Post it here

Murder a loved one.



But other than that, it's been a pretty good day.

Deal with my mother's cancer and the idea of potentially losing her and put my kitty to sleep.

Letting go of someone I love... letting them walk away.

statuesqque said:

Why did you do that?

Continuously meeting so many beautiful souls and personally witnessing so many little souls and grown souls leave this physical life.

Knowing that "time" here is precious, a rare gift and knowing/realizing good things do come to certain ends. It's will never be an easy fact of life to face and time and time again, it remains the most difficult part of my profession, which filters into my personal life for all time to come.

No matter what or when, we face challenges everyday and will continue to do so throughout our entire lives.

statuesqque said:

Ok, that's mine too.

I have never gotten over this person.

Imago said:

Ok, why did you do it?

statuesqque said:

Yup, that too.

walking away from people who weren't willing to respect my personal boundaries.

DifferentPsuedenum said:

it's what he wanted, what he asked of me.

Surviving a nine month double deployment. Being trapped on a ship for 274 days and the only times I left the ship was to go into Iraq or to post-tsumani Indonesia. Needless to say I came back a changed person.

Keep in mind when we first left home port we were told that it was only going to be 4 months.

Imago said:

same here, I wrote a song about her today.

Freespirit said:

i can not even begin to imagine
can you imagine your life away from it though?

DifferentPsuedenum said:

To make a long story short, some people chase a rainbow, and I just wasn't the pot of gold at the end of it. I saw it coming and new I couldn't do anything to stop it.

I know I'm speaking in very abstract terms here but it's still a very personal, festering, wound.

hold an intervention for a friend with a drug problem.

actually, i dealt with it by going into martha stewart mode and buying refreshments and laying out snacks for everyone who was coming over to help give my friend hell. still, it was gross and surreal.

which reminds me of another hard thing i had to do, which was going to a narcotics anonymous meeting with this same friend, after she asked me to accompany her for moral support. going wasn't so difficult, but during the meeting my nose started itching really bad and i was afraid if i scratched it, everyone at the meeting would think i was a big ol' cokehead jonesing for a snort so i sat on my hands and just tried to twitch my nose a lot. that sucked.

Imago said:

Right there with you, it's a wound that will never heal.

statuesqque said:

Hurts like hell doesn't it?

Imago said:

I know so well what you're saying, all I could do was watch it play out. I liken it to death, you never get over it you just deal with it better as time goes on but the pain of it never goes away.

statuesqque said:

yup.

You always imagine that you will do whatever you can to keep someone you love.

But sometimes, you really can't. Sometimes you just watch it die knowing that no matter what you do , the nature of the relationship would have changed and become impossible to sustain.

Of all the things in my life I regret, this is the greatest.

statuesqque said:

so true...

Telling a family member that I didnt wanna have any contact with them whatsoever

DifferentPsuedenum said:

there are NO words that could accurately express how much it hurts.

statuesqque said:

DanceWme said:

Ok, I did this with my dad.

It was the oddest thing. I was still living in his house for 3 years after that, but we never talked. It was like he wasn't even there. I should write about it someday. It's like a David Lynch movie...or like watching Graffiti Bridge.

Imago said:

yes, that's it exactly

Imago said:

Same here. What hurt me was the expression on his face when I told him that.

CarrieMpls said:

quiting work to looking after my Mum until she passed away from a brain tumour

losing 26kg (a different kinda hard, though)

statuesqque said:

A hug for the both of you, this happen to me a long time ago but was able to get through it.