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Printableveronikka said: Im sorry Sammi
 vero, thank you  [...i think i can, i think i can, i think i can...] | |
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SCNDLS said: sammij said:  thanks
but radiohead seems to be soothing the pain currently
Okay, I know it's still fresh but I'm urging you that to avoid wallowing it is CRITICAL to shake the booty within 48 hours of receiving bad news. Remember, the booty is all powerful.  [...i think i can, i think i can, i think i can...] | |
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Spookymuffin said: Failing at things you wanted more than anything's a real bitch (and believe me, I know - I still get the odd little comment from my parents about not getting into Oxford), but it really does all work out better in the long run.
Right now, I couldn't be happier. i wish i could see that far into the future sometimes... i think what hurt the most was how Jean said it i had plainly asked if i got in because i had yet to get an email because her clumsy ass has been clamoring around all day, "prioritizing" (her specialty  ) that she forgot to notify everyone else.
come to mention it, i have YET to get an email anyway. she goes to me "well i might as well just say it - no you didn't get in. we chose the students we felt were actually ready for this" she can lick mine. sorry, tangent. but i understand, and hope i can blow this whole institution out of the water in the next few years to come. [...i think i can, i think i can, i think i can...] | |
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AndGodCreatedMe said: Sorry sweetheart
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sammij said: Spookymuffin said: Failing at things you wanted more than anything's a real bitch (and believe me, I know - I still get the odd little comment from my parents about not getting into Oxford), but it really does all work out better in the long run.
Right now, I couldn't be happier. i wish i could see that far into the future sometimes... i think what hurt the most was how Jean said it i had plainly asked if i got in because i had yet to get an email because her clumsy ass has been clamoring around all day, "prioritizing" (her specialty ) that she forgot to notify everyone else.
come to mention it, i have YET to get an email anyway. she goes to me "well i might as well just say it - no you didn't get in. we chose the students we felt were actually ready for this" she can lick mine. sorry, tangent. but i understand, and hope i can blow this whole institution out of the water in the next few years to come. You will. You're going through the massive short-term suck, but in a few you'll be wondering why you got so hung up. | |
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Spookymuffin said: sammij said: i wish i could see that far into the future sometimes... i think what hurt the most was how Jean said it i had plainly asked if i got in because i had yet to get an email because her clumsy ass has been clamoring around all day, "prioritizing" (her specialty ) that she forgot to notify everyone else.
come to mention it, i have YET to get an email anyway. she goes to me "well i might as well just say it - no you didn't get in. we chose the students we felt were actually ready for this" she can lick mine. sorry, tangent. but i understand, and hope i can blow this whole institution out of the water in the next few years to come. You will. You're going through the massive short-term suck, but in a few you'll be wondering why you got so hung up. my career, will kick. ass, that is. majorly. [...i think i can, i think i can, i think i can...] | |
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sammij said: Spookymuffin said: You will. You're going through the massive short-term suck, but in a few you'll be wondering why you got so hung up. my career, will kick. ass, that is. majorly. You'll show Van Gogh where to put that ear. | |
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Spookymuffin said: sammij said: my career, will kick. ass, that is. majorly. You'll show Van Gogh where to put that ear.  AQUAFINA ALL OVER THE MAC.[...i think i can, i think i can, i think i can...] | |
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sammij said: Spookymuffin said: You'll show Van Gogh where to put that ear. AQUAFINA ALL OVER THE MAC.Ewww Evian is way better, and has better projectile potential. | |
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Spookymuffin said: sammij said: AQUAFINA ALL OVER THE MAC.Ewww Evian is way better, and has better projectile potential. Evian. spell that shit backwards, what's it say? Naive.
although i do love Evian anyway. [...i think i can, i think i can, i think i can...] | |
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I'm so sorry! 
