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Reply #30 posted 10/08/07 10:54am

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(((Ivy)))

I'm so sorry for your pain. I know exactly what you mean about not wanting to feel sorry for yourself when others have it so much worse. But you know what? You can't know others' pain -- you can only really feel your own. And if you feel bad, then you feel bad -- and there's no point making comparisons or trying to make it relative. I don't know all of what you deal with, but I know some of it -- and believe me, it's nothing trivial. You have every right and reason to feel overwhelmed.

Please, please, please talk a professional. There are so many ways they can help you -- and you are deserving and worthy of every bit of it.
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Reply #31 posted 10/08/07 11:00am

Lothan

Genesia said:

(((Ivy)))

I'm so sorry for your pain. I know exactly what you mean about not wanting to feel sorry for yourself when others have it so much worse. But you know what? You can't know others' pain -- you can only really feel your own. And if you feel bad, then you feel bad -- and there's no point making comparisons or trying to make it relative. I don't know all of what you deal with, but I know some of it -- and believe me, it's nothing trivial. You have every right and reason to feel overwhelmed.

Please, please, please talk a professional. There are so many ways they can help you -- and you are deserving and worthy of every bit of it.
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Reply #32 posted 10/08/07 11:03am

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Lothan said:

Genesia said:

(((Ivy)))

I'm so sorry for your pain. I know exactly what you mean about not wanting to feel sorry for yourself when others have it so much worse. But you know what? You can't know others' pain -- you can only really feel your own. And if you feel bad, then you feel bad -- and there's no point making comparisons or trying to make it relative. I don't know all of what you deal with, but I know some of it -- and believe me, it's nothing trivial. You have every right and reason to feel overwhelmed.

Please, please, please talk a professional. There are so many ways they can help you -- and you are deserving and worthy of every bit of it.
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I love you, girl. You're one of my "laugh at the stupidest shit ever" folks -- and I need you! lol
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Reply #33 posted 10/08/07 11:21am

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hug I feel what you're saying, Ivy. I struggle with depression too and had to quit my last job because of it. My former boss had NO CLUE as to what depression was or how it can affect a person. disbelief It truly sux, and I hope things improve for you. hug
RIP, mom. I will forever miss and love you.
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Reply #34 posted 10/08/07 12:26pm

Ottensen

I wish I had something wise or consoling that I could say to help take some of the load off... neutral...but being that I myself am nuttier than a Nutter Butter bar I guess all I can offer is a big big one of these hug hug hug
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Reply #35 posted 10/08/07 1:37pm

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I wish I could say something uplifting, Ivy hug. You seem to be such a strong person, it must be a lot of pressure you feel to match your own expecations and those others might have as well rose.
I feel depessed myself for some time now and I can relate a lot with what you are saying about others who got it worse. I feel almost ashamed that I am not able to deal with the situation I am in a better way sigh.
And your example of the plane crash reminded me that although I never in my life have thought about comitting suicide the last time I was in a plane I just wished it would crash into the ocean while at the same time I felt guitly about my thoughts as I didn't want that anything bad would happen to any other passenger.
Let me just give you a hug hug.
With a very special thank you to Tina: Is hammer already absolute, how much some people verändern...ICH hope is never so I will be! And if, then I hope that I would then have wen in my environment who joins me in the A....
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Reply #36 posted 10/08/07 2:04pm

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I've had to live with depression most of my life and there seems to be a genetic component to it , it runs in my family.
What I found helps the most is mindfulness. Just staying in the moment and distracting myself away from the pain. Much easier said than done.
I did a course of DBT therapy (dialectical behavior therapy) that really taught me a lot about how to handle depressive thoughts. It's a really intensive therapy but so worth the effort.

