a bunch of things, im a ball of emotions : one is that i feel underappreciated by peeps , that i live with, we never had a gr8 relationship anyway nor do i think we can nor do i think id like one with them. don't feel loved, feeeel alone, miss my mom a LOT, i no its wrong but id like a partner, the reason i think its wrong is cause its wrong cause of the reasoning. and the reasoning is that i dont feel wanted, and i should be able to just BE loved, as opposed 2 trying 2 find it.

really confused bout where my life/career is heading if anywhere.

do u all feel sooooo alone living in a house with others and feeling like ur living ur seperate life, and the fact that i have been at home 4 the past 2 months ever since i left the pharmacy isn't helping either.

bored, un motivated and alone

been trying 2 write and i have a bit but not a lot. want 2 set up book signings etc but my brothers thoughts ( posted a looooong time ago, not sure where on here) r coming back into my head




anyway just wanted 2 vent, no need 2 reply

i may go 2 the beach and sit by the water in a little bit and maybe take a few photos and ill try 2 post em.

bye

UPDATE: just got back, had dinner and now am gonna post em on my site cause i still after yrs have no idea how 2 post here, lol, ill let u all now when they r up.
[Edited 2/2/08 23:17pm]

Ure not alone

chillichocaholic said:

thanks Glenda!

babooshleeky said:

thanks sweetie

im sorry hun i know how u feel

missmad said:

you're not alone, many of us have been there at some time in our lives. things will change, it'll get better.

I wish I had a body of water I could go to, that's one of the main things I really miss about home. I would spend hours sitting at the lake looking at the water but unfortunately there isn't one close to me. If there was one I'd neee-ver be home.

Big hug

missmad said:

you should do that, love the beach, been wanting to do that myself but it's still a bit too cold for the beach.

hoping you feel better big hug

LuvMeNow said:

thanks honey bun

statuesqque said:

awwwww, thanks. do u have access 2 a bath tub?

littlemissG said:

thanks sweetheart

veronikka said:

there was a change of plans as my aunt had gotten back from overseas so we went 2 say hey and had dinner, but i will be going in the morning.

thanks lovely.

Hun, you are not alone! You know Moni is only an orgnote, yahoo, email away from you. If you need to talk, you know where to find me!

Everything you are dealing with, will clear, and you will see what direction you need to take.

Keep your head up, be strong, and remember Moni loves you!

missmad said:

yes, but it's not the same thing. I like watching the movement of the water, the white caps and hearing the sounds it's very calming and peaceful to me.

psychodelicide said:

thanks honey

MoniGram said:

i no sweetie, ure always there, i hope so, im tryin and yes i no u love me, mwah, love u 2, M

awwww let's feel bad together

One4All4Ever said:

Does this mean I have to hug u too now?

chillichocaholic said:

I've been hugged enough tonight ...

(but yours is greatly appreciated )

One4All4Ever said:

YW

Steadwood said:

awwwww E, ur sooooo sweet!

added some photos on the photography page

missmad said:

That beach looks amazing!!! you take beautiful photos

Those pics are amazing hun!

MoniGram said:

thanks mon! i had an infatuation with the moss that day, lol

missmad said:

That rose picture, I think I want to make that my wallpaper on my puter. Beautiful!!!!

MoniGram said:

awwwww, hugs and kisses Mon!