...as a result, my stomach hurts and i feel like an idiot, again..not to mention i've have never been less proud of myself.

its not that i cant reschedule or have a do-over, but players know its never the same the second time.

plus, the people im playing against are dirty as holy fuck and i wasn't too sure of my footing. yeah, i coulda forged ahead but to whit???? ..i wasn't trying to go out in the hands of the enemy...dammit. most of the people i now have to work against, rode my damned back to get where they are... it shouldn't be that frustrating. im just as scared as they are,(if they are) but the thing is, they are wrong as holy helll. Everytime i get the chance to blow them out the box, i chicken out....but then its like i never competed at all, like i never mattered, that is the worse feeling in the world to ever have to have.


are you one of those who frequently drops the ball or are you a winner all the way....???
[Edited 10/22/09 9:01am]