Oh Ariel, you little girl
I can't say my journey has been easy. But we never get to pick our struggles do we?




Just remember, if you EVER get the urge to hop the fence, I'll be here


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We haven't talked save for the rare facebook thang in the past few years, but I've known you since you were still in Israel and have always considered you a brave, talented, sweet person. I hope you're doing whatever's necessary to get back in a good spot. It'll happen--we all go through times like this.

I'm always here if you need to vent.


[Edited 4/13/09 20:53pm]

POOK said:

I'm sorry but this made me

not sure what you dealing wid, but get through it and start lovin life again. good luck.

Be strong bro, remember our chats

thank you.
I just hope they all get to read and consider this, either now or in the future.
My offer of friendship still stands.

HeavenlyB said:

There's lots of good peeps here.

Dearest Ariel,

Although we don't know each other well, I feel so much empathy with your situation and really feel that I can identify what you are experiencing now.

I hope to be able to come back through this thread when my own mind is clearer and maybe I can say something that could actually mean something to you (as in recent months I've been going through something similar). For now, though I leave you with this simple word:

'emunah


the Hebrew word for steadfastness



...and lastly dear Ariel, never forget that your name means lion of God

I don't do forgiving. I do getting over things, but 9 years spent in vain takes a long time to get over. Good luck with things though.

I pray that things look brighter for you.

Ariel.. I know what your going through It hurts and the pain comes from deep inside... Cry! You have to let it out...
And try to find out what the lesson is from this experience... and stop beeing the victim.. this sounds harsh (sp?)but I hope you know what I'm trying to say... try to take control over yourself... you're the only one who can do that!

Much love,

Marion xxx

As you can read, you're not alone.
Lots of ppl go thru the stage you're going thru now.
Hang in there.Things will get better

Teacher said:

I'm grateful

emm said:

I get over things quicker these days than I used to, but I've also learned that when I've given enough without getting anything back for this many years, that the risk is higher than the potential benefit. I was always an endlessly giving friend but there comes a time when people abusing that makes it all come to an end. I believe that this is the case this time, I can't do unreciprocated friendship anymore.

Be well, Ariel.

in the end, ariel, the important thing is fixing YOU not fixing a relationship.
i know it's easier focusing on someone else (guilty! ) but this is where you have to focus on you.

Check your orgnotes.

emm said:

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Thank you all for the enormous support I have received from you. The ones in the past and the current ones.
It is hard for me to ask for help. Or at least admit that I'm asking for help.
I always give my all to the ones surrounding me, and showing weakness scares me that they might not accept my support as much as they used to, even if they need it.
I am going to try and search for the root of what is stopping me from progressing in life and try and fix it. I do need help in that, and it seems I have the right people around me to do so.

I would still give everything to any one of my friends. My brother is alive today and got a second chance in life, because he had a friend like that. That friend is the most real person I've ever met. Has not a cent of bullshit in him.

The ones I care about in life, I care about for life. There was a reason I chose them to begin with, and that reason is who they are, which will never change, no matter what their actions are.

I believe a true friend is the one that supports your every decision, even if they don't agree with it, as long as they know this is truly what you want. Helping your loved one fulfill their dreams, is the way it should be. It shouldn't stop you from giving your opinion, but standing by their side, is what a true friend does.

Sorry, I'm babbling. Partly from the coffee, partly from the lack of sleep, and partly from the fact that it's who I am, when I try to express myself.


But this thread was actually to give my apologies to the ones who were hurt, or worried, during this break down. This was to show my appreciation to them.
You all amaze me every day.

Supa, I will never forget our 'experience' in the back seat of the car.
Dan, I'm a girl. Well, except for the hair, penis and lack of boobs. Oh, and chest hair.
Lammastide, you are an amazing guy. I can't wait to have coffee with you.
Ace, God dammit, post your picture already!
Emm, thank you for being stubborn.
Teacher, sorry you feel that way, but thank you for all of your support and help.
Marion, your advice is taken. I admire you for being so strong.
AndGodCreatedMe, you are right. There are a lot of people with problems even bigger than mine. I guess it's a matter of personality and finding the strength that changes the way each person reacts.
PaisleyPark5083, thank you. I'm sure your prayers have been heard.
Ottensen, That word actually means 'faith', or maybe that's what steadfastness means? My problems are more than just the recent events. Those were just a cover for a much deeper problem. And I apologize to the ones involved for taking advantage of that to cover to the real problems.
Shanti, I admire you for chasing your dreams and making them happen.
mdiver, you are a lucky bastard. A very smart one. And you are much more of a softy than you show. I can tell.
Reflection, I will do that. Thank you.
Rushing, I can't argue with that.
Pook, you are a classic org legend. Whoever you truly are.
Insatiable, for someone so young, you truly are a smart one. Thank you for being my friend.
MoonSong, you do realize my guess was just a fluke, right? It would be awesome to meet you.
Finess, ourdifferences are long gone. My comments to you are just a way to tease, jokingly, because I love your feedbacks. But I do think that you had a lot of experience in life that many of us can't even imagine. I admire that you came through in spite of them.
applekisses, you are an amazing soul. I hope I'll be able to have that falafel with you some day (No, Dan, it's nothing sexual).
johnart, with the support of all of you, it makes it easier. Thank you.
ZombieKitten, trust me, I see how much attention my niece and nephew require. I know what you are talking about. You gave me more time than I could ever ask for and I thank you for that.
mzsadii, I hope you are right. It's not yet easy. I really hope to reach that step soon.
pippet, I wish to meet you one day. Your sunshines always brighten up my day.
butter, I am glad to know you. I have so much respect for you. I'm honored to have had chats with you, and hope to do so again in the future.
Mach, as I've said in another thread, I'm amazed by your powers and auras. I have no idea how you did it, but I hope I'd get to where you are, in my life, too.
pardonme4livin, I hope you don't have to write one of these, if you just read this one and learn from it. If you do write one, you can count on me to be there with support.
Veronikka, every time I see a photo of yours, I think of an angel.
paintedlady, your signature says it all. It will get better.
Ivy, your strength is more than I could imagine. I hope one day I can give you back the same as you've given me.
BlueZebra, thank you. Yes, my true friends will always be there. That's why I'm still here.
Pandurito, you always make me laugh. I can always count on you for one.
thekidsgirl, patting my balding head feels nice. Don't stop.
HeyBaby, I really hope to have another dance with you.
Minneapolisfunq, because life is not always funny. At least not while the pains are alive.


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HeavenlyB said:

Thank you for reaching out and saying nice things to me even when you were in a lot of pain.
I appreciate your honesty and openness.
You will get through this, trust me on that one.
You are much stronger than you give yourself credit for.
I am glad that you have so much support here, you have been on the org for a long time and have developed some true friendships.
Savour those friendships and keep your head up.



Take care.

Ariel, maybe I came of a little harsh but that was not my intention.
I just wanted to let you know that things will get better...
Look at all the support you're getting from the crazy org
Try to accept it even if it's difficult sometimes

AndGodCreatedMe said:

I have accepted it. That's why I'm still here. Being harsh is sometimes necessary, and I don't think you came off harsher than needed
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Thanks Bro....and yeah...you are right about me

mdiver said:

And why the ???



What Ariel is saying is no secret to the Org

AndGodCreatedMe said:

mdiver said: