i think it is possible, but it is not easy and it is not cut-and-dried.

i think the trick is finding someone who likes you for exactly who you are (to steal a line from 'juno'), and who LIKES you enough to stick with you when your feelings aren't exactly centered around them, but only with the knowledge that no matter what, you two are home base for each other.

and, of course, vice versa. they have to know you feel that way about them.

i think human beings go through different moods and feelings and highs and lows. i think we always want some kind of attachment to someone or something else, or some kind of connection. but even those needs might take on different forms throughout our lives. if we can create understandings with our partners that we're allowed to experience these phases and support ourselves and each other through them, then there's a good start.

but to expect honeymoon phase intensity through a lifetime relationship is just a set-up for failure, at least in my opinion and experience.

i feel sorry for people who can't see the gray. the gray is where the good stuff is.

I know I am.

I just don't think I'll ever find a compatible partner who is.

STOP SAYING THAT! I know I am not all




but at the same time I think here is great truth to hung by the tongue/ or what vibe you send out in the universe returns to you!

going to the cat and fiddle with me in LA would be a BRAND NEW experience for you!

going to the cat and fiddle with me in LA would be a BRAND NEW experience for you!

It's funny but I was talking to someone about this tonight. I was absolutely certain that I would never find a soulmate, and I lost my religion so to speak along the way. I mean, it all boils down to chemistry--we're all animals right? And maybe I just lacked that. Or maybe...just maybe, I wasn't meant to find someone.

I've gone through periods of feeling terribly unworthy, lost, and downright jaded. Here I was, this man, vacillating between court jester one minute and alpha-male the next, but with no sense of direction, or purpose outside of the mundane, material, purely pointless aspects of life.

All relationships with regards, to family, friends, lovers felt at the very least, obligatory and taxing. At times, soul destroying. My natural reaction in my friendships and relationships is to be the nurturing one, the strong one, the centered one--and I love this. I really do. Nothing makes me happier than to care and love for someone and make them feel like the best person they can be. But it always seemed like those I cared for ended up becoming emotional vampires, self-centered souls, all with personal agendas reducing me to some kind of comodity--some unimportant tool in their arsenal towards their own self-realization. I felt...used.


Without going into too much detail, that has all changed. Completely.
I've experienced a rebirth of my faith. I've discovered my soulmate.
Sure, history and logic tells me there is always the possibility that I can't pull this one off. But for the first time in forever, I'm willing to fight like hell to make this work.

I feel fulfilled.

One thing that I know is that , and I'm not saying this to be humble or self-deprecating, nor am I phishing for compliments, but of all the folks on this website I believe deserves and WILL find a soulmate, you're at the top of the list, Karen. You are....stellar. Absolutely stellar. Moreso deserving of what I'm feeling than I ever will be.

As I grow and continue on this strange and utterly terrifying journey into areas of my heart I've locked away in some dark chasm , I will become more forthcoming and open with my feelings, and share them with you. I know you've felt recently that I've been withdrawn and closed... and I have. But (god, this reads like a blog or orgnote ), you are so important to me, I cant foresee a day that I won't be able to turn to you for advice or just to cheer up. I just can't see a life without your friendship in it.


As far as my feelings towards the subject at hand, here's some super sappy songs that sum up what I'm feeling


(so so so so so so so so so so sappy )


It counts!

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I don't ever look at relationships as "forever and ever".

I look at them as "right nows" and if that happens to last 'til death do us part, then so be it, if not, then so be it.

Big Co-sign on this JustErin, I approach relationships the same way. I'm around too many people who see it as "forever and ever" and it cracks me up, I could never think that way.

Is it that people change every so many years?