Another example that U're not alone: The 1st time I took my Qualifying Exams to go from Doctoral student to Doctoral Candidate, I failed miserably. I couldn't believe that after 3 years of coursework, and a whole weekend sequestered in a hotel room writing 4 10-page papers, I was deemed "unsatisfactory". I tried to get an appointment with everybody in the department, but I was basically told to just retake them. I cried my heart out, feeling like the biggest loser & failure in the world, because the people in my study group passed. 
I took a year off, and contemplated how much I needed to be "Dr. Lynn". When the new application form came, I filled it out, put my game face on, re-booked the hotel room, and kicked ass.  I am now preparing my Proposal for defense.
I say all that to say: Sometimes we have to keep trying. Of course U're crying now. I moped for a while. BUT do some research and keep applying. There is a program with your name on it! U're a talented artist, girl! 
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sammij said: Spookymuffin said: Ewww Evian is way better, and has better projectile potential. Evian. spell that shit backwards, what's it say? Naive.
although i do love Evian anyway. I'm gonna start bottling my own brand of water! Eniru! | |
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God seems to choose to propel us with disappointment as often as He chooses to use recognition.
I've been passed over once or twice for opportunities in favor of less-qualified folks (once to a degree that it was almost laughable). Life is unfair. The challenge is to let that unfairness make you better and, in the case of an artist, to use it. And, in retrospect, the opportunities weren't as important as they seemed at the time, in the big picture of life. I got chances to do stuff they never did. It evens out, amiga. Trust me.  | |
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ThreadBare said: God seems to choose to propel us with disappointment as often as He chooses to use recognition.
I've been passed over once or twice for opportunities in favor of less-qualified folks (once to a degree that it was almost laughable). Life is unfair. The challenge is to let that unfairness make you better and, in the case of an artist, to use it. And, in retrospect, the opportunities weren't as important as they seemed at the time, in the big picture of life. I got chances to do stuff they never did. It evens out, amiga. Trust me. Thready is right. One day you will look back on this and see how the things that ended up coming your way were way better than this ever could have been 2010: Healing the Wounds of the Past.... http://prince.org/msg/8/325740 | |
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chocolate1 said: I'm so sorry!
Another example that U're not alone: The 1st time I took my Qualifying Exams to go from Doctoral student to Doctoral Candidate, I failed miserably. I couldn't believe that after 3 years of coursework, and a whole weekend sequestered in a hotel room writing 4 10-page papers, I was deemed "unsatisfactory". I tried to get an appointment with everybody in the department, but I was basically told to just retake them. I cried my heart out, feeling like the biggest loser & failure in the world, because the people in my study group passed.
I took a year off, and contemplated how much I needed to be "Dr. Lynn". When the new application form came, I filled it out, put my game face on, re-booked the hotel room, and kicked ass. I am now preparing my Proposal for defense.
I say all that to say: Sometimes we have to keep trying. Of course U're crying now. I moped for a while. BUT do some research and keep applying. There is a program with your name on it! U're a talented artist, girl!
i would reapply if i could but the moment i have all my credits next year i'm getting the fuck out of Brock University - they can eat my ass.
i'm still going to graduate with honours, and flying colours... im just going to be open to as many opportunities as possible once i'm done school... [...i think i can, i think i can, i think i can...] | |
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sammij said: imago, thank you
it irks me to pity myself (although i find m'self doing that quite often) but in this instance, i decided to cry rather than to rage, just because knowing my temper, i'd more than likely say something to the Jean's (the chair of the department) face that i know i'll regret in the coming year. the anger is there, i'm just trying to remain subdued until i reach home later tonight.. and in regards to your experience, i don't even know if anger would be enough to keep me going... that is a slap in the face in the least... hurtful... and i'm a dweller... so that would eat at me forever... you know, i was reading Andy Warhol's "the philosophy of andy warhol" and i learned a good lesson that may help in certain situations (to some degree anyway) to use the expression "so what?" for instance: "i didn't make it into honours studio... but so what?" which kind of helps surprisingly i still get mad and think to myself, so what, it means i have even a lesser chance at getting into grad school.. 
