been on the brink of suicide

Never... I can't relate to the idea of killing myself, but I've known several who have contemplated it and one who did it.

nope...never even thought about it....

Whitnail said:

No. Are you? Or just curious?

yes

when i was very young, and didn't know much at all.

When I was young.....I got over it..

It has crossed my mind.

But doing such a thing would hurt my family.

someone should lock this thread i think, it is still a forbidden subject, very hard to grasp and comes out of the blue, but none the less, it does make one wonder, what torment one goes thru before the end.

when i was 18 i took an overdose b/c i (thought) i was pregnant& the father was going to take me to court to sue for total custody..i was pretty messed up emotionaly & at the time i really wanted to die, but they pumped my stomach.
turns out i was not preggers & im glad it turned out the way it did.

Yes... and if you need, I'm open to talking a bit about it in private. I hope it's not something you're struggling with.

yes.

i bought a gun, but i didn't buy bullets.

i've broken down at work, left work, come home, and called a suicide hotline.

i've had to sign a 'no suicide contract' with my therapist, wondering if this little strategy really works.

some of the happiest moments of my life occurred after all of this.

sonic said:

in a reference to what you say, the first time i dealt with suicide I was 12 yrs old, a guy i knew from a band we were in, at that age i could never understand it. due to a stupid mis understanding, he took his life at the age of 14, it was a strange moment in life.

at that time and to this day, i still wonder what went thru his head to go thru with it, how at that age can one make such a decision.

but how little did i know then

MarkThrust said:

reminds me of a friend that had this funny sense of humour, he would always say he had the bullets but not the gun, so he would simply use a hammer.

i was once very close to the brink, and since then i have had many beautiful moments

Whitnail said:

i dont think you're in a place to moderate such a thing
you dont know how supportive this thread can actually be to some people.

sammij said:

I started the thread and after i felt bad about starting it, if the thread is supportive I will be very happy, as it is as I stated a taboo subject, but one that needs addressing and let people know that we/they are not alone

Whitnail said:

i didnt realize you started it my bad
but yes no one is alone here

i dont think it should be locked at all

sammij said:

thank you, I was actually glad when i saw your reply, i could see some passion shinning out, thank you and i hope that many others will thank you after

Whitnail said:

thank you

No! One thought to those who love u ...those left behind ..those hurt...would never make me even consider it!!

Ocean said:

true, very true

but it was not enough to stop some

"some people wanna die, so they can be free"

a very scary lyric, especially when i heard friends of mine like it

There have been times in my life when I was very sad and life didn't seem worth living. But no,I never considered it.

Serious said:

I agree, but some people dont think, there is a trigger reaction and Bang they are gone

it is something that is very difficult to write about, and those that have taken the step have to be respected, although I have my own opinion about it, i still think people need to open up abit more about it

It might help someone some where

Whitnail said:

I hear you. I can understand that for someone it might seem like the only possibility. Who knows, maybe soem day I would feel like that myself, you never know what life will be like in the future.

Serious said:

unfortunately some people think it is the only way out, whatever their reason were, i am sure that with a good friend to listen, they may not have taken this route, but what i say is only speculation, there are some people who simply want to end it and nothing on this earth will stop them

ThreadCula said:

Same here.

Whitnail said:

I think that when you are so desperate it is hard for a friend to "ring through".

Serious said:

true, but it is something that remains deep inside, for whatever reasons, but i sometimes wonder if it can be avoided

Very deep subject...and yes when I was younger I did think of suicide. For many reasons, to many to go into on a forum site. But some how I got past them, and I am here today!

I have also had suicide around me, and have seen what it can do to others around that person. My son, who is 14 now, had two of his friends committ suicide coming on 2 yrs ago. One hung himself, a month before school let out, and the other, well she shot herself in the head, one month after his other friend hung himself. So within a month, my son lost two of his friends to suicide.

The thought of suicide is a subject that should NEVER be taken lightly. Even if you feel the person talking about it wouldn't actually go thru with it.

I have 'considered' suicide in that there have been periods where I've wished with all my being to die so as to finally bring to an end the pain of certain longstanding - and seemingly neverending - torments and circumstances which had drained me of practically all hope and belief for a future worth living, and have had to go to the hospital when those feelings of despair became acutely overwhelming, but have since concluded I don't have it in me to commit the actual act.