CynthiasSocks said:

CynthiasSocks said:

I think that what doesn't kill you doesn't make you stronger - it makes you harder. And that isn't necessarily a good thing.

You are loved.

Overall, yeah, I am. I mean, I think I am. I'm not sure if I'm a good judge of happy. I think I've spent so much of my life depressed that absence of depression pretty much equals happy for me.
Could I be happier? Maybe. But I'm happy with where I am. So it goes back to yes, I think I'm happy.

Mushanga said:

That's good and healthy reading. Thank you.

CynthiasSocks said:

I think i know exactly how it is but i always tried 2 hang on something positive like spirituality or small pleasures or work or whatever.

If u need 2 talk about it it's ok, we're here

CynthiasSocks said:

I do feel you.
You may feel it is slowly killing you, but as you said, you are becoming stronger because of it. You are not alone. Sometimes we have to hit rock bottom to move on upwards, and I do hope you are starting to climb back up, whether you realise it yet or not.



Feel free to orgnote me if you want to talk.

Justin1972UK said:

Harder or stronger, it doesn't matter, because you can look back at every low point and realise you did get through it. That is strength in itself.

CarrieMpls said:

That's good. Many people want to be happier, but cannot see what they already have. The grass isn't always greener on the other side.



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I am happy but it did not come without a price.
I had to make some major changes, work hard on myself and give up a lot.
I also had to try to stop doing what I knew would make everyone else around me happy.

we also live in a world now that tells us content is bad and we need to have things to be happy.

Justin1972UK said:

Oh god. I thought that situations like that happen only to me.

Does the therapy help you in any way?
Or does it make you feel like an idiot mostly?
I'm asking cuz I'm thinking about getting one for myself.

shanti0608 said:

That's so important, and yet can be so difficult.

shanti0608 said:

Yes we do, and I think that's why alot of us ask ourselves WHY we aren't happy. Years ago people had a lot less, yet were happier. If I go on holiday to poorer places, I see the locals so happy and content with their lives, because maybe they don't ask for so much, or expect so much and just live life as it was given them.

rushing07 said:

I haven't been seeing him all that long, so it's hard to say.

All joking aside, he did make me realise that people don't have to physically die for you to grieve over them. As soon as he diagnosed that I was suffering from a form of bereavement, it put a lot of things into perspective for me.

I'm still not 100% myself though. Not even 20% really.

MissMe said:

Indeed it is. Though I have learned ever since I started to apply it and those ppl see that I am happy now doing what I feel is best for me- they have become happy as well.
So all of that time that I kept doing it there way and ending up unhappy only ended up hurting them because they saw me unhappy because I did things for their happiness.

Hope that made sense.

Justin1972UK said:

You're right. I'm weaker for it and harder- as in bitter. I can adjust to not spending $500 a month eating out or shopping at Versace at the drop of a dime, but I can no longer tolerate the mental state Drew's brain surgery has caused. He's never going to be the man he was and I'm physically and mentally sick because of it.

I could never leave him so I guess I'll continue to tolerate it and ultimately sacrifice myself.

no, I'm not happy in least but at the same time I can't say that I'm not unhappy...I'm somewhere in between.

shaomi said:

Thank you! That's very sweet. I was the most positive person of all the family and friends- I was also the last to see the writing on the wall. That's gone now and what's left is now empty and dead.

What's that??

MissMe said:

Thank you! But there's no upward movement, there's no climbing back. Just sorrow and tears and I kill the pain with vicodin and whiskey.

No, and I don't know anyone who is.

MissMe said:

While I have a problem with the phrase "100% happy", I think I'm about as close as you can get. I would attribute this to five key factors:

1. Therapy.
2. Coming to beliefs that share quite a bit with Buddhist philosophy.
3. Coming to beliefs that share quite a bit with Andy Warhol's philosophy.
4. Knowing that there are many, many people out there with circumstances much worse than mine and being thankful for what I have.
5. Tuning out 99% of songs and other fiction (e.g. movies, TV, novels).

CynthiasSocks said:

Ace said:

You have 5 interesting threads there, I would love to see you post them.

Too many shadows in my room
Too many hours in this midnight
Too many corners in my mind
So much to do to set my heart right

Oh, it’s taken so long
I could be wrong, I could be ready
Oh, but if I take my heart’s advice
I should assume it’s still unsteady
I am in repair
I am in repair

Stood on the corner for a while
To wait for the wind to blow down on me
Hoping it takes with it my old ways
And brings some brand new luck upon me

Oh, it’s taken so long
I could be wrong, I could be ready

Oh, but if I take my heart’s advice
I should assume it’s still unsteady
I am in repair
I am in repair

And now I’m walking in the park
And all of the birds, they dance below me
Maybe when things turn green again
It will be good to say you know me

Oh, it’s taken so long
I could be wrong, I could be ready
Oh, but if I take my heart’s advice
I should assume it’s still unsteady
Oh yeah, I’m never really ready, yeah
Oh yeah, I’m never really ready, yeah

I’m in repair
I’m not together but I’m getting there


-- J. Mayer, "In Repair"

HereToRockYourWorld said:

Great song...


co-sign...

Overall I am pretty happy.

My job is cool but I wish I was making way more money.
I love being single and having my own place but I can get lonely sometimes.
I'm happy with who I am as a person but I wish I was in way better physical shape.

HereToRockYourWorld said:

ditto... I'm in repair...

MissMe said:

probably 60 or 70 % I still neglect things i'm good at; music, writing, and get stuck in the work - t.v - bed routine.

I have much to be happy for, when i consider my life situation 18 months ago when i was at my lowest ebb ever it is hard to think of me in that situation and yet it was very few things that actually drove me to that place.
Now in my life i am happy and settled more so than ever before. In another 8 weeks i will have the final piece of the jigsaw in place and although i know there will be troubles and worries in this life that i am building my inner peace and happiness, is what dictates my overall feeling, and that, will be taken care of and nurtured. Therefore happy and content.

mdiver said:

Ewww you said the "C" word that I was talking about earlier in my posts.

That seems to be a bad word these days in our society...that and happiness as well. Ppl would much rather you tell them bad news and sad stuff than happy things it seems.