whistle said:

i think it's hot.

JustErin said:

wow. that's a surprise. i expected you to roll your eyes in disgust.

whistle said:

Don't get me wrong...I still love asshole tough guys...most of them are quite sensitive.

only one person it seems has ever really gotten to the root of my vulnerability and it drives me insane most times. At other times i know he really understands me and so I am ok with it. He seems to be the only person who sheds some light on things that make it feel ok. LOVE you 4 that
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lilJ said:

Yeah, that sucks and is good at the same time.

PunkMistress said:

oh u have no idea

PunkMistress said:

I don't so much try to actively hide vulnerabilities anymore. (I spent too many years doing that.) But I might keep 'em to myself until someone else uncovers them. Then, I follow their lead: If they prove somehow unsafe knowing full well they're treading lightly, I just withdraw all relevant engagement with them. If they turn out to be safe, I let it flow. I do confess, though, that while I'm done hiding vulnerabilities, I still do fake the extent to which they might effect me. If something makes me want to cry, for example, I'll let it be known I'm moved, but I'd sooner my head explode than actually break down in front of someone else.
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I bottle it all up and release it onstage.

It's a lot easier for me to reveal vulnerability through a character than to let anyone see it in me.

ehuffnsd said:

You guys are very talented and creative when it comes to costumes and make up.

Actually there are really not that many people who are capable of hurting me,and if I do get hurt, I think about revenge and retaliate so hard that the feeling of hurt just disappears..but it can take a long time to find the right moment and you know, some say revenge is best served when it´s hot, others say it´s best served cold. And a good life is the best revenge after all, so sometimes, I just strive for being a better person with a better life,and that, in my experience, has always been the best kind of revenge so far.
Being vulnerable is something that I reserve for certain people,certain moments...not many people have the privilege to even be able to hurt me, so I don´t really feel vulnerable.
Growing up under fucked up circumstances and as part of a minority also helped me a lot to develop a much thicker skin than most people have...so, in hindsight, I should probably be grateful for the hurtful things I had to endure.
Then again, I often wonder whether I or any other person who got toughened through experience would probably even be better, more relaxed and with less mental baggage if the circumstances had been right.

ehuffnsd said:

fantatic make-up is this done with airbrush?

I think you can find a lot of strength, wisdom, inspiration and solace in places you´d never expect.

http://www.youtube.com/wa...Z5OookwOoY

I guess I'm at some stage where these thoughts seldom cross my mind...not that I don't have my share of vulnerabilities...I just haven't had to deal with any of them in a while...and, as far as I'm concerned, that's a good thing...as of now, it means that life is treating me exceedingly well...

lilJ said:

i wish

ehuffnsd said:

it looks fantastic...

lilJ said:

thanks

KoolEaze said:

thanks