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I think I have the thirty-something blues Today was my birthday. It felt like any other day.
I've been in a new city for a year and for the most part...I hate it. I feel like I've made no progess. I launched my entreprenuerial venture Sunday, been in grad school a year, and found a fairly decent job. It sucks. I'm bummed out so much. I've been packing on the weight, even though I work out a lot. Oh shit...am I the "d" word? SHit...this is that thirty something depression isn't it? I really hate it here. My man is in another city, and I'm wondering why didn't I just move all the way to ATL? I used to be so...Kat... My personality changed here...My part time job boss even asked me what is up. Where is the Kat that I knew last year? In any case, I'm giving this city another year (Charlotte). I know the bigger the city, the clique-ier. But this shit sucks. Can't spell edit [Edited 10/1/07 20:48pm] | |
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happy birthday...
sorry you aint feelin' good about it...  | |
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Happy birthday, girl.
My depression years were my late teens and all through my 20s. These days I am actually doing ok....surprisingly.  | |
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Thanks for the b-day wishes. I feel like it's out of body or something.
I had crappy times in my teens and in my 20's. But I can't shake this crap | |
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KatSkrizzle said: Thanks for the b-day wishes. I feel like it's out of body or something.
I had crappy times in my teens and in my 20's. But I can't shake this crap I know kids depress the hell out of me. And by kids, I mean early 20's. I just don't get their shit. And it makes me feel old. That's depressing... | |
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violator said: KatSkrizzle said: Thanks for the b-day wishes. I feel like it's out of body or something.
I had crappy times in my teens and in my 20's. But I can't shake this crap I know kids depress the hell out of me. And by kids, I mean early 20's. I just don't get their shit. And it makes me feel old. That's depressing... it's not so much feeling old...because if anyone knows me, they know I'm really goofy and a very big kid. It's this situation, I guess. I may move in and shack up with Mr before I was supposed to next year. At least I'll have my best friend to come home to | |
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KatSkrizzle said: violator said: I know kids depress the hell out of me. And by kids, I mean early 20's. I just don't get their shit. And it makes me feel old. That's depressing... it's not so much feeling old...because if anyone knows me, they know I'm really goofy and a very big kid. It's this situation, I guess. I may move in and shack up with Mr before I was supposed to next year. At least I'll have my best friend to come home to Oh, you're just missing your man. That's understandable. At least you have someone...  | |
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violator said: KatSkrizzle said: it's not so much feeling old...because if anyone knows me, they know I'm really goofy and a very big kid. It's this situation, I guess. I may move in and shack up with Mr before I was supposed to next year. At least I'll have my best friend to come home to Oh, you're just missing your man. That's understandable. At least you have someone... Yeah...but it's like being single except for 48 to 24 hours a month. It's my career ambitions and life besides him that has me bent outta shape. He makes it a little easier to deal with this f%^king city. Did I say that "out loud"? | |
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KatSkrizzle said: violator said: Oh, you're just missing your man. That's understandable. At least you have someone... Yeah...but it's like being single except for 48 to 24 hours a month. It's my career ambitions and life besides him that has me bent outta shape. He makes it a little easier to deal with this f%^king city. Did I say that "out loud"? Sounds like you said pretty easily. No sense in denying it... Make that move... | |
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happy birthday 
we just have to figure out what's best for us  She couldn't stop crying 'cause she knew he was gone to stay | |
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I'm half way through my 30s and I hate them so far. However, I've come to realize that my 40s will be more of the same if I don't take steps to turn it around. Each few years always presents their own unique challenges. I don't think the "struggle" ever ends.  Love | |
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Saturn's return? | |
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I am sorry you were feeling blue yesterday Kat!  I hope today is a better day!Proud Memaw to Seyhan Olivia Christine ,Zoey Cirilo Jaylee & Ellie Abigail Lillian  | |
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MoniGram said: I am sorry you were feeling blue yesterday Kat!
I hope today is a better day!Thanks "MeeMaw"! 
I'll feel better. I think Violator called it. It's just half way here and I know it. It makes it harder. I just need to go move all the way and no more half steppin! | |
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Happy Birthday!
Sounds like you just miss your man. Take some time, spend a long weekend with him and refocus on what your goal was to begin with. If you need to re-evaluate your goals, do it on paper and approach things from a new direction. If those things don't clear the funk, read something positive and uplifting to remind you of why you set the goal to begin with. | |
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KatSkrizzle said: Today was my birthday. It felt like any other day.