I hope things start looking up for you. rose hug
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"-Dr Seuss

Pain is something to carry, like a radio...You should stand up for your right to feel your pain- Jim Morrison
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Reply #37 posted 10/08/07 2:26pm

heybaby

oh dear. you know i understand. pain is pain and there is no competition with it. there are a lot of things i go through but don't talk about so i understand. i really don't know what to say. i wish had words to give instant solutions. Just take one day at a time. don't ever get tired. you don't want the odds to win hug
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Reply #38 posted 10/08/07 3:16pm

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Reply #39 posted 10/08/07 3:20pm

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psychodelicide said:

hug I feel what you're saying, Ivy. I struggle with depression too and had to quit my last job because of it. My former boss had NO CLUE as to what depression was or how it can affect a person. disbelief It truly sux, and I hope things improve for you. hug


comfort nancy
my boss is very understanding, when i had a really bad time a few yrs back- i was given the time i needed 4 counselling etc- depression has been a part of my life 4 a very long time- and with that comes anxiety /panic attacks sigh- but all is good at the mo woot!


lothan hug rose
seems that i was busy doing something close to nothing, but different than the day before music beret
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Reply #40 posted 10/08/07 3:24pm

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shellyevon said:

I've had to live with depression most of my life and there seems to be a genetic component to it , it runs in my family.
What I found helps the most is mindfulness. Just staying in the moment and distracting myself away from the pain. Much easier said than done.
I did a course of DBT therapy (dialectical behavior therapy) that really taught me a lot about how to handle depressive thoughts. It's a really intensive therapy but so worth the effort.

I hope things start looking up for you. rose hug


is that the same as CBT cognitive behavioural therapy? CBT has helped me- makes me think about things in a different way
seems that i was busy doing something close to nothing, but different than the day before music beret
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Reply #41 posted 10/08/07 3:26pm

Slave2daGroove

I wish there was something I could do to help you. The only thing I've ever known people with depression to do is to medicate but it doesn't sound like it's chemical with you but more of just tired of carrying the world on your shoulders. I'm not sure how you do it to be honest, I mean I've known people who had less on their shoulders and couldn't do it. You're so strong and to me, almost saint-like in your unconditional love for people here and in your life, then you have the fam to deal with. If there's anything I can do for you please let me know, if it's in my power I will. "Respect" for you and how you handle the hand you've been dealt, isn't a strong enough word...hug

edit- The other thing that has helped me is someone offering another perspective. Like you could be doing the same job you're doing in a third world country for a portion of the pay. You could have your family but in Iraq right now. You could have a disease that would mean that you wouldn't be around much longer to care for the people you love...
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Reply #42 posted 10/08/07 3:30pm

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Reply #43 posted 10/08/07 3:32pm

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Ivy..... hug !!!!! Sometimes I wonder if sadness is a permanent part of my life. I am involved in helping family in my life and some days I am drained of all energy. Sometimes it feels like the sadness will never end. I have enormous respect for the decions you have made to care for your family and I wish I was lotteried so I could rescue you from the money end of it. Like others, my words can hardly change your life but alwasy remember you do have friends you can turn to for emotional support. You do.....

peace
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Reply #44 posted 10/08/07 3:37pm

horatio

Imagine if you were happy all the time, would you know it if you didnt know sadness?







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Reply #45 posted 10/08/07 3:47pm

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Ivy, I'll properly respond tonight. Love you. heart
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Reply #46 posted 10/08/07 5:23pm

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heart you Ivy


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Reply #47 posted 10/08/07 5:35pm

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it all feels like such heavy burden heaped on top of you sad
and why you?

I don't know if we are a sadder bunch than most, but we probably share our feelings more with each other here than with our real life friends, so the truth comes out here.

I know the more I dwell on it, the sadder I feel for longer. I probably wouldn't so much if I was immersing myself in MY OWN life more, instead of talking in circles about all my problems to online friends going through the same thing, also with no seeming way out and it feels hopeless sad headlp
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Reply #48 posted 10/08/07 5:40pm

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biiiiig hug to you Ivy... very much in the same way right now

hang in there rose
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Reply #49 posted 10/08/07 5:44pm

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Lothan said:

Some days, I feel very melacholy. Others, I feel downright depressed. I've been battling depression since I was 14 years old. Those of you close to me know my current situation. For those who don't, let's just say I am extremely overwhelmed. I am the caretaker of my whole family and a lot of the time, I am sick of it.

Anyway, I reach some low points in my life where I don't fee like I'll ever be able to raise my head again. Being a Prince fan, it is also a trait that I notice about his fans. A lot of us are a caring bunch but I think a common link is the general sadness we feel.

I go through a lot on an everyday basis but I know there are people worse off. I try to think of them when I'm feeling sorry for myself, but these overwhelming feelings of just grief overcome me. Is it selfish to be so sad, so depressed to the point of wanting to end it all when there are friends of mine who are ill and want nothing more than to live? Is it selfish to think of only my pain and not care about the children I would leave behind should I decide to end it all?

Over the weekend, I boarded a plane. I hate flying but being on that plane made me think. My biggest fear was that the plane would crash. Now if I were truly wanting to die, then a plane crashing would not have mattered. Then I wondered if my fear was a plane crash was not my preferred way of leaving the earth. I would want it to be painless as possible.

Another though occurred to me that it's not that I don't want to live anymore, but that I am tired of the pain. I mean, who can I turn to for help? I have been reaching out for help in my situation for years now.

For those of you that are tired, I know exactly how you feel. sigh


Tired, in reference to this subject, is a word that leaves a sick feeling in my stomach.

About ten years ago, I lost a very good friend, she also used the word 'tired' to describe her depression and general state of being. Used it constantly, in fact. I didn't realize that what she was tired of was waking up in the morning. That just facing the day, was absolutely gut wrenching for her. I suppose when you're feeling that tired, all the time, a normal reaction (in her mind) was to want to sleep.

I hope, pray, that you can find some relief for whatever it is you're going thru.
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Reply #50 posted 10/08/07 6:40pm

Anxiety

it makes me mad to think about the way mainstream society (including the medical community) treats depression and mental illness.

if you have a flu or cancer or whatever, that's considered an illness and you're given treatment and medication.

if you suffer from depression, then there's "something wrong with you" and "you just need to learn how to get over it" and all that other annoying "buck up!" crap.

i think depression is like a pneumonia of the soul and i *DO* think it's treatable and manageable, if only people who suffered from it were able to access proper help and not feel ostracized for getting such help.

it's stupid. the mind is part of what we are. it's not some separate magic thingamabob that doesn't require maintenance and only malfunctions "if you're a bad person". people fuck you up. life fucks you up. the chemicals in your body can fuck you up. and these things need to be addressed, obviously...yet in the world i live in, that kind of care is considered a luxury. i hate that.

i HATE that.

ivy, push against the current and get that help. don't let anyone make you feel like you don't deserve it or that you can't access it, or that there's "no time" for them to help you, etc. give them hell. check out howard brown or the new LGBT center on halsted, i bet they have mental health services with people who may even be more helpful than specialists you'd encounter via your medical plan. you need to connect with people who can walk through the maze of your feelings and who can figure out the wiring and the plumbing and all that stuff to get to the core of the problem. i hope you are able to find those people. i'm sure they're out there. in the meantime, you know you have a lot of people who love ya and can at least distract you with silliness or who can listen when you need to be heard. nod
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Reply #51 posted 10/08/07 6:44pm

Slave2daGroove

Anxiety said:

i hope you are able to find those people. i'm sure they're out there. in the meantime, you know you have a lot of people who love ya and can at least distract you with silliness or who can listen when you need to be heard. nod


Co-Sign and read the Org note. hug
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Reply #52 posted 10/08/07 7:45pm

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prb said:

psychodelicide said:

hug I feel what you're saying, Ivy. I struggle with depression too and had to quit my last job because of it. My former boss had NO CLUE as to what depression was or how it can affect a person. disbelief It truly sux, and I hope things improve for you. hug


comfort nancy
my boss is very understanding, when i had a really bad time a few yrs back- i was given the time i needed 4 counselling etc- depression has been a part of my life 4 a very long time- and with that comes anxiety /panic attacks sigh- but all is good at the mo woot!


lothan hug rose


hug I'm sorry to hear that you too suffer from depression. You're lucky that your boss was understanding, my boss was totally clueless (and even admitted to not knowing anything about depression). How anyone can not know anything about depression is incomprehensible to me, since you hear about it on TV commercials, the news, in the media, etc. etc. I can only hope that my asshole former boss gets a clue one day.
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RIP, mom. I will forever miss and love you.
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Reply #53 posted 10/08/07 8:28pm

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(((((Ivy))))) To the days you need strength but seemingly cannot find it... it is there, it's everywhere. rose heart

It can be in the unseen wind we feel brush against our skin, the wind that blows through our hair or sends the trees swaying or a piece of paper rolling down a deserted street.

