xmas/birthdays/anniversaries etc without your mum, they are the hardest

I'm sorry for your loss

I nearly lost my mum a couple of weeks ago, she had an aneurysm

tinaz said:

Hey girl, yes it does get easier, but you have a long road ahead of you. The first few years are always the hardest. My father has been gone for 8 1/2 years and he stays on my mind EVERY SINGLE DAY. But as time makes things a little easier you will NEVER GET OVER IT. And I don't think we should. You just learn to live with it and accept the fact that he's not here physically but always with you in spirit. There was a period of time where I couldn't listen to old R&B/Soul music AT ALL because it reminded me of him. That's when I started listening to "The Police", "Audioslave", "U2", and etc. But the day came when I could turn on the radio and really get back into listening to soul music again, thinking about him and it leaving a smile on my face.

Grieving takes time and it's different for everybody. Don't ever let anyone tell you when you should get over death or how you need to handle it. Though I know my father is in a better place, sometimes that anger I had right after he passed comes back and I'm a nervous wreck all over again. I just have periods and moments..just had one this past weekend as a matter of fact.

Anywho, if you ever want to talk or need a shoulder to lean on, orgnote me anytime.

MoniGram said:

squirrelgrease said:

nyse said:

DesireeNevermind said:

thank you

Nyse im sorry for your loss

muirdo said:

Oh my goodness

missfee said:

i know what you mean, i always have dreams where dad is sick, and we cant help him

missfee said:

my best friend was in hospital to give birth a week after the port arthur massacre, i always think of her and my god daughter when it is mentioned.

muirdo said:

Oh No!!!
Is she okay now?
[Edited 4/9/10 5:14am]

prb said:

I know. My dreams are more like he has come back and while we thought he had died, it was all a joke. He's back and like he was before he got sick, strong and healthy. And it's like I don't even wonder where he was while we thought he was gone or whatever, it didn't matter, as long as he was back...but then I wake up.

missfee said:

so true

missfee said:

a for you prb...

you say what ifs wont bring your dad back...and I understand what you're saying...but sharing this story introduces him to all of us...in that sense, he'll never really be gone....