I'm pretty sure that my listening to "Come" ultimately led me to have this dream, but I've been thinking about it ever since I woke up this morning.

I was talking to a friend of mine from college. In some twisted way, he was involved in the drama show (setting was the drama stage at my high school)... but he's a marine bio major like myself.
And when we met at MARS club, I had a crush on him because he is good looking.

I don't know how we got here, but we get to lunch where we're sitting across from one another. I don't remember what we were talking about, but I find myself leaning across the table to kiss him.
My "first kiss"... with this one guy I met through Facebook, was very unpleasant. There was no attraction and I just felt wrong all over. Other than watching American Idol with him some night a couple of years ago, I hadn't seen him or heard from him since. But he was moving too fast for my tastes. Nothing further than that kiss and 2-3 that followed happened, but since then, I've felt myself very... nervous almost afraid... okay afraid of getting close to a guy other than friendship.

That's my general deal. I'm a tomboy and have befriended a lot of guys in the past. I've had crushes on one or two that was never reciporated... since getting to college, I've been the one asked out. By two guys. Either way, it just never worked out... I couldn't see them that way. No chemistry. That memory of what that kiss was like still makes me

The kiss in the dream was nothing like that and I was surprised at myself. Even in the dream, I was surprised about how good it felt. I had pretty much dismissed the idea of me and this guy being more than friends as we are now and we only see each other about once a week (he has a certain class in the section b4 me). And I might have combined him with the persona of a guy I liked in high school who was two years younger than I am, who was involved in drama & choir.

I've been thinking about the idea of a relationship with someone (no one in particular right now)... all thanks to Prince where I commonly put myself in the position of his "partner"... It's insane to think his music is trying to bring out the "lover" in me and wanting to give it to someone else, to have those feelings being reciporated... even going beyond that.

If I could erase that one night with that/those bad kiss(es), I really would because otherwise, I'd be perfectly fine in the situation I'm picturing.
Dreams are mysterious that way because they seem to reveal thoughts deep within ur subconscious... but they also erase things like nerves, apprehensions and fears... like the idea of kissing someone and enjoying it, not having it bring about percussions of something that didn't turn out for the best.

During my class earlier, I was thinking about actually trying to kiss this guy to see if the dream spoke of a hidden truth. That I could truly feel comfortable with someone else that a kiss would be a magical feeling. That's nowhere near my personality. I'm usually the reserved type who doesn't act on instinct much at all. For the sake of experiment, I would do it, but what would happen afterwards, when he'd ask why I did what I did, I'm not sure if I could ever explain that

You're a girl?

Stymie said:

that's not the point of my rant...

This would fall under the category of most random dreams ever

Here's the irony of it all. I write fiction and poetry. And in everything of fiction I write, there's a love story in there somewhere. Even though I had believed I was in love a few times in my life, it was never the real deal

Don't do it Dreamy.

wildgoldenhoney said:

don't do what? confront him and kiss him

I didnt even see him today... but the next time I do... I dont know whats gonna happen.
I'm debating about calling him up and telling him about my dream and asking what he thinks about it... but im not good with telephones... and I wouldnt want to taint our friendship over something as silly as a dream

nice dream

Ok, put the crack pipe down now.

drinking tainted water fucks folks up...fo' realz....

I still don't get how listening to Come inspired all of this.

Prince : "JAZZ MASH POTATO FUZZTONE ALL OVER YOUR THIGHS!!! OH BABY!!!!"

Dreamy : "Should I kiss this dude in real life or not??!"

Where's the connection???

Stymie said:

Go for it Dreamy!

...You like Inuyasha?! me toooo!

purplesweat said:

I'm not even gonna try to explain it to u cuz you'd just turn it around to say you think I'm insane.
I still stand by my statement that to get in2 Prince's music and a majority of it, you have to give up a bit of sanity. I may have given up more than most, but hey, that's just me

thekidsgirl said:

haha...

well, here's the end of this chapter.
I took him aside today b4 he left the cafeteria. Just opened the floor for the usual conversation between us, how things are going, mid-terms, spring break plans, etc.

I must have been seriously blushing while bringing up my dream to him. "This is gonna sound so weird, but I had a dream the other night and you were in it." He asks what kind of dream.
I say we're talking to each other as we are now and towards the end, we kiss... and it was nice, I liked it.

We're both laughing nervously at it. I'm blushing and shaking my head in total disbelief. And he's like "It was just a dream.." and he adds, still laughing, "Thanks for telling me."

I still can't believe I told him that, but I figured it was worth a shot. It was probably the first vivid dream I've had in weeks, I told him. Then I casusally brought up that I think of him as a good friend and he agreed to those terms. We carried on the rest of the conversation, busines as usual, but pretty crazy.
I controlled myself
I'm just gonna hope that the feeling of awkwardness (I'm not sure if he was just as awkward about it as I was, I'm almost always awkward when talking to my guy friends about this sort of thing) is gone by the next time I see him

and yes InuYasha is awesome!

DreamyPopRoyalty said:

Good for you, controlling yourself

****

You're alot braver than I am! I don't think I've ever come clean with a crush, much less a dream I had about one Go girl!

thekidsgirl said:

Believe me, I'm not all that brave. I had to take a hot shower afterwards, I was so red.

With 2 past crushes I've had in high school, I had to give them notes telling them how I felt... and just wait for reaction the next day

I consider this guy a friend. I get the feeling I had that particular dream for a reason I didn't think of at first. I've been interpreting my dreams for years, especially when I keep seeing people commonly in them.

Here's 2 interpretations I found:




I came across something different than my thoughts... but my idea is that a kiss between friends might not mean romance it could just mean that I consider him as a very close friend and the kiss was reminsicent of that.

Also maybe to tell me I had been isolating myself for too long and I just needed to talk to someone.

Just an incredible feeling to not feel inhibited by awkwardness or insecurity of past experience... I must feel really close to this guy and consider him one of my closest friends here. The only other person I see myself that close with was my freshman year roommate who I love like a sister.