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PrintableAnxiety said: shanti0608 said: I think that happens to many of us...  it certainly happens to me 
sometimes for reasons i couldn't even tell ya (seasonal affective winter blah crap) and sometimes for reasons that are pretty easy to guess. this year will be my first christmas ever without the family i've been used to celebrating with my entire life; my grandmother died the day after christmas last year and my mom died september of this year. it's hard, but in a way i'm totally on-board for getting through it and finding a new way to appreciate christmas with the people i still have around me, while keeping my family's memory in tact as part of my personal traditions for the holiday. it's going to be a hard christmas, but i can't say it will be the worst christmas. the worst would be the previous two years when i had to watch my mom and grandma get sicker and suffer more. at least now they're free from their pain. i guess with all this on my mind, i can't be bothered to be cynical about over-commercialization or religious bickering or whatever else. i'm just struggling with the personal meaning of this time of year to me - family history, and the fact that a huge chapter of that history has come to a close. wow, that got deep  it's nice to see that you still look for the positve in what could be a really tough/sad time of year for you...I wish you the best....  | |
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Anxiety said: shanti0608 said: I think that happens to many of us... it certainly happens to me
sometimes for reasons i couldn't even tell ya (seasonal affective winter blah crap) and sometimes for reasons that are pretty easy to guess. this year will be my first christmas ever without the family i've been used to celebrating with my entire life; my grandmother died the day after christmas last year and my mom died september of this year. it's hard, but in a way i'm totally on-board for getting through it and finding a new way to appreciate christmas with the people i still have around me, while keeping my family's memory in tact as part of my personal traditions for the holiday. it's going to be a hard christmas, but i can't say it will be the worst christmas. the worst would be the previous two years when i had to watch my mom and grandma get sicker and suffer more. at least now they're free from their pain. i guess with all this on my mind, i can't be bothered to be cynical about over-commercialization or religious bickering or whatever else. i'm just struggling with the personal meaning of this time of year to me - family history, and the fact that a huge chapter of that history has come to a close. wow, that got deep I will be thinking of you Chris
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