im working on it and everyone here is going to see after we graduate. i'll make a name for myself. Sounds trite, but after enduring many disappointments of my own over things or situations I desperately wanted (or believed I'd earned or deserved), I finally concluded that there truly is a reason for everything that happens. At this moment, when your emotions are still so raw, it's probably nearly impossible to think anything positive might eventually come of your not being accepted into that program. But try looking at the situation through objective eyes, and see what you can take from it to use to your advantage: perhaps this disappointment was meant to spur you on to doing something (such as the possible solo show you'd mentioned?) so unique and so original that it will set you apart from other students and artists. Perhaps you are meant to have more time to learn and discover aspects of yourself and your talent that, in the end, will make you into an even greater artist. At the very least, use the emotion you are now feeling and pour that into your artwork. Who knows what wonderful works might be borne of this pain? Andy Warhol's "So what?" philosophy has gotten me through disappointments and difficulties, too. It can an invaluable mentality if used right, and I'm glad you're finding some comfort from it..just don't allow it to spiral out too far into total apathy. 
You'll reach your goals and realize your dreams, Sammi. You may not get there in the way you'd imagined, but you'll overcome the hurdles and disappointment, and you will succeed. | |
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Spookymuffin said: sammij said: Evian. spell that shit backwards, what's it say? Naive.
although i do love Evian anyway. I'm gonna start bottling my own brand of water! Eniru! 
i love you, can i say that? i love you. [...i think i can, i think i can, i think i can...] | |
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ThreadBare said: God seems to choose to propel us with disappointment as often as He chooses to use recognition.
I've been passed over once or twice for opportunities in favor of less-qualified folks (once to a degree that it was almost laughable). Life is unfair. The challenge is to let that unfairness make you better and, in the case of an artist, to use it. And, in retrospect, the opportunities weren't as important as they seemed at the time, in the big picture of life. I got chances to do stuff they never did. It evens out, amiga. Trust me. thanks thready b
i hope something bigger and better comes of this... [...i think i can, i think i can, i think i can...] | |
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sammij said: Spookymuffin said: I'm gonna start bottling my own brand of water! Eniru!
i love you, can i say that? i love you. Sure you can, and I love you too. | |
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WillyWonka said: sammij said: imago, thank you
it irks me to pity myself (although i find m'self doing that quite often) but in this instance, i decided to cry rather than to rage, just because knowing my temper, i'd more than likely say something to the Jean's (the chair of the department) face that i know i'll regret in the coming year. the anger is there, i'm just trying to remain subdued until i reach home later tonight.. and in regards to your experience, i don't even know if anger would be enough to keep me going... that is a slap in the face in the least... hurtful... and i'm a dweller... so that would eat at me forever... you know, i was reading Andy Warhol's "the philosophy of andy warhol" and i learned a good lesson that may help in certain situations (to some degree anyway) to use the expression "so what?" for instance: "i didn't make it into honours studio... but so what?" which kind of helps surprisingly i still get mad and think to myself, so what, it means i have even a lesser chance at getting into grad school..
im working on it and everyone here is going to see after we graduate. i'll make a name for myself. Sounds trite, but after enduring many disappointments of my own over things or situations I desperately wanted (or believed I'd earned or deserved), I finally concluded that there truly is a reason for everything that happens. At this moment, when your emotions are still so raw, it's probably nearly impossible to think anything positive might eventually come of your not being accepted into that program. But try looking at the situation through objective eyes, and see what you can take from it to use to your advantage: perhaps this disappointment was meant to spur you on to doing something (such as the possible solo show you'd mentioned?) so unique and so original that it will set you apart from other students and artists. Perhaps you are meant to have more time to learn and discover aspects of yourself and your talent that, in the end, will make you into an even greater artist. At the very least, use the emotion you are now feeling and pour that into your artwork. Who knows what wonderful works might be borne of this pain? Andy Warhol's "So what?" philosophy has gotten me through disappointments and difficulties, too. It can an invaluable mentality if used right, and I'm glad you're finding some comfort from it..just don't allow it to spiral out too far into total apathy.