I've been in a new city for a year and for the most part...I hate it. I feel like I've made no progess. I launched my entreprenuerial venture Sunday, been in grad school a year, and found a fairly decent job. It sucks. I'm bummed out so much. I've been packing on the weight, even though I work out a lot. Oh shit...am I the "d" word? SHit...this is that thirty something depression isn't it? I really hate it here. My man is in another city, and I'm wondering why didn't I just move all the way to ATL? I used to be so...Kat... My personality changed here...My part time job boss even asked me what is up. Where is the Kat that I knew last year? In any case, I'm giving this city another year (Charlotte). I know the bigger the city, the clique-ier. But this shit sucks. Can't spell edit [Edited 10/1/07 20:48pm] As someone who lives in ATL, I can say you SHOULD just move here! Charlotte is LAAAAME! I had a gig there a couple weeks ago and the crowd was one of the lamest in history. That, and yeah, it's clique-y and expensive. Hell, North Carolina itself is pretty bad. You definitely need to get outta there!  | |
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guitarslinger44 said: KatSkrizzle said: Today was my birthday. It felt like any other day.
I've been in a new city for a year and for the most part...I hate it. I feel like I've made no progess. I launched my entreprenuerial venture Sunday, been in grad school a year, and found a fairly decent job. It sucks. I'm bummed out so much. I've been packing on the weight, even though I work out a lot. Oh shit...am I the "d" word? SHit...this is that thirty something depression isn't it? I really hate it here. My man is in another city, and I'm wondering why didn't I just move all the way to ATL? I used to be so...Kat... My personality changed here...My part time job boss even asked me what is up. Where is the Kat that I knew last year? In any case, I'm giving this city another year (Charlotte). I know the bigger the city, the clique-ier. But this shit sucks. Can't spell edit [Edited 10/1/07 20:48pm] As someone who lives in ATL, I can say you SHOULD just move here! Charlotte is LAAAAME! I had a gig there a couple weeks ago and the crowd was one of the lamest in history. That, and yeah, it's clique-y and expensive. Hell, North Carolina itself is pretty bad. You definitely need to get outta there! I think I am going to follow your advice! Maybe this city isn't for me. I'm so glad there is someone that agrees with me! So when are you playing in ATL? I'm going to be there this weekend. 48 hours of peace and happiness! | |
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I'd give you something to smile about KatSkrizzle. There's Joy In Expatriation. | |
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JDInteractive said: I'd give you something to smile about KatSkrizzle.
Bless you! You are just so damn cute! Thank you for cheering me up! | |
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Heiress said: Saturn's return? you should post info on what that is so people would uderstand more | |
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KatSkrizzle said: JDInteractive said: I'd give you something to smile about KatSkrizzle.
Bless you! You are just so damn cute! Thank you for cheering me up! There's Joy In Expatriation. | |
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LazarusHeart said: I'm half way through my 30s and I hate them so far. However, I've come to realize that my 40s will be more of the same if I don't take steps to turn it around. Each few years always presents their own unique challenges. I don't think the "struggle" ever ends.
I think the thing with your thirties is that your friends and family age around you quite rapidly. Not "grow older" or "mature" - I mean "age" in the worst sense of the word. They settle into repetitious scenarios and routines which they find comfortable but I would find suffocating. | |
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Justin1972UK said: LazarusHeart said: I'm half way through my 30s and I hate them so far. However, I've come to realize that my 40s will be more of the same if I don't take steps to turn it around. Each few years always presents their own unique challenges. I don't think the "struggle" ever ends.
I think the thing with your thirties is that your friends and family age around you quite rapidly. Not "grow older" or "mature" - I mean "age" in the worst sense of the word. They settle into repetitious scenarios and routines which they find comfortable but I would find suffocating. You are right. My friends back home really just started to not identify with me. I'm still pursuing something. I'm still striving. The rest of them have kids, families, and life. Perhaps I'm the one behind... In any case, you are right. But it really isn't about the age. I'm just having an AWFUL time adjusting to this city. My first year in Durham was awesome, I loved it. A co-worker told me today that "it's not about you", that I needed to start volunteering, doing something to give back and take my mind off my situation. I think I'm gonna do that. | |
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JDInteractive said: KatSkrizzle said: Bless you! You are just so damn cute! Thank you for cheering me up! | |
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Mach said: Heiress said: Saturn's return? you should post info on what that is so people would uderstand more Here's a link: http://newage-directory.com/saturn.html It has to do with reaching your thirties and the big existential crises that seem to arrive around that time... interesting explanation. more info edit [Edited 10/3/07 0:09am] | |
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I'm so past 30...well only one year. But I definitely used to get that anxiety issue...started around 28 and 29. But 30 came and I was like, whatever! | |
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KatSkrizzle said: I'm so past 30...well only one year. But I definitely used to get that anxiety issue...started around 28 and 29. But 30 came and I was like, whatever!
I think the whole identity crisis thing can drag on longer than you'd think... it still comes back to me years later. But it's getting better. | |
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