nyse said:

I think I would've been the only simpleton you would see standing there grinning like a chesire cat at that CD.

nyse said:

I could have written this!!!! This year was dreadful in so many ways. I swear to God above that if I didn't believe in God above I would have hacked my sister like Lizzy Bordon did her family!! Every time I had that desire to call her the 12 letter cuss word or spit in her face I just said a silent prayer. It was not easy to keep my cool but I ACTUALLY managed. I have never been so and yet so civil and even nice at the same time in my life. Truly it was all about without which I would be wearing an orange jumpsuit right now.

Deadflow3r said:

sorry.

KidaDynamite said:

Don't be sorry. Truly I felt that a simple shot to the temple would not have been enough for this woman. I have never struggled with hate so much in my life.

Deadflow3r said:

Wow, she must be REALLY bitchy/evil to you, huh?

Deadflow3r said:

hate is a very serious emotion. glad 2 hear u have a grasp on it.

i have never struggled so much this year with death, addiction, conditions of the heart, buisness & friends.

but 20010 is looking up...right

nyse said:

20010!!! Dear Jesus I hope you don't have to wait THAT long!!!

lol...my bad.

Deadflow3r said:

It's all right. He's still a bit young

happy birthday dad., i love you and miss you

may they have a bar stool ready for you, and a fridge full of cascade blue stubbies

nyse said:

So as some of you probably guessed I've been really up and down lately.

I was invited by an acquaintance to a picnic this evening, which normally I wouldn't have gone to but I forced myself to go, thinking that a forcing myself to go to a social outing would help me with my current state of mind.

Now this acquaintance is one of those "positivity" people, constantly looking for the bright side of things. If somebody ate her baby she'd probably turn it into a positive thing, saying she was happy her baby had become nourishment for somebody. You know, that sort of person. constantly. Regardless, she is a lovely lady and one of my closest friend's oldest friends.

So I went. Half the people didn't turn up so it turned out to be just four of us. One fella who I've met before who is and a phsyical trainer but a social extrovert. Basically the opposite of me. Another was a lovely lady from Brisbane who it seemed was this fella's oldest friend from waaay back in the day, a real introvert and nice lady, so I can see why they get along.

So it was two introverts and two extroverts, and I had a nice meal out on the harbour. But there was no real conversation per se....just joke after joke and good times.

We then went back to the acquaintance's house to have a drink and they got on singstar.....lord I don't understand that thing. Those little bars are NOT FUCKING MUSIC and you can't actually just "sing" a song because the stupid computer wants you to be pitch perfect in accordance with some coloured fucking bar that has nothing to do with musical expression.

I stopped having fun as soon as the picnic was over and sadly I felt the other three feeling that I wasn't fun also. Luckily I could excuse myself as I had a two hour train to catch home but on the way back I was wondering how I constantly feel the need for things of import to happen...there wasn't a single conversation tonight that I actually walked away with anything of meaning.

I guess this babble is all about the fact that I don't like "filling in time" with people. Whatever enjoyment people like those tonight (lovely and good people as they are) gain from hanging out like that.....I would rather do it by myself.

Perhaps I learned something after all?

so, you're a miserable bastard who isn't happy when the focus isn't on you?

only...joking? no wonder i've got no friends.

whistle said:

Cheeky!

Not at all. I think I just don't like filler

whistle said:

oh....and

FUCK! I got an email saying that part of my fella's chrissie present won't arrive until after christmas
[Edited 12/19/09 8:09am]

Really need to get serious about organizing my music CDs, and typing up tracklists for what I have. Going to start working on it, even if it's just for a few hours a day. Gotta get it done, it's driving me nuts.

connorhawke said:

omfg...andrew o'keefe just said intercomputer machine talking about the internet

prb said:

I have no idea what you mean

tried to do the right thing again

FAIL

I'm so confused

connorhawke said:

^^^^^

had me laughin out loud literaly
[Edited 12/20/09 11:02am]

Prince - For you 1978 Track4 "Crazy you"-

Bang that out ur personal jukebox ! ! !






[Edited 12/20/09 11:14am]

nyse said:

Great song!

Crazy You

U got a strange way about cha
Kinda crazy, but I love U just the same
Cuz U, oh U make me wanna do
Oh, everything
I'm just a crazy fool
Lost in a world of love I get from crazy U
Oh, I'm so strung out thinking 'bout the crazy things U do
Crazy U

veronikka said:

nyse said:

Got to love Babarino

Having a shitty day
[Edited 12/20/09 15:49pm]

^^^^

dam gurl... hope u cheer up

JayJai said:

Chin up beautiful!