DexMSR said:

Humans evolve.

the show was ok... the snow storm prevented a lot of people from coming
the label beside my name had the wrong year on it, i just finished it 2 weeks ago
nothing big, i didn't stay long either... oh well, I was mostly happy with it

I have to say, right now I am feeling loved, joyful, and complete for the first time in 3 months! Not sure how long it will last, but right now, I just want to soak it in.

MoniGram said:

Those 3 can be a rare combination - hope they lasts a long time for you

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FlamingRaindrop said:

At least for the day!

InsatiableCream said:

How did you manage to do that?

I need it too...
Some nights I wish I had someone...
A particular someone
exclusively
It's what I've been thinking of
a lot lately.

Just that one
where is he?

* My ex-boss is a douche bag.
* Who are these wackos who sometimes call me at 12:30 am. 5:30 am or at some other ungodly hour? Go away and leave me alone, I'm trying to sleep!
* Took the phone off the hook, so above-mentioned issue will no longer be a problem.
* Stayed up too late, my day is going to be screwed up tomorrow.

I don't understand why he's mad at me
Doesn't he know that I mean that I need only him?
Is it wrong for me to say so?
I acknowledge his weakness and understand.

Though he's far away,
I can still sense how he's feeling
I can understand how he's feeling
but why doesn't he understand me
or try to understand me?
Am I doing something wrong?
Saying something wrong?
I don't get it.
Does he expect me to be a certain way
and not be myself?

It's nice to be appreciated for who I am
and not for who someone perceives me to be.

I'm a very sensitive person
and get my feelings hurt easily
and when people get pissed with me
and shut me out
I take it personally,
as a rejection of me

My problem is being a people pleaser
because I like to make people feel better
but sometimes, they don't understand that about me
and I feel unappreciated
as a person
and people tend to take me for granted
thinking that I would always be there

and walk over me and treat the way they want
I'm human.

I need to put my ass to bed. I'm tired as hell, and here I sit.

Lately
I've been feeling so in love
that I ache with sadness sometimes
and loneliness
just wondering about him

Truth is
I've never been in love
I've loved,
and certainly not like now
both in love and I love that person
so much so
that I'm anxious

I got nothing to read

I worry so much that I won't be able to
make him happy
or satisfy him
or keep his interest

It may seem unbalanced of me to have said that
but when I think about it
I want to make him happy
as for my needs
I feel they're secondary

In a relationship
it's give and take
and I have needs too

right now
him just being here
with me
and acknowledging me
I do appreciate
and recognize that's
his way

I've also been wondering as far as our relationship goes
because of my current situation (past relationship actually)
and how to handle that certain part of my life
I wish I knew if he knows about that
that it hasn't been resolved yet
and that I still need to take care of it
and that since it's hard to resolve it
I'm wondering if he knows that we won't be able to
go forward until that is done

I need help

God help me, please

I'm driving myself nuts
thinking too much
worrying about things
I think are beyond my control
but I can't help thinking about them
what am I gonna do?

wildgoldenhoney said:

do you want me to answer with a picture?


(I don't know what else I could do )

ZombieKitten said:

Thanks. But I was just talking out loud.
Didn't think anyone heard me.







Rant over now...
though still got things on my mind
hopefully they'll be resolved later though.

I guess I should sleep too.

ZombieKitten said:

Thanks. But I was just talking out loud.
Didn't think anyone heard me.







Rant over now...
though still got things on my mind
hopefully they'll be resolved later though.

I guess I should sleep too.

Good Morning.....

well...

couldn't sleep a wink yet
i'm still feeling troubled
but okay

thanks for the concerns sent
via orgnotes all
i appreciate your thoughtfulness
didn't mean to freak anyone out

but thanks for all the orgnotes...

well...

couldn't sleep a wink yet
i'm still feeling troubled
but okay

thanks for the concerns sent
via orgnotes all
i appreciate your thoughtfulness
didn't mean to freak anyone out

but thanks for all the orgnotes...

on the reverse...

Could he fill my needs?
How does he see me?
Am i a person - or an object?
Could just anyone do for him?
Why does he want me?
Am i really anything special to him?
Will he only tell me things that he thinks i want to hear?
Is he like other men, thinking that he can fool a woman with charm?

I'm not trying to be fussy, but sometimes these things run through my mind.

I don't like to put up any pretense, making him think that life with me will be a breeze and picture perfect beauty, but I like to be real. And if he sees me this way and doesn't like what he sees, then at least he's seen the real me and if so he should decide to step out of this relationship, then at least he can look for the fantasy wife somewhere else.
Well, I don't even know if this is how he feels or will think, but, as I said, I like to keep it real. I like stability in a relationship and trust.

I don't even know why I'm ranting and raving again... but I need to get some of this bad air out.

Sorry!
Even though these are painful words
I had to say them
they're bugging me.

I know I won't have an answer
and now is not the time,
but...sorry again.

Okay,
yeah,
I may be trippin a little.