This is really weird.


I've had so many friends find me on myspace (and some on facebook) that I just take for granted that from time to time, more folks will find me. These online communities, if anything, allow folks to find each other.

But tonight, I was contacted on facebook by a girl named Kelley (I'll refrain from using her last name so as to preserve her privacy).


But to make a long story short, I had the biggest... I mean BIGGEST secret crush on Kelly. It was a secret because in high school I was basically a-sexual in the persona I presented to the world. I hid everything inside and was relatively shy--well, actually when it came to intimacy, painfully shy.

Anyways, I had a huge crush on Kelly. I mean, I'd go into class, and always pay attention to her out of the corner of my eyes. I would run into her at certain shows around the city (Birmingham Alabama actually had a thriving post modern music scene at one time .. Remy Zero got their roots there and I actually new the band members, but before Singun met Alisa Milano )_. But I digress, she was just one of those crushes I'll always remember.

Certain people just trigger memories for me. Kind of like smelling food or hearing a song that just brings you back. Kelly is one of those triggers for me.

She sent me a long, detailed email about her life, (she apparently married a mutual friend of ours and he got her addicted to cocaine ), etc. etc.

But, for a split second, I felt like I was a teenager again. I certainly don't have that 'crush' feeling for her anymore. And, I don't miss being a teenager, nor would I EVER consider visiting Birmingham just for fun--if my mom didn't live there, I'd never go back.

But I couldn't help but wax nastalgia. I've move on from that place. I've gone so far emotionally, economically, and professionally from the scared, shy, boy that I was then. I think it's good sometimes to revisit the past this way, and realize just how much you have to be thankful for now. Certainly, I look forward to the next 15 years of my life and what adventures will come.



Thanks for reading this assholes.

Imago said:

hey...what about my hug???

If she's still into coke, you could put it in her butt for 5 bucks.

I didn't read it. Did he turn around at the end and admit none of it really happened to him?

roodboi said:

Your orgnotes give me blue balls

Imago said:

atleast thats not another skin condition...

roodboi said:

BEST

POST

EVER

Aren't you supposed to be in London?

rushing07 said:

Hello hotness

I fly out tomorrow.

Imago said:

May god shave the queen.

rushing07 said:

so how does she feel about your unrequeited love for her those many years ago finally turning you ghey?

Fauxie said:

looks like this one is true

Imago said:

They have ointments for that, you know.

Imago said:

Did you just call me an asshole? Lucky for your ass, you are on your way overseas...those are fighting words.

MoniGram said:

4 hours to the airport!

Imago said:

So I still have time to kick your ass!!!???

Imago said:

Of course it must be great to meet Val and Phil, but it will be hard to top the joy of the SOM tour you did last time you were in Europe .

not listening!

Imago said:

Poor Moni, why aren't you listening to her ?

Serious said:

Trust me girl. We will not be the highlight of this trip. I have already accepted that.

We still gonna have fun. We are going to pick on you know who.

I love having American backup.

MrsMdiver said:

Why not

Serious said:

I hear Cardiff is the place to be this time of year.
I wish I could get you over here so we could go to London and party with Dan.

Serious said:

Yes poor Moni...he calls me an asshole and runs!

Serious said:

Dan will be ing a Welshman, that's why.....
[Edited 6/19/08 6:19am]

Imago said:

I understand you're trying to say something deep here, but are you also hearing those alarm bells?

MoniGram said:

He deserves a or .

abierman said:

Why are there some orgers who seem to know more than I do .

My best friend from ages 17-22 found me two days ago by just googling me. We were BEST friends for years. Heck, we used to take naps together in college. She got married and moved to Seattle when I was 22 or 23 and I never heard from her again. Till a few days ago.
It's crazy catching up. And yeah, I've been utterly nostalgic for the last few days...

I was bored one night and recently looked up my very first boyfriend - there he was on facebook. It's hilarious to have a memory of someone go from 13 year old boy to 34 year old balding man in a split second.

I contemplated contacting him just for a laugh but when I saw a pic of his scary looking wife I decided against it.