NastyPig said:

it felt like I was being raped by my own poo!

NastyPig said:

Well. I think you clicked on the wrong thread

SupaFunkyOrgangrinderSexy said:

I love you too babe!!

I just wrote some profound stuff and damn it!!

God provides a way through it all. We make it through the mess to show others how to make it through with grace and love and turn away from being bitter.

Supa and others helped to dance my way to victory.

apples

applekisses said:

~Hugs Andrea.
~Hugs to all.
[Edited 4/30/07 19:00pm]

my deepest respect to all those that who have shared their pain

life is as tragic and sad as well as it is beautiful..

saying goodbye for the last time, as the strength left her fingertips, it broke my heart..

eraclito said:

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[Edited 4/30/07 19:19pm]

SupaFunkyOrgangrinderSexy said:

Yeah.
This post would have been better served in that "Are You Cynical About Life" thread.

Go on a date

Janfriend said:

You are too damn cute not to be booked for the next life!

Well, I'll go with a serious answer on this one.
Realizing who I am was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. I lived alone (no roomate or anything) for 4 months at age 19. It was MY summer. I learned how to entertain myself (no tv), to work hard, I battled with issues that I had been waltzing past for years. I stopped and smelled the roses, hiked and camped alone, and for once, put myself out there for the world to see. It was almost instantanious that I realized, "wow, I have been giving time and respect to everyone but myself." Through this, here are some things I TRULY realized
1-I am self concious even though I say Im not
2-I can be too honest and many 19-22yo can't handle that type of truth
3-I wish that my parents were my friends
4-I try to deal with things internally which lead to problems later on
5-SOME people you think are good friends, or want to believe they are, would leave you with a drop of a hat if it bettered them.
6-Lying is a waste of time
7-I rely on others to provide happiness instead of myself
8-My whole life I have been living my parents idea of a life

You want to know what I did? After years of doing what I was "supposed" to do instead of "wanted" to do, I finally did.
December-Left college
February 1-Left my birthplace and moved to New York City to pursue my dreams of being a pastry chef.

Everyone thought I was insane....but I have never been more complete

SupaFunkyOrgangrinderSexy said:

Thanks

My problem is actually participating in the date itself



Seriously, the hardest thing I've had to do was tell my mother her sister was dead

Janfriend said:

that was my initial reaction... telling my father his brother was dead.

eraclito said:

I never got that chance. I was just about to go to the hospital when Dad called with the bad news - nine days after Mother's Day. I don't look forward to that time of year anymore. Not only that, but two of my closest friends lost their moms the same year. We were so relieved when 2003 was over.

pasquerto said:

This was nice to read and I am happy that you are happy having come through this searching experience. You are very lucky to have made the time to search yourself and come to the conclusions you did because now you can work on the weaknesses and build on the strengths. There are not many people who can say that they feel complete. Well done and live a very happy life because the choices you make are your own.

what I am doing right now: trying to prepare a roast, asado (in the oven ) peel and cut up potatoes and pumpkin all while refereeing 3 arguing and whining children who are getting hungry and very tired, all making demands of me at once.



I put on some Prince 12" to try and drown them out, and a gin and tonic is not far off now

Dealing with life and all the shit it has thrown at me especially from September 2005 through 2006, which was just one big repeat of a past bad moment in time. Sometimes now too, life is hard, but I suppose that is why its life.
[Edited 5/1/07 0:12am]

ZombieKitten said:

heh sounds like my mom when me and my sister got out of control...listen hun...she still has to coral us when we are together and I am 28 and she is 20. Good thing we live on opposite ends of the US, and only see each other a few times a year...

Let go.

mostbeautifulgrlntheworld said:

so it doesn't get easier!

ZombieKitten said:

Well me and my sister are just brats to the core...so it depends on your children but yes it gets easier. Not that I know really I don't have any kids...but I am assuming it gets easier as they get older.

mostbeautifulgrlntheworld said:

lets hope so!

Get dragged through the U.S. immigration process for the sake of another in order to GET OUT of the relationship by proving that we were in a relationship.

And we're talking years



oh, and then there's the experience of childhood, i.e. being under the power and control of adults

heartbeatocean said:

oh man that sounds crappy

ZombieKitten said:

Thanks I just feel so blessed to have made it out of both situations! I really am blessed. I am happy and cherish my life now.

uPtoWnNY said:

i am sorry for your loss, its never easy

sweet said:

THANKFULLY i can look back on all that and laugh now.

Thanks bluebelle! I appreciate it!

pasquerto said:

It's Blueblossom actually ..ha ha ha!!!

Damnit! I tried to remember it when I clicked reply...obviously didn't do a good job

Sorry BlueBlossom