Whitnail said:

Yes - I was 17 ( I had been gang raped and ended up pregnant )

put myself in the hospital for 5 days and a few months of assisted mental health healing

Mach said:

MoniGram said:

wow, dont mean that to sound like we are in a competition, but that is rough what you say, I hope your son is ok, he is about the age i was when i first witnessed it, it is a very strange situation to be in, no answers, no reasons, simply just happens. last summer my neighbours cousin hung himself, when that happened, i knew nothing of it, and walked past my neighbour and friend, coz i had other so-called important problems, but the next day i met him and then they told me, i just stood there shell shocked, as my brothers best friends wifes brother had died as well, at the merry age of 35, with 2 kids and another on the way, ever since, this neighbour has a connection to me, i am one of the few people he talks about this to. maybe becoz his cousin and i have a song that we both love/loved "Where is my mind" the Pixies

life is strange

Mach said:

Whitnail said:

My son is fine, thank you! After a few of us parents spoke up, they set up a group for the friends of these kids, and they meet once a week so they can talk about their feelings. After both suicides happened, his father and I let our son know that we were there for him if he needed anything. We kept those lines open.

Mach said:

and you were saying you have a bigger porn collection

To be honest i have no other way of replying to that, only to say that i have had a very similiar experience, and i am not sure if it is something i could talk about here, but your courage to mention it is amazing, no more words

peace

MoniGram said:

that is so important, i can not stress that enough, let your children know you are there, no matter what it is, the door should always be open

that is the highest priority of a parent

be there

Whitnail said:

to both of you

nothing to say that would not sound demented

WillyWonka said:

I am lost for words, but your words inspire me

Peace N B WILD

Whitnail said:

Sad to say yes....

I've given it serious thought from time to time most of my life, starting at about age 13 or so. Came quite close a time or two. Thoughts of my mother and later my niece kept me from going through with it. I'm sure it will be something that I'll think about from time to time forever. But at this point I think it will always be more something to daydream/fantasize about, less an actual plan. At least, I hope so.

Oh sure. There have been several times in my life when things have happened that I just couldn't handle at the time. But, somehow I found the strength to pull through.

shanti0608 said:

but you did not cross the line, and we all share a new joy, you getting engaged, it was an up lifting moment to see that on the threads

Peace N love each other to death, even if Dan´s words come true

CarrieMpls said:

I find it disturbing that so many of us had such thoughts at such a young age, even though a friend of mine ended it with 14, makes me wonder about all the depressions i used have when i was young and what significence it has now

The thought has crossed my mind but I've never been on the brink. I always feel like I'm waiting for something great to happen in my life and I've determined it will never happen if I take myself out. My dad and my brother have both attempted suicide when I was young and I was very disappointed in both of them. I don't want to make anyone feel that way.

Whitnail said:

No I did not cross the line thankfully....
I had 3 dogs at the time that would have starved to death if I had done it. That was really the only reason that stopped me at the time.

Thanks for your kind words... I feel much better these days and I have so much to live for.

Oh and as for Dan's words...he says a lot of crap that never comes true...





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JuliePurplehead said:

why were you dissappointed? There is a saying that says does that commit suicide are cowards, and alot more stuff. Do you not think, you should give your father and brother a hug and say thank you for being and staying here?

i understand your dissappointment, but obviously something prevented the worst and I think in that, they both need a hug

Whitnail said:

And to you, sir.

shanti0608 said:

aha, it was the dogs then?, women, why you only ever think about dogs

BTW, did you call one of them prince

Whitnail said:

Well at the time the dogs were the only things in my life that relied on me.

Ummm no..none of my pets have ever been called Prince.
I have always loved my pets.

shanti0608 said:

If I may say so, you are a perfect and very hope-giving example of the marvelous, unexpected things the future may hold for a person, despite how desolate life might sometimes feel.

WillyWonka said:

this is odd, i was about to reply to both of you again and both of you reply to me together

very strange

<-----TAXI

WillyWonka said:

Thank you so much for your kind words...wow....


I am speechless.

I could say the same about you for sure

I'm gonna be called a jerk.

I don't find it soothing at all to air ALL my personal business on a message board.

I have a lot of things that go on in my world, but I discuss that to my literal in person friends.

No judgement....I just can't wrap my head around bearing one's soul on an internet board...just me.

I mean I'll talk about relationships, work, whatever. But I cannot fathom airing allll my dirty laundry on a board of folk I really don't know.


So here come the remarks...But I really don't check out or hang out here much anyway. I am not judging anyone here and I hope you all feel better.

shanti0608 said:

BTW I wanted to laugh myself stupid at that, when i was young i had a dog named Prince, but it had nothing to do with the other one, was just one of those coincidences in life, maybe the dog was the reason why i got into music

KatSkrizzle said:

You're not a jerk, it's your opinion and you have a right to it. Some people feel better if they talk about this stuff, they find that they are not alone and it helps them.

If I don't like a thread I just don't post on it.

Whitnail said:

I was 9 years old. Whether I was right to feel what I did or not, I wasn't old enough to understand. All I could think about was my dad was trying to leave me. I was also disappointed in myself because I didn't feel like I was worth sticking around for. Not only that, but I had all these people whispering behind my back about the situation. It didn't help that my mother took me to the apartment where he shot himself while she cleaned up the blood. In retrospect, yes, I should have thought more about them and less about myself.

Whitnail said:

I agree with Whitnail.

Though I understand the terrible consequences of suicide and the anger and emotional aftermath of it on friends and family, suicidal individuals who 'made it through' (either of their own volition or by circumstance) and did not take their own life often face many, many years - if not for the rest of their lives - of battling to overcome whatever demons it was which brought them to the point of attempting suicide, of remaining strong against that lure in the future, and of embarrassment of their 'weakness' at having made the attempt/s.

It's my belief these people deserve credit for the measure of strength it takes to continue on every day when life, to them, seems (or seemed) so bleak that death became more attractive than living -- which is a terrible way to exist, and nearly impossible to comprehend by those who've never felt that way.

KatSkrizzle said:

no problem, we all have whatever, the moment i posted this thread i regretted it, but now i dont. the only comment which you say that is annoying , is about hanging out dirty laundry, it is exactly this attitude that has people frozen to the bone about expressing a feeling that is actually quite normal, but, I say, let you guide us all, as you seem to be on the perfect level