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PrintableMach said: Just heard word my neighbor / friend of 20 yrs passed away this morning from a 10 yr cancer battle
I need coffee too  With a very special thank you to Tina: Is hammer already absolute, how much some people verändern...ICH hope is never so I will be! And if, then I hope that I would then have wen in my environment who joins me in the A.... | |
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Serious said: Mach said: Just heard word my neighbor / friend of 20 yrs passed away this morning from a 10 yr cancer battle
I need coffee too  TY | |
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Imago said: Mach said: I'm really tiptoing the edge of overwhelm here Give me 48 hours and your phone number.. I know your overwhelm well.... lets confer!   you want to call me ?
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Drats! I missed the morning coffee thread.
Maybe there is some leftover to make iced coffee or perhaps we can brew a new pot. Today I came to the realization that my world is relatively unstable thanks in part to the ebb and flow of unhappiness that keeps returning over the last couple of years. I realized today that I think my relationship with my partner of 13 years is through. You know that spat that happens that defines the "end" of a relationship? I think we've had it. (Actually, we've had it over and over in recent years.) I am simply miserable with what's going on in my life right now, who I am with, where I am at, and what's the future. It's gotten so bad, I actually contemplate doing myself in! The relationship, I feel, is beyond recovery and I think the inevitable talk is coming this week. I will need to move out. Next comes the "how" and "when", besides the big "where." At this point, I feel like the world is my oyster and, solo, I can do anything anywhere I want. The unknown is what's scary. While I loathe teaching, it seems to be the best chance at having a guaranteed salary and health insurance, since I have a teaching license. I teach now and simply do not like it. Otherwise, I'd throw caution to the wind and work at a Whole Foods or Trader Joes and be happy -- if I knew I could live off the pay. Yet there is still the big dream of opening my own restaurant, since I am also a professional chef. With such instability now -- that dream will have to wait. Anyway -- I am sighing and eating proverbial bon bons right now, thinking of the day, how all of this has transpired (it's been building for years actually), and contemplating the future. What to do? (I wish I knew what I SHOULD do.) Coffee sounds awfully comforting right now... [Edited 10/7/07 17:55pm] | |
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