You'll reach your goals and realize your dreams, Sammi. You may not get there in the way you'd imagined, but you'll overcome the hurdles and disappointment, and you will succeed. you sir... 
thank you for the encouragement and perhaps i will try and zone in on the emotion and use it in my work...
i just need to get over today is all [...i think i can, i think i can, i think i can...] | |
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sammij said: chocolate1 said: I'm so sorry!
Another example that U're not alone: The 1st time I took my Qualifying Exams to go from Doctoral student to Doctoral Candidate, I failed miserably. I couldn't believe that after 3 years of coursework, and a whole weekend sequestered in a hotel room writing 4 10-page papers, I was deemed "unsatisfactory". I tried to get an appointment with everybody in the department, but I was basically told to just retake them. I cried my heart out, feeling like the biggest loser & failure in the world, because the people in my study group passed.
I took a year off, and contemplated how much I needed to be "Dr. Lynn". When the new application form came, I filled it out, put my game face on, re-booked the hotel room, and kicked ass. I am now preparing my Proposal for defense.
I say all that to say: Sometimes we have to keep trying. Of course U're crying now. I moped for a while. BUT do some research and keep applying. There is a program with your name on it! U're a talented artist, girl!
i would reapply if i could but the moment i have all my credits next year i'm getting the fuck out of Brock University - they can eat my ass.
i'm still going to graduate with honours, and flying colours... im just going to be open to as many opportunities as possible once i'm done school... It doesn't have to be the same one. Like I said, there is a program with your name on it!
And CONGRATS on your accomplishments! "Love Hurts. Your lies, they cut me. Now your words don't mean a thing. I don't give a damn if you ever loved me..." -Cher, "Woman's World" | |
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Spookymuffin said: sammij said:
i love you, can i say that? i love you. Sure you can, and I love you too. [...i think i can, i think i can, i think i can...] | |
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chocolate1 said: sammij said: i would reapply if i could but the moment i have all my credits next year i'm getting the fuck out of Brock University - they can eat my ass.
i'm still going to graduate with honours, and flying colours... im just going to be open to as many opportunities as possible once i'm done school... It doesn't have to be the same one. Like I said, there is a program with your name on it!
And CONGRATS on your accomplishments! accomplishments... yeah there are a few of those huh? 
i do actually have another show coming up i just found out today... 
maybe i'm just being too ambitious? [...i think i can, i think i can, i think i can...] | |
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sammij said: Spookymuffin said: Sure you can, and I love you too. Ok I'm gonna go look up some messy blowjobs now. | |
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this was the email i got from Jean:
Jean says: Hi Samille,
I am aware that you will be very disappointed with the news I gave your earlier this evening indicating that the Department of Visual Arts - having reviewed your proposal for VISA 4F06 - did not support your application for the Honours Studio at this time. Our decisions were made based on our understanding of the readiness of each student for sustained work in an intensive, self-defined and critically engaged studio environment. We carefully reviewed the interests outlined in each proposal - looking for clarity and substance. Moreover, we paid considerable attention to the work presented with each application for its demonstration of ability to produce relatively mature work that is stimulating on a variety of levels - from the formal to the conceptual. Given that the Honours Studio will require a high level of research and integration of discursive ideas with focused and sustained artistic practice, we found that not all applicants were prepared or suited for this course. We are confident that you can very effectively pursue your interests in courses like VISA 3F90 (Thematic Challenges in Integrated Media) and VISA 3P93/4 (the advanced drawing courses). I'd be happy to talk further with you about your options at any time. In the meantime, I hope you have a good summer! kiss my ass advanced drawing courses. i can't draw for SHIT. I'M A PAINTER! SHE KNOWS THIS! 
