Dude....I seriously can see how it unfolds.

You start life a little chubby (me) and you go through life a little heavy (me). Since your family rides your ass all your life about wieght you develop an eating disorder (me).

Bear with me people...I gained 40 pounds in a year last year in that God foresaken city of Charlotte, NC. Dude...I thought I was a chunk then, now it's reeeetarded! Although I left and got out of that fucking city and am much happier, I can see how it happens.

You feel miserable cause your fat...so you eat...you feel miserable cause you ate, so you eat. Then, you feel like such an ugly Jabba the Hut, so you NEVER leave your house....thus more eating and deeper depression ensues. If left unattended and untreated...I could have sat in my house and I may have ended up like those people on TV!

OK...so I am being dramatic but dude, my job sucked, I was unhappy as hell, and I was getting fatter and fatter. I never went out...I just ordered pizza after pizza and sure enough one year later...I detest that city! So many awful memories attached to it!

I feel sorry for people that don't bust out of that cycle. I can now see how it happens, you dont go out cause you dont want to be seen that way, so you sit and eat. Sad life to live...you aren't living.

Dude...don't let it happen to you...and get a trainer like I did. Recovery is wonderful!

Randomness over!

KatSkrizzle said:

know where u r hun, recovery is wonderful! still in the process of losing it, but yay.

Over the 2 yrs of TR's cancer issue I put on over 35 lbs

I can understand exactly about the eating to feel better - feel like shit - eat - feel better - feel like shit - eat and so on

I am having to unlearn the bad habbits I took on to ease my stress, that really lead to more stress

it's not easy

I weigh more now then I did at term in 2 pregnancys



I am a fat phat Mach

I gained a good 15 pounds from poorly managing the stress of school, the stress of the holidays, and the stress of moving. I've lost some of it and have been up in the gym a bit but a huge part of it is that when I'm stressed I get voraciously hungry and nothing fills me up. I need to do something about that.

I also need to bust my ass on the treadmill more often.

Mach said:

I love it!!!

JasmineFire said:

Undergrad? I gained a total of 35 throughout my 4 years. That was very stressful. But I lost 50 affter graduating so it was all good.

I think the hardest thing to swallow is the fact that it is entirely up to you and how you handle it and nothing and no one else to blame. Hate the job, get out...what a cycle

I dont think my body is capable of being 400 pounds. I am the heaviest I have ever been in my life. I weigh 168 pounds. But, I do understand that the older you get, the easier it becomes to eat more food. I have never eaten as much as I do now. So, I do understand how people gain weight.

fat sucks, I know. I've learned to accept it. But I understand what you're feeling.

It sucks that eating is SO GOOD.

Never really experienced this...and my family say I have the diet of your average teenager (basically junk) but my weight only fluxuate by 7lbs at the most. I'm usually between 139 and 146

Although I'm 37 , so I know my metabolism is already slowing down and if I keep eating this way it won't only be 7lbs I gain. I want to eat better, but I don't like healthy shit and I don't eat green stuff.
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KatSkrizzle said:

I actually lost weight in undergrad because I was still dancing, this new weight gain is rather recent and harder to lose because I'm older. I know that I've lost some of it (or at least gained some muscle) because I look slimmer but there's still some more to go. I hated the preclinical aspects of veterinary school and found them to be much more stressful than they needed to be and I feel much better now that I'm doing my clinical training but even then...when I get stress, the first thing I want to do is eat my weight in food.

Mach said:

I seem to remember a very nice photo of someones cute butt in some sexy black underwear. Didn't look fat to me. But it was phat.

okay you fat fuckers.....we also have this country to blame (USA) for all the advertising behind the crap food that makes us fat and sick

we don't have the highest heart disease rate in the world for nothing!

i'm sure we are also the craziest about exercise too - go work those abs!!

KatSkrizzle: Sometimes it’s a case of “What’s eating you?” (Naughty Orgers, behave yoselves! ) not “What you eat.”

In my case, the reasons but no longer the excuses:
The sexual abuse by two uncles and two cousins. I’ve forgiven them, for my own sake.

On the job there was sexual harassment. Some executives would try rubbing their groin on the shoulders of the female employees as they were sitting busy at their desk. I would stand, in order for this not to happen after the first time it occurred to me.
I supported my household (son & self) and mother, from time to time. The $ was good but the environment stunk. Maybe I was angry with myself for staying. Who knows? I’m no longer there.

Now add...cancer slowly killing your mom’s organs, no matter how much she fought those 13 years - to live. Then to really add to the helplessness you already feel, your mom dies because of the bacteria from a bedsore. Bedsores are dangerous.

Anger can be pain’s mask. The overeating and depression etc. could be symptoms of issues you may not be aware of. My small, slow weight release shall continue because I want to be healthy but not skinny. Morbid obesity has been my “armor”. But not anymore because it now hinders my health.

Big or lean...I know myself. I love God, first. Then...I love myself no matter the size of my body. I love my son and most family members. And then to the best of my ability, I love others.

Good reading:
“Natural Cures...” Trudeau. http://www.naturalcures.com/

Take care KatSkrizzle @)-}-----

I swear I thought something similar today as I drove through a certain part of Richmond, CA. There was basically a strip mall that I've never been to - blocks & blocks of food & stores & mess & stores & more food Krispy Kreme, Taco Hell, Chili's, Outback (I like that one actually), McD's, Burger King, etc. - all the fast food you could think of within a few blocks. I thought to myself, "they make it so easy for mf's to get/stay fat!!" & yes, my punk ass strolled through the Krispy Kreme drivethrough (DONUT DRIVE-THROUGH, think about it!!) & succumbed to an original glazed. I hadn't had KK in well over a year!



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jbchavez said:

of course your body can't be 400 pounds! but sit at home n never come out and eat all day...and get big as hell!!!!

Boriqua1130 said:

yes ma'am! not to divuldge all my business but i went to a therapist and dealt with my issues...she advised me to quit that piece of shit job in order to stop some of that binging. A therapist tells you that your job is making you sick! wow!

KatSkrizzle said:

re: leaving your toxic job - That's great!

good luck with getting healthy!
I know how you feel (I once was 100 pounds heavier than I am now)
but it's hard staying on track

Keep healthy, stay strong

thekidsgirl said:

Thanks shug!!!!