HereToRockYourWorld said:

ZombieKitten said:

Always with yourself.

To answer the ?, I've been in a really depleted place. I went through some really awful shit a couple of years back, and I recently realized that I've not come anywhere close to recovering from it. I feel like the person I am has gotten buried in a landfill of other people's crap, and I totally let that happen, and instead of really digging myself out (and protecting myself from more), I've just made myself feel safe and comfortable in my buried-ness, and it's not working for me. I don't know how to fix it. I've moved so far away from actually expressing my true self in the way I exist in the world that I don't really remember how. And I still don't really know how to take care of myself even if I can figure it out.

But, at least I see the problem.

HamsterHuey said:

I seem to have lost my "identity" since my son is all grown up I dont know who i am anymore..hubby has work, son has collage...i dont know what i have? or IF its enough.
I have slight depresion, am taking sleeping pills, & have Meniere's desease, endometriosis, tendonitis...ok..maybe thats more info than neccesary...lol

i saw my dr todaY & he said i was a miserable person..i was very upset b/c i dont see myself that way at All..maybe he's right? i dont know anymore.

sonic said:

I can SO relate to this

its somewhere mingling with frustration, pure happiness, a state of being content, moments of self pity, depression, perseverance, and confidence in future accomplishment.

My life is very, very much at a crossroad right now for the last few months I've not been myself (some would say for a long time, actually, but nothing like what how I've been since I've been back in Australia) and the last few weeks in particular have been very testing...

we'll see what the immediate future brings

heybaby said:

crazy but i'm still lovin every minute of it.

HamsterHuey said:

I think I need a kick up the arse to get my positivity back up and running

The last 3 1/2 months have been very hard for me. I hope things will slowly get better again soon .

I can honestly say that the last 6 months have been the worst of my adult life. After 12 years in the same career field, I quit my job. It wasn't a sudden or drastic decision by any means...it had been coming for a few months...but it was a big moment none the less. Although I have a certain peace of mind about leaving, it has created some added stress. I'm no longer in my comfort zone...I'm doing work that I never thought I'd be involved in...my yearly salary has been more than cut in half...I miss alot of my former co-workers.
The past few months have presented personal challenges that have taken a toll on me and my family...my marriage is strained, to say the least. I've never been a really open person...I'm more apt to keep things bottled up and work them out on my own...more and more, I find this isn't working, for me or any one else in my life...
I know I have major decisions to make very soon...I hope I'm strong enough to make the right ones for the right reasons...
On a positive note, it's been nice to have an outlet like the Org where I can come and have a few laughs and even share a few personal thoughts...I've been given some great advice from some folks here that I've really taken to heart...

I can be quite a pessimist at times and on reflection I have no reason to be. Im young and in good health and I have a lot going for me. I think coming back home after my travels was a bit of bump and quite hard to take but Im slowly getting over it. I got back into work quickly, am focused on what I want to do with my life and I feel generally more attractive and happy.

I can honestly say that the last twelve months have been the worst of my life.

I have a job interview on Thursday evening, so I'm hoping that goes well. It's not much more money, but the change of scenery may do me some good.

JDInteractive said:

I'm also very, very happy after this weekend too.

Justin1972UK said:

Good luck with the job interview.

Serious said:

HamsterHuey said:

Me, too, but I'm on anti-depressants, so I'm hanging in there, although it's not always easy even with the pills.

scififilmnerd said:

Thank you

scififilmnerd said:

CarrieMpls said:

ah the bennies of working for Tarjay

I've just got engaged and am looking forward to the future more now than I have ever. Life is ever changing, growing and learning.

BlackAdder7 said:

Tarjay and Ikea are both godsends for a girl with style on a budget.

CarrieMpls said:

Have you seen that cute little futon they have at TARGET. It's so cute. I want it. AND it's on sale!!!!

MIGUELGOMEZ said:

OMG!!
That's what I bought this weekend!

CarrieMpls said:

sorry, but how much was that shit?

horatio said:

If you're going to insult my furniture, I'm not about to answer questions about it.

CarrieMpls said:

GET OUT!

I saw it this weekend. I didn't buy it because my best friend offered me her mom's futon and I said no. BUT I WANT IT!
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