unlucky7 said:

Will you be suicidal if this thread doesn't go anywhere?

I dont have time to read all the posts right now but Iv had many close friends commit suicide. Its tragic and very hard to deal with. My first boyfriend shot himself when he was 18,

I started attempting when I was 13, I self harmed since I was 11.
hospitalized 8 times and had endless counselling and meds,
went through programs and many other groups through out the years,

I honestly wanted to die, I just didnt have the strangth to finish what I started, I would tire out mentaly, physicly, and emotionaly.

Every attempt I made I got closer to my goal.
I was NOT looking for attention or asking for help,
I wanted the opposite.. I wanted to be left alone and nothing could have helped.
When I set my mind to something nothing changes it.

Unfortunately my parents steped in and stoped me. but maybe that was for the best, although I dont really see it that way

evenstar3 said:

i can only speak for myself and my own "attempts", pathetic as they were, 21-year-old tryna deal with the aftermath of hearing he'd been diagnosed with Crohns disease.

meggy said:

Dammit!

2ndRevolution said:

not because of this thread...

evenstar3 said:

And so what if it's attention seeking? And that point the person is in desperate need of some attention. They need help, and that's kind of their way of asking for it.

CarrieMpls said:

Thats a different question.

meggy said:

You are loved. I love you.

depression BITES. If you don't climb out of the pit, you end up dead or sick. It BITES.

unlucky7 said:

thought about it, tried it....didnt succeed im still here. Biggest mistake I ever made in my life.

ELASTICFANTASTIC said:

RodeoSchro said:

thank you guys

meggy said:

just for the record I didnt post this for anyones sympathy so please dont..
it was simply a reply to the question asked.

meggy said:

Well you wouldn't have been able to post pictures of that kick ass house had you succeeded now would ya?

SupaFunkyOrgangrinderSexy said:

Grrrr I suppose your right

meggy said:

Besides, I think it's really important for someone like yourself to express what exactly your issue was so that others can understand. In my case, the person who tried several attempts felt like nobody understood him, even though that wasn't really the truth.

unlucky7 said:

Yes, Yes, Indeed
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There was a time in my life when I really didn't want to live anymore, but I couldn't stand thinking about how much it would hurt my family, so I refused to do anything about it.

Depression is a bitch.

I'm glad I'm here. If I ever get to that place again, I'll know that it CAN get better. I feel so bad when I hear that a teenager has killed themselves (including a young cousin of mine who did so). They hadn't lived long enough to know that things always change, so if they're really that bad, they're likely to get better.

HereToRockYourWorld said:

Yes it is indeed. I really wish we could find better ways to deal with it and understand it better to help those of us who suffer from it.

Yes I knew some people

Yes I know some people

Yes

not quite but came very close


and yes life can be very hard sometimes for many

HereToRockYourWorld said:

that could have been my post, word for word.

i've also had someone close to me make a serious attempt. it was a scary and dark period for both of us. 10 years later, he's alive and well.

yeah i had a family member to commit suicide...but it was supposedly due to some kind of experimental medication that the doctors were trying out for a minor illness he had. Apparently the "prescribed medicine" deteriorated his mental state, and ended up severely depressed and paranoid. He attempted suicide one month before he hanged himself in his garage where his wife found him after coming home from work early for another reason.

it's a sad thing because it affects everybody that the person knows.

shanti0608 said:

Me too. I went to a seminar on global health, and the presenter said that she considers depression to be one of the top ten global health crisis. It kills a lot of people, and harms a lot more.

madartista said:

HereToRockYourWorld said:

And it's a humungous quality of life issue...

CarrieMpls said:

I'm actually meeting with an instructor today to set up an independent study course on this issue. Perhaps I'll post my results.

HereToRockYourWorld said:

I'd totally be interested!

meggy said:

but why did you want to die?
life kind of balances itself out with the miraculous and the crappy,
the survival instinct usually takes care of the rest.

And what changed your ways?

My friend's brother-in-law committed suicide. He thought he was possessed by a demon and shot himself. It was horrible (of course it was), but it was, just, unexpected and sad, and awful. He left behind a young wife, and three children under the age of 7.

My dad's best friend shot himself.

My boss's son shot himself.

My friend's father shot himself.

NO MORE!!!!!
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I think about killing myself at least once a day. No, it does not matter the people I'd leave behind and no, it is not a cry for help. All I see is an end of the pain in my life, intentional and unintentional. The meds I was on made me feel more depressed so I stopped taking them.

I know two people that have successfully committed suicide. Both by hanging themselves and both were involved with female relatives of mine named "Lisa".... no kidding....

Not sure what their problems were, but both were raging alcoholics.....

So sad really...