I found out that my father has cancer. He has prostate cancer with a PSA (Mach) of 40, and it has spread to his bladder and urethra. He's having a CT scan on Wednesday to see if it's spread to other areas. Evidently, it's a rare type of aggressive cancer.

I am entirely crushed, I have a very strong bond with my daddy. I am flashing back to my childhood, and if anyone has lost a parent, it is the most devastating feeling I've ever felt. I feel like I'm losing my sanity, because I can't ever see my life without my father.

I am so sorry .

That sux biggie time

I am not doing well at all.

I don't usually show my vulnerable side, but I am seriously not ok. I'm drinking at 11:30am. To describe this feeling would be like wanting to crawl out of your skin, and almost being punched in the stomach. I've never felt like this before.

gemini13 said:

I'm so sorry to hear about this!

psychodelicide said:

gemini13 said:

Do you have someone you can talk to? It's important that you have people where you can be "weak" .

Serious said:

I have my husband here, but he's now looking at me like "uh, yeah". I admit that I'm not the most rational person at this moment.

gemini13 said:

Tell him how you feel, talk with him or friends about your dad and how sad you are.

Be strong.
They're treating and beating cancer everyday.

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I will do what I have to do, and if my hubster doesn't get it, I don't care. I am WAY beyond that point, I will feel what I feel regardless.

Love...

You see, THIS is what I hate about the org. "I cut my hair" and "what are you wearing?" are more important than my father dying.

Hugs, Gemini. What a tough time, but be faithful... you never know how things may be worked out. In the meantime, love your dad and take care of both him and yourself.

...and by all means feel free to vent here.

I'm so sorry

I'm so sorry!

For you and your family.

Stay strong

Prayin' for you, him and your family.

I'm thinking of you and your family... all my prayers.

keeping you and your father in my thoughts.

Don't be discouraged. It may be a tough fight but he can win it. There are so many treatments available these days and more and more people are winning the battle. Make sure he gets the best treatment out there.

Where are you from? Dana Farber in Boston is one of the best places out there, people come from all over to be seen by the doctors there.


I wish you and your dad the best

gemini13 said:

I just logged on (again) and saw your post. I am truly sorry for how you are feeling. I am not going to lie and act like I've been thru the same thing, but I want to show support.

I think people avoid threads like this because sometimes they don't know what to say, or they feel uncomfortable with negative emotion. Also, they come on here for "trite conversation" and something like this is too deep. (But that doesn't mean they don't care. )
But don't get discouraged . . . there are some of us who do feel like if we can spend so much time on here with each other talking about junk, we can take time to comfort one another.

gemini13 said: