from my world

I've been sick for two days....my daughter can't seem to wake up when her alarm goes off and I swear I'mma throw it at her the next time she sleeps through it....I'm becoming more mistrusting of people (something I need to take to jesus and therapy. I need to redefine the word "friend" in my world.), my car is messing up, and my dog is getting on my nerves today....



(sigh)


What would be a good hiatus?

Aw. I swear I was gonna say Vegas until I read your signature

What do you really enjoy
What really relaxes you
What really feeds your soul


A busy city
A rustic secluded mountian cabin
The ocean



I can really relate to how you feel hun

Take me with you

Mach said:

comeeeee with

(sigh)


I think I need to go do something for someone else. Get outside of myself.

I'm too Rhonda focused I think....yanno.

Rhondab said:

Rhondab said:

I am just the oppisit - I do so very much each day for others - it's consumming me

Mach said:

Well normally, that would be me as well BUT I think I'm so consumed with healing myself that I'm over whelmed with Rhonda's crap.

My selfish time is purposed but its annoying me and I'm not good at it....

Rhondab said:

What a selfless remedy. I think most of us -- myself included -- would assume the opposite position.

Why not go on a six-month stint volunteering somewhere? A hospice? A soup kitchen? A public housing facility? Help is needed all over. You could force yourself to form bonds with people in precarious situations. You could force yourself to take a bus, instead of a car, and, assuming your daughter is old enough, you could make yourself slightly less available to dote after her -- make HER get herself up, make her own breakfast, suffer the consequences, etc.

Is this an option?

first




now, you know what I think? I think you are detoxing, yes that's right. You are exercising yes? eating right, writing and purging and it's not pretty. I did that last summer remember my blogs? ugh it's hard work and you have hit the part that is the hardest and you can't stand the "rhondaisms" that you are dealing with. hang in girl you are almost there. Enjoy the breeze and step outside and see the journey for what it is, a journey with peaks, valleys and curves. Keep going, keep writing, keep praying, stay on course and breathe breathe breathe.



it will get better. you will feel better. promise

Lammastide said:

Well remember, I use to do all of that stuff for a living and had my daughter with me. We've worked food pantries, shelters etc.

In the past year, I decided to be selfish on purpose to heal myself of some crap but being so self focused is really getting on my nerves

As far as the kid, its just that I think she's lost her mind in the past week with her alarm clock situation.....

Buttah:

You are probably so right. I could just be detoxing, mentally, spiritually and physically. ughhhhh....and this is what I wanna teach women to do?....is I crazy

Rhondab said:

I know EXACTLY what you mean.

Rhonda, I have the same thing going on here.
I am less patient than I used to be. The bad part is my kids usually witness my anger. What is even worse is that my anger is directed at them soemthimes. I need to relax more when I am around them.

What I have been doing is making sure I keep a calm house. I do my part around the house and make sure my wife doesn't walk into a diaster zone when she gets home. I work afternoons and she works mornings.

I have set some personal short term goals that I plan on keeping. You know like more exercise and paying off some of those small bills.

Rhondab said:

You need a nice vacation, just to get away from it all.

Rhondab said:

I have thought about this comment and I think I am in the same boat as well hun

When I am down in the dumps, like yesterday..
I buy flowers for my kitchen table, or a new orchid to display in my house. That is exactly what I did yesterday, I bought a new orchid and planted it into a beautiful pot I have, placed it on my kitchen table....I am wierd, but this makes me so very happy.

PaisleyPark5083 said:

I buy myself flowers as well -

Mach said:

there is something in it that makes me feel good..I enjoy the beauty of the flowers.

Rhondab said:

yeah we both are

Rhondab said:

New Years with your half mexican gay queen brother! Trust me, I know these blues. I'm just coming out of a damn hole that I came back to from my vacation 3 months ago and I am literally dreaming about killing people. Hoping and praying that dream won't come true




Days to months edit
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Rhondab said:

Hopefully u have a healthy hobby.....if so, dive into it head 1st for as long as u possibly can.

SupaFunkyOrgangrinderSexy said:

New Year's is on and poppin'.....


and please don't kill nobody....lawd...can't nobody it ya gay mexican queen ass out of jail.
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Now see my suggestion was gonna be that you need some "me" time but you're sick of that, so I have no clue! It'll pass, girlie

Time 4 me 2 visit West Lafayette and stop in Indy before I get there.

Graycap23 said:

see....


yeah Cali...no more damn me time. ugh!!!

Rhondab said:

lol.

sometimes i wish i could freeze time. that would be a great hiatus.

ThreadBare said:

the sad thing is...I know what you're not going to say....