I could cry, in fact I already did.

what's wrong?

ZombieKitten said:

I don't know! I feel really upset and I have no good reason for it.

Would another Happy Birthday on your Birthday thread make you feel better?

Actually I do know. I was looking at some photos of my grandma's apartment, and she doesn't live there any more. I will never see that place again. My mum asked me to call her before 9.30pm, because that is before she has her nap. But I forgot, and I feel bad, since I was meant to wish her happy easter.

Serious said:

maybe we need to keep that thread going until I turn 38 next January

ZombieKitten said:

can u call her tomorrow?

Here X 12 and a Happy Easter 2 U !

prb said:

tomorrow night I can, but I missed the boat
I also feel like I will never go there again, she lives in sweden.

AndGodCreatedMe said:

thank you

IrrisistableRich said:

aaaw

ZombieKitten said:

I can't post there anymore !

When I pass by houses/apartments I lived in as a child it makes me sad everytime .
It must be hard to be so far apart from your parts of your family .

ZombieKitten said:

oh dear. well, if it'll make you feel better, you use me as your .

alwayslate said:

come here

Serious said:

wtf!

it IS so hard and strange, to be so far away

ZombieKitten said:

That's totally unfair !!!

I added you to my top friends on myspace yesterday, maybe that makes up for that birhday thread locking a bit ?

ZombieKitten said:

I know what you mean

Serious said:

OK. that sure does

do other people feel complicated like this sometimes too or is it just me? Yes, I am feeling sorry for myself, and tomorrow of course I will pull myself together and get on with things, but it's OK to take the time to feel these things sometimes, right?

shanti0608 said:

and you are just a beginner at it I can't imagine being so far away from my mum as you are

ZombieKitten said:

ZombieKitten said:

It's not just you, I am doing this all the time, but then again I am quite complicated . We need to "live" our emotions and feelings intead of repressing them, it's a healty and necessary thing .

Serious said:

yes, I like to think so, but I have no-one to tell these things to. I have always had a very strong desire to go back to my motherland to live, the reason why I never became an Australian citizen. I could have gone back any time, but I went and started a "real life" for myself here, without thinking, and now I cannot go back. I have to deal with that daily.

ZombieKitten said:

That's a fucked up situation . Who knows, maybe one day in the future you will go back . Life is crazy sometimes.
I am repressing a lot myself, so I am not totally practicing what I preach . I can relate about having someone to talk to about certain things. That's one of the reasons why I am so thankful for my org friends who listen to my rantings patiently all the time and support me so much .

Serious said:

ditto

ZombieKitten said:

ZombieKitten said:

There are times when i feel like this.

Sometimes I just feel torn and like I don't know what I really want and then there are other times when I have a hard time accepting the things in life that I can't change.

I hope you are feeling better.