I had one of the worst dreams ever last night. It woke me up devastated and distraught..... I knew it was only a dream... but I found out something I could only have known for sure without actually going through it... I could not survive if one of my kids passed away.....

The dream was weird, because it started at the end....the was no long story happening... it was just the ending...

I found myself in some kind of fight with some strangers and I heard a shot. In my dream it was my two boys and myself... my youngest was crying and hiding behind a chair and my oldest son was in a ball on the floor....

I saw the final journey, including me consoling my family, then I saw Luke...laying in the morgue, on that stainless steel table....lifeless and cold... all his dreams and hopes erased and my reason for living gone. We buried him next to my grandfather who passed away this past summer.... and I said to someone who asked... I buried him there so his grandpa and my uncle Mike could protect him and help him on his journey...

What woke me was me saying these words to my youngest son in the dream... "It's okay now....he has passed...."

I woke up and was overcome with grief.... I kept saying oh my god... Oh my god..... no.... and I couldn't breathe....

I held him for a while this morning... still feeling the effects of this dream... I feel them now as I write this.....

omg how awful Thankfully it was just a dream.

I've had dreams like that.
I'm told they indicate great changes in the person you're dreaming about as far as your relationship to them or what stage they are going through in life.

I'm told.

Imago said:

I'm not sure how to take that Dan.... so

EverSoulicious said:

Thankfully.....

My chest still hurts.... how fucked up is that?.....

oh man


that has happened to me concerning my mom. Horrible feeling.

wow, I really understand how you feel...it's a terrible feeling...
not too many nites ago, I dream similar to your about my kids...it's amazing that a dream can stir such emotions....thinking about it now puts a knot in my stomach...much like you, the only benefit from such a shitty dream was to wake up and know they were ok...and to appreciate them so much more because of it...

pardonme4livin said:

Is one of the approaching adolescence?

There's always some emotional driving force behind the dream. I'm one of those folks who doesn't believe dreams are omens, but rather an attempt for you to emotionally work something out.

It's an awful dream for sure, but it may be telling you something you need to examine. I've had really messed up dreams last year. You wake up completely jolted.

pardonme4livin said:

It's not fucked up to still be freaked out. Your family is your whole world so it's very reasonable to still be reeling from that dream

DanceWme said:

Thanks Steph...

roodboi said:

Sorry man... I wouldn't wish that dream on anyone I know.... it has me emotional right now... I seriously have tears in my eyes and I have a rep to protect here...

Imago said:

He is almost 12..... almost a teenager.. big changes coming for sure..... but this... this was something that shook me to my foundation.... I feel like a broken man today...

pardonme4livin said:

theres no rep to protect when it comes to your family...
thats the one time when even the manliest of men should show emotion...

Mach said:

Thank you Machaela...

pardonme4livin said:

you know I am just another orgnote away

Mach said:

I do...

roodboi said:

Thank you for saying that... I feel the same way...

pardonme4livin said:

Yeah, it's a horrible feeling.


I remember I had dreams similar to that several times in my life. Each time you wake up completely feelin changed. It's as if the life you lived prior to the dream was itself some kind of dream.

Perhaps you could do something special with him very soon - something to celebrate the new comming phases you both face - something less child/boy like and more young adult/man like together

western culture does very little to celebrate our youths transistions

Imago said:

Honestly..... that's very true... I am too numb at the moment to feel anything but numb..... I appreciate the thoughts and the words Dan...

Mach said:

Very insightful Mach... as usual..... I am drawing a blank at the moment though... I'm sure I could definately think of something...

Any ideas would be appreciated....

pardonme4livin said:

I will think about it

Blessings to you and yours

pardonme4livin said:

If this was any other thread or any other day, I'd consider that hug "first base"

I hope she won't mind.... but Mach sent me this in an orgnote...and the insight overcame me with emotion... (Mach I hope you don't mind me posting this)

"~nods~ I am a bit of a freak - I just get messages and I share them whith those that I feel will understand what I am saying - often times I do not understand the message I am supposed to give out and more times then not people things I am just full off shit

maybe I am

you will start to see your son different now. no more like the young boy on the slab in the morgue -

you will start to see yourself in his eyes reflectingbback to you as different as well

your grandfather and Uncle support you and do walk with him and you as guides"



Thank you all for you time in letting me share this with you....and your thoughts in return.....

I am glad it was JUST a dream.

RodeoSchro said:

Me too..... thank you.....

pardonme4livin said:

I don't mind

I had one Monday...they suck!

Had a few last week as well.

to you Kenny
[Edited 11/7/07 11:04am]

I had a dream like that about a few people in my family, but the most recent one was about my grandfather..... I wanted to call him and see if everything was okay, it breaks my heart to have those dreams!

Thankfully it's just dreams huh!!