Why?

What did you do to feel better?

Today. In the midst of a heated email exchange with my sister she said it is sad that my mother was the most important thing in my life

Fury said:

Why should that be sad? Love for one's mother should never be bad. Just like love for/with any mother.



And what did you do to feel better afterwards?

Probably last October as a result of a shitty breakup followed by a death in the family and a suicidal baby's mother that threw everything in my face after I intervened and pretty much kept her from taking her own life.

Edit: I just made everything about me and my daughter from that point and that helped.
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Not for a few years. I've been really frustrated and stressed about some things lately though, but not really sad about it.

FauxReal said:

Good lawd.

JustErin said:

We know, Erin. You are hardly human. You hardly show any feelings. You hardly feel love, except for when somebody thrusts their penis into your throat, calling you a "dirty bitch".

And the times you felt frustrated were the times you didn't pass out from being choked when having sex, but only felt a "slight dizziness"...

Dave1992 said:

No, no...I don't feel love then either.

Hmm, i am a person who like others tends to live on their emotions. my emotions change depending on how i realize am being treated or how i am treating others. sadness is like a weed that pulls you and creates this bubble that makes you not be there for others. I feel that people feel more safe being sad and hating themselves than actually being happy. if your overly happy, people find it unbearable why is it that? why is that happy can not be happy about your happiness. why don't they know that sometimes the lilacs bloom after defeating winter. I feel sad, when i betrayed by those that i love. when their true intentions come out and they reveal the monster they have been all this time, is when i sink beneath the murkiness of gloom. but you know what fuck that shit, i will be brave, to be happy is my goal.

but what did i do to be happy, i look at nature, we need beauty sometimes in our life. have a real perennial question that will not root up look at nature to answer your question.
paint, play video games, make love and have a thousands lovers. they point is to be human and co-exist with nature. nature is neither good or bad it just is. and i guess that how people are. people are like nature, they just are
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Dave1992 said:

Dude, that's when it's done perfectly.

When I heard that my 18 year old niece is expecting a baby. Her life is a mess and her boyfriend is a dirtbag.

I'm yet to work out how to feel better.

JustErin said:

So, Dave...you obviously posted this for a reason. What are you sad about and which org member are you looking to have console you about it?

I think I have suffered from depression my entire life

and then fucked up shit happens too, which just doesn't make it any better.

This morning I woke up realizing the problem is I always feel underappreciated and rejected....and then I'm always angry and depressed. I truly loathe being around most people if they are acting shady or ignorant.

I joined a Facebook site called "I don't need anger management, you need to stop pissing me off!"

florescent said:

, I really hope this boyfriend manages to pull himself together somehow. I can't stand the thought of a baby being born into an environment that doesn't suit them perfectly...

FauxReal said:

I'm not really sad like I was about one year ago. Back then, for 5-6 months, I really felt like suffering from depression.

Now I'm just exhausted and disappointed. I don't want to feel sad anymore, but I am very frustrated with my situation somehow. The reason is still the same as back then, I just grew tired of crying every fucking night, not being able to laugh or to eat, not wanting to talk to anybody about how I felt and why I felt like that and basically isolating me from the rest of the world, emotionally.




But I can't think of a particular conscious reason for posting this.





However, I want Erin to console me either way.

BklynBabe said:

Maybe you just hang around the wrong people who are not aware and sensitive enough to figure out how to make you feel comfortable...

Dave1992 said:

Buried somewhere in your subconscious, it's probably disappointment and sorrow stemming from smell #2.

Dave1992 said:

I hope so too. I really don't see anything good on the horizon though... he stinks, he steals, he lies, he doesn't work and my niece worships the ground he walks on

BklynBabe said:

Dang! EVERYTHING u just said pertains to me too....right down to the Facebook sentence! I can't stand betrayal or shady ass folk. They say "you teach people how to treat you", but some mofo's just can't be taught!

FauxReal said:

I was so shocked when I went to check what I had posted the morning after. I remembered posting something on the org, but I had no idea what it was.


When I did smell my finger, though, I did feel sorrow. But I didn't feel sorry for myself, but for the girl. I found the same smell on my wrist too.

Dave1992 said:

I can relate how you feel. Talking to others about your emotions does help, so I guess it is a good thing that you don't hide your feelings .
Want me to console you too ?

And to answer your question: just some minutes ago after having hung up the phone when talking to my bf and the atmosphere was not really nice. I am on my period, I have a headache and my shoulder has been hurting a lot and the first week of March has been nothing but a nightmare and I am still recovering from that I guess, so I get emotionally really quick .

florescent said:

Yuck. Make sure they both grow up quickly!



And make sure that fella takes a bath.

Dave1992 said:

What did your cock smell like?

Dave1992 said:

How? Rock you gently in my arms and sing "hush little baby"?

FauxReal said:

You're hilarious.

i don't really ever get sad. the only emotions i usually have are fear and anger.

Serious said:

I still don't like talking about my emotions, but at least I learned to explain why I don't want to talk in a polite way, instead of just bursting into tears and telling people who really care about me to simply leave me alone. That's just soooo


Martina, you have just given me a brilliant idea about a thread. This is going to be da shit!



Aww, poor you. You know, I'd love to run you a hot bath, give you a massage, make you a cop of tea with honey and stroke you, telling you about why I love the colour red so much. And then I'd fuck the shit out of you.

Would that make you feel any better?