Alej said:

You bring people closer to you?

I have been in the past, in my youth, the usual sex, drugs and rock n roll kinda thing. And I've gone through wild bouts of depression.

Not so much now, though. I'm probably healthier now than I have ever been in my life.

I don't know. I'm not sure what you're talking about even exists. Someone said it once and it stuck then bred like a virus, to the extent we think it's real, like a lot of phrases and words. What actually is destruction? One day, you'll be reincarnated as a carrot on a supermatket shelf, one you go back to the ground and melt your goods in the dirt. What aspect of collapse? Physical, mental, spiritual, sexual? How do you define self? I is I? I is another? Both persepctives are equally valid. You'll have to define the question better. I enjoy a fag.

grimnt said:

I myself try real hard not to be this way..but it's like I feel I need to protect myself before other's hurt me first.