I wanted to share this story because THIS is how much this school is bringing a change in me!

That morning I got off the train and ran across the street to connect with my bus. I stopped running when I saw there was a line. Now there are 2 people waiting to board and I'm the last one.

So this guy is standing there for an extended period of time and I looked in the window to see what the delay was. I saw nothing so just stood waiting. This guy did a nod of the head like someone does when they are saying "what's up?". So I pulled my headphone out of my ear and courteously said "yes?".

"Does it look like I'm talking to you? Did you see my lips move? Get the fuck out of my face".

Then I looked down and realized he was pointing a can of mace at me! WTF?! They need new emoticons because those don't even touch how angry I became over this.

Well this unleashed the assassin in me. I HATE injustice and this kind of situation I'm not physically powerful enough to confront so it makes me feel helpless and just brings back all kinds of memories from my childhood of being bullied on a daily basis by virtually any and all male humans I came in contact with.

So I'm now on the bus and I'm fuming and I wished that I was bigger physically because I want more than anything to go over, rip that mace out of his hands and DESTROY him. Then it occured to me:

WAIT! I can't be acting and feeling like this! Tonight I go to school. So the wheels are turning and in my head I start hearing Ron and Mary talking about self forgiveness and compassion.

So now I'm asking myself: What would Ron and Mary Do? lol

So I just kind of took a breath, stood back and thought about that situation. How you relate to the issue IS the issue. This goes for non USM humans too! lol Well I thought about it and realized that for whatever reason, he feared me. Which is ridiculous since I'm 135 and he had at LEAST 50 pounds on me.

Anyway, I just saw him as having fear and I thought about that and realized that I could LOVE someone who is afraid. It was amazing how pulling back, thinking it through like that and bringing love to the table changed the depth and scope of the rage I felt just a few minutes earlier.

I LOVE THIS PROGRAM!!!!!

another day in the life of Supa!!!

PaisleyPark5083 said:

I can't say I would have been so Mother Teresa had he actually assaulted me but still

It's time 4 u 2 learn the art of pressure points.....

oh well, maybe next time

errant said:

God brought me into your life 2 times without my knowledge to deal with your wrong shit. Don't make it 3!

Graycap23 said:

Yeah, karate might have come in handy right about then

it's difficult to overcome negative animalistic instincts, takes a lot of civilized, moralistic thought... sometimes I think the bad instincts are part of the truth of reality and can't be bypassed without some repercussion down the road. And of course there's the pleasure people can feel from being enraged...

SupaFunkyOrgangrinderSexy said:

you're oblivious

ufoclub said:

I confess, if I had it in my power, I probably would have acted on it. Dealing with that helpless insane anger was a good thing for me though. I can get lost in that and never come back!

errant said:

oh my gosh. i hate stuff like that, if it was me i'd be plotting reasons for him to use a can of mace on my ass, like a 2X4 to the head i'm also too small to handle most males in a realistic way

you handled it well. people acting out of fear. all you need is love

SupaFunkyOrgangrinderSexy said:

Loving someone who is afraid? You mean afraid of you? Or afraid in general? Because I LIVE to strike fear in others

Humans !

v Mach v

sorry that happened to you supa....that's crazy....

im so proud of you my friend