Or unexpected moments, such as a moment today... I had, I have many. Just a few hours ago I went to get my battery changed in my car and as the guy at Auto Zone was so kind to change the battery for me, I looked for some money to tip him... I asked, do people get tipped here for doing this!? lol He kept saying, no don't worry about it... as he picked up the bad battery and tools and was stepping backward away...

I was still looking for a few bucks, I know I had some... somewhere... but instead I ran across two Harkin Movie tickets... lol

I said, hey!, I can't find my cash, but.... I have 2 movie tickets and placed them quickly on top of the battery as he was still walking backward through the doors... lol The value of the tickets was a pretty nice tip... I would say. lol Good moment and I was thankful. So the story goes... it's in the moments sometimes that bring us our joys... the moments of something so simple and unexpected. rose

I don't struggle with sad moments too much, but I do require a lot of time alone lately... and I feel content when I am. I don't have children or too many obligations...

Hey, just this evening... I told my aunt (my aunt who raised me and who is almost 80), I told her that having her here I feel I am living life more than when I am alone. I told her most days I work (work hard) and come home, only to await for the next day of work. Having her here, we have dinner together, I take her places she wishes to go... it's nice having her around. She is most likely going back home this weekend... even if I wish they would just move up here...

I am not lonely, I have a special person in my life... but no, my life is not ideal right now, but it is comfortable and it is very fulfilling, even if I do for the most part demand a lot of time alone. rose

bheart Knowing all the saddness is something too much for me to know... bheart If saddness seems overwhelming to me Ivy, you better bet I will not be bringing my saddness around a lot saddness... I will take it to a place where my soul can be fed, nourished and reborn. Knowing these vital "food for life" places, people and things are very important to recognized and I know mine. You must find yours. flower hug heart When you do, you will know.

I just rambled... rose
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Reply #54 posted 10/08/07 8:34pm

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but what an absolutely beautiful ramble it was (((Jules)))

Ivy baby, clinical depression is a disease just as diabetes and situations do trigger episodes. There are treatments for depression that work very well. However, finding the right one is the task that seems overwhelming when U are already overwhelmed. Make the call. i will get my happy ass back on that plane, don’t think i won’t wink

Miss U already! Much love my sweet. Talk with U 2morrow.
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Reply #55 posted 10/08/07 9:00pm

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psychodelicide said:

prb said:



comfort nancy
my boss is very understanding, when i had a really bad time a few yrs back- i was given the time i needed 4 counselling etc- depression has been a part of my life 4 a very long time- and with that comes anxiety /panic attacks sigh- but all is good at the mo woot!


lothan hug rose


hug I'm sorry to hear that you too suffer from depression. You're lucky that your boss was understanding, my boss was totally clueless (and even admitted to not knowing anything about depression). How anyone can not know anything about depression is incomprehensible to me, since you hear about it on TV commercials, the news, in the media, etc. etc. I can only hope that my asshole former boss gets a clue one day.
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sigh

I had a very rough time with employers when I was in the midst of the worst of it. I tried to explain. . . I just needed a little understanding, perhaps a reduction in hours. . . I was TRYING to get it under control (which I eventually did). They seemed to think I was just a weak, lame person. Wheras if I had broken my leg or had some sort of curable cancer, all would have been fine.