VISA 3F90, the course i have to take now, is THE REJECT course
but i hear it's a tad better, i just don't get my own studio space like the Honours kids do. fuck. [...i think i can, i think i can, i think i can...] | |
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Spookymuffin said: sammij said: Ok I'm gonna go look up some messy blowjobs now.  [...i think i can, i think i can, i think i can...] | |
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sammij said: WillyWonka said: Sounds trite, but after enduring many disappointments of my own over things or situations I desperately wanted (or believed I'd earned or deserved), I finally concluded that there truly is a reason for everything that happens. At this moment, when your emotions are still so raw, it's probably nearly impossible to think anything positive might eventually come of your not being accepted into that program. But try looking at the situation through objective eyes, and see what you can take from it to use to your advantage: perhaps this disappointment was meant to spur you on to doing something (such as the possible solo show you'd mentioned?) so unique and so original that it will set you apart from other students and artists. Perhaps you are meant to have more time to learn and discover aspects of yourself and your talent that, in the end, will make you into an even greater artist. At the very least, use the emotion you are now feeling and pour that into your artwork. Who knows what wonderful works might be borne of this pain? Andy Warhol's "So what?" philosophy has gotten me through disappointments and difficulties, too. It can an invaluable mentality if used right, and I'm glad you're finding some comfort from it..just don't allow it to spiral out too far into total apathy.
You'll reach your goals and realize your dreams, Sammi. You may not get there in the way you'd imagined, but you'll overcome the hurdles and disappointment, and you will succeed. you sir...
thank you for the encouragement and perhaps i will try and zone in on the emotion and use it in my work...
i just need to get over today is all Can you grab something meaningless but physical and destroy it? That sometimes helps my aggression 2010: Healing the Wounds of the Past.... http://prince.org/msg/8/325740 | |
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SupaFunkyOrgangrinderSexy said: sammij said: you sir...
thank you for the encouragement and perhaps i will try and zone in on the emotion and use it in my work...
i just need to get over today is all Can you grab something meaningless but physical and destroy it? That sometimes helps my aggression to be honest i, initially, had the impulse to come home and torch everything i've been working on from first year. i, of course, would never do that, but, the thought did cross my mind. [...i think i can, i think i can, i think i can...] | |
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sammij said: WillyWonka said: Sounds trite, but after enduring many disappointments of my own over things or situations I desperately wanted (or believed I'd earned or deserved), I finally concluded that there truly is a reason for everything that happens. At this moment, when your emotions are still so raw, it's probably nearly impossible to think anything positive might eventually come of your not being accepted into that program. But try looking at the situation through objective eyes, and see what you can take from it to use to your advantage: perhaps this disappointment was meant to spur you on to doing something (such as the possible solo show you'd mentioned?) so unique and so original that it will set you apart from other students and artists. Perhaps you are meant to have more time to learn and discover aspects of yourself and your talent that, in the end, will make you into an even greater artist. At the very least, use the emotion you are now feeling and pour that into your artwork. Who knows what wonderful works might be borne of this pain? Andy Warhol's "So what?" philosophy has gotten me through disappointments and difficulties, too. It can an invaluable mentality if used right, and I'm glad you're finding some comfort from it..just don't allow it to spiral out too far into total apathy.
You'll reach your goals and realize your dreams, Sammi. You may not get there in the way you'd imagined, but you'll overcome the hurdles and disappointment, and you will succeed. you sir...
thank you for the encouragement and perhaps i will try and zone in on the emotion and use it in my work...
i just need to get over today is all And you.
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sammij said: chocolate1 said: It doesn't have to be the same one. Like I said, there is a program with your name on it!
And CONGRATS on your accomplishments! accomplishments... yeah there are a few of those huh?
i do actually have another show coming up i just found out today...
maybe i'm just being too ambitious? See? That heifer won't matter when U're rich and famous! "Love Hurts. Your lies, they cut me. Now your words don't mean a thing. I don't give a damn if you ever loved me..." -Cher, "Woman's World" | |
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