How have you grown since July of last year?

This time last year, I was in hiding....from myself and my deeds...or misdeeds, depending on perspective...since then, I've come to grips with my life and who I am...and I've grown quite a bit more that even I thought was possible at 40...

Can you recall any conflicts you were having? Have they been resolved?

I can recall a conflict that was brewing close to the surface last year that boiled over....the resolution is a work in progress....but things are better in my marriage than at any time in our years together....

What do you plan to work on or strive for this next year?

I am in the midst of building the better body, finishing my education, and preparing my son for college and life after home in the next couple of years.....

What acheivemnts have you made since then?

Professionally, I've received two achievment awards.....personally, I was able to acknowledge my mistakes and fix my marriage.....

Rhondab said:

I can relate ...I was 22 pounds lighter right before my husbands surgery last June

stress eating

Mach said:

i do that too

Anxiety said:

That's a nasty habit I try to avoid. Why is it when one has a moment food with nuts seem to hit the spot?

MsLegs said:

i'm more into soft stuff in large amounts - rice, cheezy poofs, cereal, pudding, yogurt, etc. - maybe because it's like baby food and when i panic i regress to infanthood, i dunno

Anxiety said:

Well, the cheese stuff along with the granola can be tempting especially if you get it from place like TJ. You know I had to go there with Trader praises.

Dani, did Ocean put you up to this thread?

This time last year I had just fallen in crazy love. It was a great time. After lots of hard stuff, I'm still in crazy love, and she asked me to marry her recently. It's good.

I was also about to head back to school to finish up pre-med classes. Almost a year in, I'm enjoying the classes very much (I had no idea how fun chemistry is . . . well, the legal kind), though not working as hard as I should, so my grades are only good, not perfect. I should be really worried about that. I'm not.

Over the next year, I'll be applying to med school (November) and probably not getting in (which has kinda been the plan. . . this year I'll barely meet the requirements, so I'm unlikely to get in until next year, but I thought I'd give it a shot). I need to dig down and find the discipline to pull a whole lotta 4.0s over the coming quarters. Lessee. . .once the yuck weather rolls back in, I'm planning to hit the weight training really hard and get super crazy strong. And I'll probably get married sometime in the spring or early summer.

Anxiety said:

I am working hard now to go walking instead of snacking
I was so house bound between taking care of TR and my mom each day all day long

Now TR is great and we have a person helping with my mom for the summer

I have just a tad bit more Me time to get out

Mach said:

About time

mdiver said:

I have til Aug 1st

Then I will be taking over to 500$ a month care for my mom to help pay for JT's school

My Dad cant see family $ going to a stranger when I would have to get a part time job anyway to help wth schooling costs

lots of mixed feelings about this but It's all GOOD and JT is worth it !

Mach said:

You are good people babes

mdiver said:

I'm just Mach

Mach said:

Like i said.....

How have you grown since July of last year?
A lot. I've chosen between the temptation of Water & the temptation of Sand & at last i know what i want with my life!

Can you recall any conflicts you were having? Have they been resolved?
Yes, i just had moved from Lyon 2 Marseille with my girlfriend & discovered living 2gether was kinda harsh 4 both of us, i was lost about losing my city & independence, it was a very difficult time but almost all is resolved now.

What do you plan to work on or strive for this next year?
U mean what DID i plan back then? Well, i hoped 2 get my 1st publishing contract which hasn't happen yet, & 2 produce a lot of work which i did though not as much as i would have wanted 2. Now my goals r kinda the same plus a trip 2 India next fall, more spiritual work & properly investing the money i have inherited.

What acheivemnts have you made since then?
As i said i made a lot of choices about my future i couldn't resolve myself 2 make b4. I've also learned a LOT about my work & how 2 do it even better & made some contacts with some publishers that i hope will b useful soon.

When all is said & done, 2006-2007 was the most shitty year of my life since, well... 1996-1997: i guess it has 2 happen every now & then. I felt lost & unsecure, couldn't adapt 2 both my new city & living with a girl. I've had more painful moments in my life but i really felt, well... just lost & bored, which is worst than suffering in a sense: i CAN'T stand 2 feel bored, i need 2 b in love with my life even when it's difficult.
I still feel kinda fragile but i've taken my life back & i'm getting better. May Shiva guide my steps...

Number23 said:

Jeez , can u repeat it a bit slower?

Number23 said:

U're a cousin of SausagePlatter & OzlemUkuku, ain't ya?

How have you grown since July of last year? Yes, I have considerably

Can you recall any conflicts you were having? I had a few minor personal conflicts but nothing special. That is until my last cornerstone (that gave me a sense) of consistency and stability dislodged itself and subsequently causing everything it held up in my life to collapse.

Have they been resolved? It’s more along the lines of acceptance for me than it is resolved, but I guess so. Personally I have a much more accurate and clearer picture of myself, and everything else in my life in general.

What do you plan to work on or strive for this next year? Continue working out and staying in good health, building on providing my own sense of stability, consistency and balance needed in my life, strive to not be so hard on and critical of myself and basically just give myself a break.

What achievements have you made since then? Personally, I’m in a much better place than I was a few months ago. I… dug deeper and pulled myself through to the other side of my experience completely intact. Armed with the experience, knowledge, and optimal clarity...I’m more empowered than I’ve ever been. So, with that and my added continued progress of rebuilding myself solely on my own foundation, I’ve achieved quite a bit...I can see rainbows.
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