i truly hope things get better for ya! i've had moments like that at work a few times, i can relate for sure!

I had it happen once when I was a shoe salesman years ago. I was the only one owrking in my department and a customer got through treating me like a piece of crap. I wouldn't say that I was unphased by customers doing this but most of the time I was able to tell myself that they're the ones that are asses, not me and I always went on with my day. For whatever reason, I just couldn't hack it on that day and I left the department and started bawling in the employee bathroom. The worst part was there was someone in the bathroom who wanted to know what was wrong and the more I talked the more I bawled uncontrollably. My own friends have never seen me bawl. I know there was a bigger issue than some asshole customer ordering me around but I couldn't put my finger on it. Probably just a little extra hormonal that day.

I help with authorizations for a medical insurance company. We've had several calls for inpatient admits with suicidal ideation, all starting December 1st. Tis the season is right.

I can think of 3 times in my adult life (thankfully neither at work ) where I have just been brought to bawling point, and not over a break-up or anything.
Once in third year university, when I wore my boyfriend's favourite jumper, that his mum had knitted for him, to school without him knowing, and another student walked past and their backpack pulled a thread off and unravelled some of it. I sat there and bawled in the computer room while everyone was whispering - most of them strangers to me. I was sooooo mortified but couldn't stop crying.
2 years ago, my mother in-law got to me so bad on Christmas day I bawled. I'd been trying so hard to do everything, I was near dropping from exhaustion and she asked why hadn't I done a Christmas card? "Too lazy?"
Recently I had one too, but so hard to explain I made a thread about it - the case of the missing house. I had an inflamed calf muscle and could hardly walk, and without a cell phone, drove back home 2 times to call up this lady whose house I couldn't find. Turns out Dheli Street and Daley Street are pronounced the same with a Polish accent. I snapped.

I suppose this is my fault as well.



I'm sorrrrryyyyy!

HamsterHuey said:

you & Erin: the odd couple.

abierman said:

Beautiful babies, though.

HamsterHuey said:

with big hips!

abierman said:

Beautiful! .
[Edited 12/13/08 3:03am]

Yes... it happened at work, in front of coworkers that were nurses and a dr, which was my boss. I felt like a right idiot but they were very understanding.
Luckily.

I was really quiet about it but my good friend could tell something was going on for some time.
It turned out to be a good thing in the end.

You have to get it out and deal with it, eventually.


Hope you it gets better soon Erin

JustErin said:

Girl please, you're fine. I think there's a full moon on right about now and frankly I have yet to talk to a chick who hasn't flipped her lid in the past 48 hours...as God is my witness a casual female acquaintance snapped at me last night at dinner and it took every ounce of strength and reservation in my body to not reach across the table and slap the extensions out of her head
. Normally I let stuff roll off my back and give people the room to process whatever opinions and emotions they need to...but GIRRRRL...I was feeling lunar effects and I spent the entire dinner trying not to send her death glares between her eyes ....

...I would like to believe this was because of the moon

Erin

I've come close to tears @ work before (2 different jobs) but never lost it...

There's an instance where I lost it BUT I was at home (kinda takes the steam out of it) on the phone w/ a business. The shit just crept up on me (I was stressed) & as I was explaining to the woman why I needed to return an expensive item w/o being charged $100 shipping, I just BROKE. She must have thought I was crazy & soon transferred me to her supervisor I dunno, I just couldn't part w/ the money @ that time, but the crying totally surprised me

I've had panic attacks preventing me from going to work. No fun.

HamsterHuey said:

No it is not!

It can be a good thing to let it all out.

JustErin said:

hope its better for you now. and yes, i sure as hell know the feeling

last month i had a dreadful day at work, way much humiliation for one day, and JUST as i thought it was over, someone pushed the door on my face,, try stop me

can't say it did not spare me a long night though, i slept like a baby

Ottensen said:

OMG

JustErin said:

Happy Full Moon Erin

Anxiety said:

I know that feeling.

Shudder.

Anxiety said:

Like Zuul?

I am extremely burned out right. I can sleep for 9 hours and it still isnt enough. I am exhausted.

JustErin said:

Wait, you have feelings Erin?

I've broken down at school so many times Not cute
the worst is breaking down in front of my mom cause she gets so worried

JustErin said:

JustErin said:

a suggestion i picked up when reading an article about stress at work suggested one push a 'mental pause' button. then take a deep breath....and deal with one thing at a time. I've been where you are, and it's not fun, but you'll get through it and truly forget about the worst parts of it all

CarrieLee said:

OMG, that might implacate she has a soul.

Now pigs DO fly.

I hope things get better for you. It's got to be bad to break you down like that. I've come close to losing it on the job myself. I had to go hang out in the ladies' room to calm down because I was on the verge of screaming (right after I returned to work from having my son). That feeling sucks soooo bad. And it is really embarrasing.

This sorta happened to me once before and I had promptly left the room, and everyone was just "wha? where's colin?"

which was extra annoying to explain to everyone when i returned.


these days i just work less stressful jobs and go for breaks when i know i need them.

JustErin said:

First of all you shouldnt feel like a moron.
It happens to most of us. LOTS of stress kept bundled up can trigger so many emotions, not to mention messing with your hormones.
Falling apart, crying, screaming is okay once in a while.
As long as its not affecting your health.

breathe and make sure to get so "time alone"