Now I can be a cold hearted bastard , I really can . But just found this amazing heart warming gut wrentchingly beautiful story via a blog , it actually made me cry

read every word

The story of Nella

http://enjoyingthesmallth...story.html

"I felt love, yes. I just kept envisioning this other baby...the one that I felt died the moment I realized it wasn't what I expected."



"I cannot begin to tell you how much I love her. I wouldn't trade her for the world, and y'all can have that heart you let me borrow back. My broken heart has been healed...and if you held her, you'd know what I mean."

it will be a journey, probably an amazing one

She is a beautiful, special, PERFECT little girl.

Acrylic said:

yeah I was totally prepared (as well as one could be) to read she was stillborn, like I was ready to BAWL, but there she was, happy and healthy and I cracked a big smile.
I know exactly what she means, that feeling of being cheated the child she had imagined, the one that she had planned on. But life's not always like that.

We talked about what we would do in the event of being told our child had an increased risk of having Downs Syndrome and decided to still go ahead if that was the path we were presented with.