New topic
PrintableOk,I'm really suprised how open I'm about to be here but it's been one of those days.I don't drink because of issues with my father as well as my aunt.Also, after my ex-finance Rhonda shocked me,her friends and her family by calling off our engagement over the phone December 31st 1998,it's been so important to me to always,always make sure my loved ones always tell me how I can make things better to make sure I never,ever feel that pain again. | |
- E-mail - orgNote -  Report post to moderator |
CarrieMpls said: IrresistibleB1tch said: i had no idea, Carrie!  my father's issues were also triggered by the war (WWII in his case), and his own upbringing. i've since made peace with him and moved on, and it pains me to see my siblings not being able to do that yet and, as a result, being miserable all the time. 
i feel similarly about my niece, although we haven't had much time to spend together. she's a great kid (or young woman - man, she's almost 19!) and i'm proud of what she's done with her life. I had a lot of resentment for many years towards both of my parents, but I've let it all go for the most part. And I can honestly say I love them both very much. While my dad's got his issues, he's also incredibly intelligent, he has a great sense of humour, I got my love of books and music from him, I could actually go on and on here.  I think, too, my dad and I are a LOT alike. And I find that terrifying sometimes. But it also reminds me how much good there is about him too. | |
| - E-mail - orgNote - Report post to moderator |
sitruk7 said: Ok,I'm really suprised how open I'm about to be here but it's been one of those days.I don't drink because of issues with my father as well as my aunt.Also, after my ex-finance Rhonda shocked me,her friends and her family by calling off our engagement over the phone December 31st 1998,it's been so important to me to always,always make sure my loved ones always tell me how I can make things better to make sure I never,ever feel that pain again.
| |
| - E-mail - orgNote - Report post to moderator |
IrresistibleB1tch said: sitruk7 said: Ok,I'm really suprised how open I'm about to be here but it's been one of those days.I don't drink because of issues with my father as well as my aunt.Also, after my ex-finance Rhonda shocked me,her friends and her family by calling off our engagement over the phone December 31st 1998,it's been so important to me to always,always make sure my loved ones always tell me how I can make things better to make sure I never,ever feel that pain again.
Thanks! | |
| - E-mail - orgNote - Report post to moderator |
IrresistibleB1tch said: statuesqque said: Everything about my past made me who I am today and all that's happened and is happening in my life now is definately shaping the person of my future. People tell me I have or do inspire them but I have no idea how.
you'll know eventually.   | |
| - E-mail - orgNote - Report post to moderator |
IAintTheOne said: IrresistibleB1tch said: you'll know eventually. yup, because you dont know if you have inspired or influenced someone unless they tell you, its all about just being, and extending your vibe to others that feel what you're saying or doing, sometimes you dont have to speak to someone to feel an influence. | |
| - E-mail - orgNote - Report post to moderator |
sitruk7 said: Ok,I'm really suprised how open I'm about to be here but it's been one of those days.I don't drink because of issues with my father as well as my aunt.Also, after my ex-finance Rhonda shocked me,her friends and her family by calling off our engagement over the phone December 31st 1998,it's been so important to me to always,always make sure my loved ones always tell me how I can make things better to make sure I never,ever feel that pain again.
Whoa. 
That's a whole lot of emotion. All at once and right away.  to ya Kurtis. | |
| - E-mail - orgNote - Report post to moderator |
july said: sitruk7 said: Ok,I'm really suprised how open I'm about to be here but it's been one of those days.I don't drink because of issues with my father as well as my aunt.Also, after my ex-finance Rhonda shocked me,her friends and her family by calling off our engagement over the phone December 31st 1998,it's been so important to me to always,always make sure my loved ones always tell me how I can make things better to make sure I never,ever feel that pain again.
Whoa.
That's a whole lot of emotion. All at once and right away. to ya Kurtis. | |
| - E-mail - orgNote - Report post to moderator |
I dont think my past bares any reflection on the person I am today. I guess travelling has changed me somewhat. I feel more carefree and relaxed to some extent. I dont think Ive inspired anybody, well not to my knowledge. I think my friends like me, and hopefully respect me. I dont think some do but Im not going to beg for it. | |
| - E-mail - orgNote - Report post to moderator |
JDINTERACTIVE said: I dont think my past bares any reflection on the person I am today. I guess travelling has changed me somewhat. I feel more carefree and relaxed to some extent. I dont think Ive inspired anybody, well not to my knowledge. I think my friends like me, and hopefully respect me. I dont think some do but Im not going to beg for it.
well, you've certainly inspired me. | |
| - E-mail - orgNote - Report post to moderator |
IrresistibleB1tch said: JDINTERACTIVE said: I dont think my past bares any reflection on the person I am today. I guess travelling has changed me somewhat. I feel more carefree and relaxed to some extent. I dont think Ive inspired anybody, well not to my knowledge. I think my friends like me, and hopefully respect me. I dont think some do but Im not going to beg for it.
well, you've certainly inspired me. Why? | |
| - E-mail - orgNote - Report post to moderator |
sitruk7 said: july said: Whoa.
That's a whole lot of emotion. All at once and right away. to ya Kurtis.   | |
| - E-mail - orgNote - Report post to moderator |
JDINTERACTIVE said: IrresistibleB1tch said: well, you've certainly inspired me. Why? through your travels and your open-mindedness. | |
| - E-mail - orgNote - Report post to moderator |
july said: sitruk7 said: Thanks July!It's really appreciated!
That's beautiful! RIP, mom. I will forever miss and love you. | |
| - E-mail - orgNote - Report post to moderator |
psychodelicide said: july said: That's beautiful! | |
| - E-mail - orgNote - Report post to moderator |
july said: psychodelicide said: That's beautiful! RIP, mom. I will forever miss and love you. | |
| - E-mail - orgNote - Report post to moderator |
IrresistibleB1tch said: what about your past makes you the way you are today? and what about today will make you the person you hope/fear/anticipate to be in the future? and is there anybody today whom you think you've inspired?
for me, my dysfunctional family has a lot to do with the way i am today. and growing up poor has given me a sense of compassion i would probably not otherwise have. as for today, i think the friends i've made (human and animal) have inspired me to be a better person down the road. i have no idea if i've inspired anybody. then again, none of my friends or family probably think they have, so chances are SOMEthing i've said or done has influenced somebody. gotta love the universe!  You and Mach inspire me with your 'what will be will be' attitudes.
Like, your acceptance of things. I have a VERY hard time accepting things I don't want. I like the attitude you's have. | |
| - E-mail - orgNote - Report post to moderator |