Sometimes people sux.
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Reply #56 posted 10/08/07 9:12pm

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Anxiety said:

it makes me mad to think about the way mainstream society (including the medical community) treats depression and mental illness.

if you have a flu or cancer or whatever, that's considered an illness and you're given treatment and medication.

if you suffer from depression, then there's "something wrong with you" and "you just need to learn how to get over it" and all that other annoying "buck up!" crap.

i think depression is like a pneumonia of the soul and i *DO* think it's treatable and manageable, if only people who suffered from it were able to access proper help and not feel ostracized for getting such help.

it's stupid. the mind is part of what we are. it's not some separate magic thingamabob that doesn't require maintenance and only malfunctions "if you're a bad person". people fuck you up. life fucks you up. the chemicals in your body can fuck you up. and these things need to be addressed, obviously...yet in the world i live in, that kind of care is considered a luxury. i hate that.

i HATE that.

ivy, push against the current and get that help. don't let anyone make you feel like you don't deserve it or that you can't access it, or that there's "no time" for them to help you, etc. give them hell. check out howard brown or the new LGBT center on halsted, i bet they have mental health services with people who may even be more helpful than specialists you'd encounter via your medical plan. you need to connect with people who can walk through the maze of your feelings and who can figure out the wiring and the plumbing and all that stuff to get to the core of the problem. i hope you are able to find those people. i'm sure they're out there. in the meantime, you know you have a lot of people who love ya and can at least distract you with silliness or who can listen when you need to be heard. nod

MAN, I wish the DSM explained depression exactly like you do in bold. lol

Good advice.

Listen to the man, Lothan. And please be well. You are so loved. hug
Ὅσον ζῇς φαίνου
μηδὲν ὅλως σὺ λυποῦ
πρὸς ὀλίγον ἐστὶ τὸ ζῆν
τὸ τέλος ὁ χρόνος ἀπαιτεῖ.”
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Reply #57 posted 10/08/07 9:18pm

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Ivy, I love you. hug
let me come over it's a beautiful day to play with you in the dark
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Reply #58 posted 10/08/07 9:34pm

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prb said:

shellyevon said:

I've had to live with depression most of my life and there seems to be a genetic component to it , it runs in my family.
What I found helps the most is mindfulness. Just staying in the moment and distracting myself away from the pain. Much easier said than done.
I did a course of DBT therapy (dialectical behavior therapy) that really taught me a lot about how to handle depressive thoughts. It's a really intensive therapy but so worth the effort.

I hope things start looking up for you. rose hug


is that the same as CBT cognitive behavioural therapy? CBT has helped me- makes me think about things in a different way


No but it uses some cognitive methods along with mindfulness.
It's very intensive- one private therapy to discuss issues that come up during the week and a 2-3 hour group session that teaches specific skills that are broken down into 4 modules: core mindfulness skills, emotion regulation skills, interpersonal effectiveness skills and distress tolerance skills
Self-injurious and suicidal behaviors take first priority, followed by therapy interfering behaviors. Then there are quality of life issues and finally working towards improving one's life generally.
We attended a 20 week long program but there are groups that take much longer 70 weeks or more at times. It is a huge commitment but very worthwhile
Oh and you get 24/7 access to a therapist for the duration of the program.
They expect you to call both if you're having problems or if you have something good to share.
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"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"-Dr Seuss

Pain is something to carry, like a radio...You should stand up for your right to feel your pain- Jim Morrison
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Reply #59 posted 10/08/07 9:52pm

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HereToRockYourWorld said:

psychodelicide said:



hug I'm sorry to hear that you too suffer from depression. You're lucky that your boss was understanding, my boss was totally clueless (and even admitted to not knowing anything about depression). How anyone can not know anything about depression is incomprehensible to me, since you hear about it on TV commercials, the news, in the media, etc. etc. I can only hope that my asshole former boss gets a clue one day.
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sigh

I had a very rough time with employers when I was in the midst of the worst of it. I tried to explain. . . I just needed a little understanding, perhaps a reduction in hours. . . I was TRYING to get it under control (which I eventually did). They seemed to think I was just a weak, lame person. Wheras if I had broken my leg or had some sort of curable cancer, all would have been fine.

Sometimes people sux.


at my previous work place- things were a little hit or miss- but my immediate collegue was very understanding- she had a friend in similar circumstances- ive been very lucky i guess.- couldnt have gotten thru it otherwise- and kept working.
seems that i was busy doing something close to nothing, but different than the day before music beret
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