reneGade20 said:

Yeah rugby players tend to have huge thighs

oh, I got some shit for ya.... my brother just called to tell me not to saying anything to my niece about him giving her his car because he's buying a new one for himself. So I'm listening to his plans blah blah blah...how he's getting it Monday (a BMW)... good for him... happy for him. Anyway, in the mist of me listening I asked him when is he going to give it to her so we could try to make it an event, right. This bitch, gets an attitude with me and says "not anytime soon because he has to make sure she's doing what she's suppose to do . the child got herself into a college prep high school, graduated and got herself into a Christian college after she completed the summer program that she also got into on her own steam. All he did in any of this was sign the papers here and there, that's it. I say she has and state the previous... this bitch says we didn't get a car when we graduated AND then says I've had to do all this own my own...that's right I side it...it's all on me...just like with you it's on you. No, bitch... you just fucking got her when she was twelve before that we (my parents and I took care of her and got her wtf she needed and we still are). She was 3.5 months when I (we) got her and I (we) took care of her sololy until she was eight, when she started living with her mother and even then whenever she got sick she stayed with us... I got her well and then her mother would come and get her....WTF, by yourself. There is so much more to this story but I can't because then I'm going to start breaking shit up in here... and hello, the first thing he says is how he WAS going to be here for the weekend staying here... at my house but his plans fell through this is the first time I'm hearing about it and he was suppose to be here yesterday.

if it wasn't for my niece people would never even know I had a brother just like they don't know before she was born.

I'm beyond pissed, I'm pissed with myself and I'm glad I can vent with someone else! I'm just a plain ol' idiot sometimes and I always do and say the most stupidest things! At this point in my life I realized that my husband was not going to be coming back and that he really did not want a relationship and it took me 11 whole years to realize that. Yet I still waited! This has sucked the life out of me and changed my personality for the worse. I have no trust for people sometimes and no self confidence. It's a wonder that I'm still alive if all that waiting and anger and distrust didn't kill me. On top of that I think I scared someone today and it wasn't very nice. I feel like such a loser and weirdo and can't relate to people anymore sometimes. I always gave my best to other people and whatever I did, I did it with my whole heart, but now that part of me is gone. Since I finally realized that my husband was not coming back to me, I sent him a letter to end the relationship (not much of a relationship - when I last saw him briefly he said that we were still together but I haven't talked to him in 5 years now). I'm hoping that he will reply soon but I'm not sure because he never responds to letters. I think I'm due for a good cry...and I had decided that this was enough already. Early next year I plan to take a sabatical and move to where no one knows me and try to heal. I'm feeling so sorry for myself right now that it's pitiful!

reneGade20 said:

you should be upset. aren't they ready to get the hell up out of there?they should be doing everything properly to see that through. did you punish them?

statuesqque said:

Damn that's petty as hell

vagabandit said:

WHY!? It's NOT YOUR FAULT! This is the way it's supposed to be. Let me tell you...the Spirits have something so much better in store 4 u. Don't 4get everything happens for a reason. It's wise to heal yourself, forgive your ex and MOVE ON. As he has. I know it hurts because U don't know what he feels about u and you are still holding on...but just as he left u and let go, u gotta do the same. it's the only reason u are feeling that way
Forgive and forget...then keep it pushing.

heybaby said:

DROP AND GIMME 100!!! NOW!!!! Ugh....rediculous

paisleypark4 said:

Thank you paisley, that's very sweet of you to offer comfort! And I made up my mind to move on...I need to find myself again. I guess I came to the realization that he wasn't in this relationship (even though he said he was) when I finally said I'm not going to live like this anymore, that's when it hit me!

Actually, this was refreshing to get it out like this...although when I was writing it I felt like I was going off the deep end, but I resurfaced- so I'm good! You'd make a wonderful counselor!

wow I needed a topic like this

I hate feeling lazy to go anywhere when I'm being invited out to this party and that party tonight, and feel broke and restless

I hate the fact that I have a degree and can't find a proper job with normal hours, and not inhumane ones where I either work too much, too little, or not at all each week

I hate the fact that I think about death a lot and am scared of dying or losing loved ones

I hate how I feel guilty all the time over everything

I'm very bitter about a lot of things. I'm even going back to school for a few more courses in hopes of getting a certificate and landing a job, but am worried about ending up still being stuck. I want to volunteer somewhere too, but I want to get paid, cause I deserve it after 4 years of working my ass off for a degree
ughhhhh


sometimes I want to numb all these feelings and relax, but I swore to God that I would never mess with substances at all, not even socially.
[Edited 10/20/07 13:31pm]
[Edited 10/20/07 13:32pm]

statuesqque said:

I'm very bald!

So we're in the process of moving out of our trailers and into tents for the last couple or so weeks that we're over here in Iraq....so I've been letting my guys off early for the past week to clean up and pack their shit...with the intended goal being to inspect their rooms this morning and getting the keys from them so that I can turn them in to the housing folks....so I give them simple instructions (IN ENGLISH, no less..,) to be standing outside their rooms at 9 am...easy...

except....apparently my guys only understand Mandarin Chinese or something because not only were they not standing outside as I told them to, but some of the rooms weren't even cleaned!!! I was like WTF?!?! I am still seething and its a couple hours later....to add insult to injury, they offered the weakest, lamest excuses....which served to really enhance my out of body experience....

how about this.....I hate people because they fucking suck











ok I'm done

EverSoulicious said:

MoniGram said:

EverSoulicious said:

a kiss from my ever!!!! makes things sweet!

MoniGram said:

place them where ever you want

THIS IS BULLSHIT! and I need to vent!


I lost my car on the highway last month also..the tow took it and turned it over to the dump eventually

I got dumped around the next week i lost my car (that was kind of a good thing cuz some1 better came along eventually)

Then right after that I got fired from my job (first time i ever got fired) for soemthing real real stupid.

That aint the end of it...after that unemployemt has been takin 3 weeks just because I requested all of my 401 K and I have to wait till next week again (which I can only call once per week).

Ya'll had the Mpls Org Invasion without me

Then I got turned down by AT&T because i didnt answer the questions detailed enough and not enough call center experience.

Then the Wells Fargo bank interview didnt go that great either because some BITCH told me to catch the 227 bus instead of the 225 and I was late to the interview by 15 minutes. I was SOAKING wet walking in the rain yesterday morning @ 10 am.


if u need to vent get it out!
[Edited 10/19/07 15:43pm]

EverSoulicious said:

MoniGram said:

place them where ever you want

paisleypark4 said:

When it rains it pours. Hang in there buddy, shit happens. Try to do something you like to get your mind off of all that bad stuff that has happen to you.

MoniGram said:

place them where ever you want

EverSoulicious said:

It's git-in hot in herre...so take off all yo clothes....
I am git-in so hot, I wanna take my clothes off....




[Edited 10/23/07 0:11am]

alphastreet said:

It's all in the the outcome of life. Ever thought about moving to a more substantial place where your degree can earn you more for what you are worth now?

EverSoulicious said:

It's git-in hot in herre...so take off all yo clothes....
I am git-in so hot, I wanna take my clothes off....




[Edited 10/23/07 0:11am]

reneGade20 said:

get naked!!!!!