I was just browsing some news stories about Heather Mills Mc.Cartney's unhinged rant against the tabloids today and after reading a transcript at The Times Online, I followed a link on the site to a review of Kylie Minogue's 'White Diamond' movie...

At the bottom of the review was a space for reader's comments - and the first comment posted was by my psychotic ex-boyfriend. He'd added his full name and location.

My stomach churned when I saw his name.

I don't even know why I've logged on here to tell you all. These comments of his have riled me...

"There a countless 'celebs' out there desperate for the public to read about every little aspect of their boring lives. Thankfully, Kylie is not one of them and doubtless never will be."

He is praising Kylie Minogue for her apparent discretion, whilst his indiscretion plunged me into a nightmarish year of depression which culminated in a nervous breakdown.

Just the fact that he's still alive annoys me.

today i saw this total asshole who i used to deal with driving by and i literally started shaking. he caused me so many problems, some of which still persist even though he is, for all intents and purposes, out of my life.

anyway...this guy is out of your life, right? because if he is then just keep him there, out of your life and in the past.

it still sucks to have unexpected reminders of these people.

Justin1972UK said:

Don't let that get to your head.
Forget about it. Just forget it.

Yes. Forget him!!! I have discovered that I am extremely happy and do not miss the relationship I had with my last ex. He fucked up, not me. I let it go and I'm the better for it. You can too baby

And don't even try spying on him.
Spying always leads to pain.
[Edited 10/31/07 17:07pm]

This is the second time this year that this has happened, by the way.

The first time was when I downloaded an mp3 audio commentary for an episode of 'Doctor Who' and the executive producer mentioned a name I recognised. I stupidly Googled to see if this person was the same former acquaintance whom had used me - and realised that it was.

He was now rich, working for the most high-profile family show on UK TV and was also listed as one of Wales' most "eligible bachelors" by that country's most popular newspaper.

He even has a bloody Wikipedia entry which names a project we'd developed together (and I single-handedly operated) but gives him sole credit. He no doubt listed this project on his resume when acquiring the job at the 'Doctor Who' production office at BBC Wales.

It made me feel sick.

Yes, I know that it's probably envy that he's done so well for himself, but he did so by using so many people around him - not just me.

The internet has made the world a very small place and sometimes, uncomfortably so.

rushing07 said:

Honestly, it was completely random. I didn't go looking for him. I went from Heather Mills Mc.Cartney to my psycho ex in one click.

Justin1972UK said:

Internet sucks sometimes.

JasmineFire said:

It felt like a punch in the guts just reading my ex's name. I don't know what I'd do if I ever physically bumped into him.

Justin1972UK said:

hey Justin, I can totally relate to your situation, I´ve been through the same shit in the last couple of years. It really hurts, especially when you´ve helped people that you really loved and cared about and then they backstab you, do things that are against their usual "holier-than-thou" principles and , on top of that, they spread rumors and you randomly see them somewhere where you least expect it. I guess this is one of the driving factors behind your fits of depression, and it is indeed very normal. Stuff like that can go from the emotional level right to the physical pain and then change your hormones and general wellbeing.

Keep your head up, and remember, a good life is the best revenge.

Justin1972UK said:

Sweet baby, stand tall

Justin1972UK said:

Maybe "Dug U Better Dead" as a title(?).