Thank you all so much.. I cant believe what a nightmare the past few days have been.. and especially when my parents have been almost non contactable.. they arrived in London this morning and are driving home as we speak.. its a 6 or 7 hour journey and its just the waiting that is so awful..

My heart is aching but I know Grandma wanted to go.. it was her time after such a fantastic long life but also with tremendous pain she had to endure for years on a daily basis.

Ironically on Sunday night they moved her into a private room, but so happened to be directly below my Grandads hospital room, so at least they were close in her last hours..

Oh I am so sorry, I am just in a state.. it comes and goes, as one can imagine, but just typing this, I am breaking down.

I just wanted to thank all your kind words, prayers, love and support.

I will cherish and love her always and laugh and cry and remember when I go to the ladies toilets to apply my lipstick as we used to do together. I hope to wear red at her funeral cos she always said Nicole, Red is your colour, you look amazing.. and I hope one day when we are together again, whereever we will be she will be wearing her red shoes and me too, and we will dance together, eat cake, drink tea, laugh and joke as always and I can tell her all the other things I didnt get to tell her.. xx

Nicole I am so sorry 2 hear, I wish I could be by ur side 2 give u a hug, u have my phone number I am here if u ever need me.

Much love 2 u and ur family

i like to think that now they know everything we always meant to tell them


glad your parents are there now.

REDFEATHERS said:

Sorry to hear of your loss. I was really hoping that your Grandmother would pull through.

psychodelicide said:

We really thought Grandad was the worst, but I think maybe Grandma knew she didnt want to be without him, and just decided to stop the fight.. and she left us.

Grandad is still very much alive but poorly.

There will be a post mortem which will delay the funeral somewhat, but I just have to remember this is what she wanted, and seems she had tied up all loose ends at her house, and sorted certain things out so she had prepared herself forthis.

Thank you N xx

Coming from this almost exact senerio recently; let me tell you that I believe FIRST hand in the power of positive energy. Be it prayers, well wishes, smiles, laughter, or hugs.
What is so important in this; your time of great sadness.... is to try, and I know it is hard....but TRY to find the happiness in today. Send that happiness to your loved ones. Find a funny joke or tell a stupid story on the phone... you will be amazed at how much better YOU feel... but how much better your loved ones will feel also!!!

In the mean time; you are of course in all our prayers, I will send you as much positive energy and hope that today you can find a smile and laugh.

Laughter is the true medicine for the soul.....

Be well friend.

I'm trying to phone you but I can't get through, it's not busy (and I don't think you're online cos you're not here, on Yahoo or on MSN) but I just can't get through I only saw this now, I'm so sorry. I hope your parents come home soon to take part of the burden. I wanted to wish you a happy Valentine's Day but it seems a bit... now. I love you sweetie, I will try to call you again tomorrow.
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having family members take ill is the worst. You feel helpless. My thoughts are sent out to you hon.

Unfortunately they cannot find a cause of death that the coroner is happy with so there is going to be an inquest.

It seems that Grandma didnt die of natural causes and they have to look into this more, could take weeks and weeks..