Having three miscarriages.

An abusive relationship.

My grandfather dying, my dad moving out, dealing with anxiety and depression. Right now it's dealing with back trouble from an accident and going for rehab constantly and dealing with paperwork related to it.

Beeing mocked about my hairstyle and necklace here on the org. Ill never send a picture of me again

Gimmesomehorns said:

I think you're a total fox!

..oh, sorry, i wasn't done,

the hardest after my mom and baby was sorta like dancewme...




.....life itself and the abuse it blindly inflicts in the face of those who deserve so much more than what they see being given away

and who besides having to avoid allowing life to kick them repeatedly, would otherwise be normal.

myfavorite said:

I'm sorry, but...huh?

As for the original question, there are a few things that would qualify as the hardest or worst things for me, but I don't feel like sharing them here.

Gimmesomehorns said:

1) breaking up with my ex a little less than a year ago
2) being diagnosed with, being treated for, and surviving TTP, a rare, deadly, blood disoder, when i was 17.
3) Feb 2004 - Feb 2005. a lot of deaths and upheaval.
4) the aftermath of coming out to my friends in 1996. they were great. i'm the one that got weird.
5) possibly this week. a lot of emotional ups and downs. partying, fighting, concerts, long work days, no sleep. it might kill me by monday.

Reading this thread has literally put me in tears!
I really do admire you all for making it through, and coming out stronger

thekidsgirl said:

ditto

The sudden death of my brother, the effect it's had on my parents and seeing his baby daughter grow up without ever knowing her daddy

*

i tried to do the right thing and make my marriage work despite the problems.

for some years as we were separated (due to circumstances - we lived in separate counties), i waited and hoped for at least a phone call to know that he was okay and thinking of me.

years had gone by not knowing, and i was beside myself because i had no way to call him whenever i wanted, although he could contact me anytime he wanted.

eventually i contacted his father (using a translator) to help us get back together, i just had to see him because it had been too many years apart.

my visit ended without him giving me any promises for the future, 'because we don't know what will happen tomorrow'.

still i waited another 5 years, without contact, by that time the love i had had all but evaporated.

yet i felt it my duty to make it work and felt there was no way out, and was on my way to leave my life behind and go to where he was at least.

while i was already making plans, a friend kindly helped me to open my eyes and see the reality of the situation, 'that if he really wanted a life with me, he would have already been here', i gave him 12 years to make that decision.

throughout it all, i remained faithful, there were many guys/men that came into my life who held an interest in me, but those relationships could never be.

now, i'm happier, and i've found that someone who i can share a blissful life with. even now, i still can't believe it.

*

To everybody who posted on this thread. I've been through some pretty rough stuff too in my life, but not as bad as some of you have had it.
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LoyalAndTrue said:

looking forward to that day myself

Gimmesomehorns said:

OMG!!! Someone did that here???

i live with HIV and crystal meth addiction. one did lead to the other.

Cloudbuster said:

kimrachell said:

All of you inspire me.

I´m having the worst time of my life and don´t want to talk about it until I´m through it.
It could get worse before it gets better

Rightly said:

losing both my parents (death)
losing?-an online friend
losing my pets (to death)
and
losing my kidney functioning (slowly)

Rightly said:

ehuffnsd said:

Rightly said:

you're in my thoughts! hope things turn around for you!

ehuffnsd said:

thanks!!!

1sexymf said:

blessings to you!

DanceWme said: