well, im 5 weeks and 1 day in to my recovery, no weight on my foot at all, no driving, no getting around in the house without pain. im still in pain all the time, nothing has changed since i got the damn surgery to begin with...

my daughter went home and started acting like a COMPLETELY different person yeah, yeah, i know - shes young and shes trying to sort through her feelings, im the mother, its up to me to be strong.... whatever! sometimes even the mothers get their feelings hurt!

i am so depressed for so many different reasons i have had the most horrible thoughts lately....


so, pardon me if i dont come off as i usually would....

I'm sorry to hear that you're depressed, naked.

I am sorry to hear all this....I hope things start looking up for you.

I hope you feel better. I know it is hard to do.

thanks guys...

i really appreciate it.

orgnote

I am sorry

nakedpianoplayer said:

It will get better

adopted daughter? yeah i'm sure her emotions are all over the place.
it will even out babe.

and your ankle? how long is it supposed to take to heal?

emm said:

i get the cast off at the end of the week and then i either go to a different walking cast, or into a brace - partial weight bearing for a short time and then off to physical therapy which will take some months. the pain/swelling im told can be an issue for 6-12 months

i guess i better get used to this huh?

stay strong girl ...

I'm sorry

nakedpianoplayer said:

awww...

unfortunately..yes
fortunately..we're here

peb319 said:

thank you

and thank everyone else

my mom called, i was crying, she got worried and came over to get us all and take us out of the house. we had some dinner while we were out... im still heavy hearted, but not near as bad as i was this afternoon!! amazing what a little fresh air can do to clear the mind....

thank you again

nakedpianoplayer said:

That's sweet that your mom took you and your family out. I hope things get better between your daughter and you. I don't understand why your daughter is acting completely different now, but hopefully she will come around.

Have a beer.

Things will even out, honey

eikonoklastes said:

yeah, that'll help for sure lol...



thanks guys

today is a bit better i guess, the kids have left for school this morning, its the first time i've been alone since my surgery on the 13th of february. im happy about it though, there has been nonstop company in and out of this house for what seems like a very long time!! grateful for the help of course, but looking forward to some quiet time to think

as for my daughter, well, thats another matter. i guess everything happened really easy for us, there was bound to be a stumbling block - just didnt expect one quite this big

people keep saying things like, 'teenagers are hard' 'her emotions are all messed up at that age' 'teenagers are hardly human' .. you get the idea. but still, some things are just done out of spite and to be mean, and its easy to get your feelings hurt when that happens - especially when i put my entire heart on the line to make it work.

lesson learned????? yup, its great to have her in our lives, and i will love her forever reguardless of what she does or doesnt do (i loved her the 18 years before i met her with no contact) but im afraid that i cant put my heart out there like that again. instead, i really need to focus on my house, my babies here and remember to take the good times as just that.... good times - not necessarily life changing times.

Things will be looking up again soon! Hang in there

nakedpianoplayer said:

You rang...

pardonme4livin said:

youre silly...