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Printableretina said: xplnyrslf said: HELL NO! I don't constantly fall short.(other than height) I'm lucky and grateful to be where I am and I thank myself for most of it. And don't make up any excuses to feel sorry for yourself and be apathetic, nor feel guilty about the whole damn thing.
 I'm not making up excuses, nor am I ungrateful. I'm very grateful for the starting point in life that I've been given. And of course I do my best to reach even higher, but like I said in a previous post the road gets steeper the closer to the summit you get.
That's true. All one can do is one's best. It can still be frustrating sometimes though, when you feel like you should and want to do more. Any time you want to be nailed to the cross, I'll fly over to Austr. with a hammer and nails. You provide the cross.
Okay, first off I'm from Sweden, so don't buy the plane ticket to "Austr." (Austria? Australia?) just yet. Second, are you implying that I think I'm Jesus? Where did you get that from? Or are you implying that I want to be a martyr? I don't know where you would have gotten that from either. Given the context of this thread, you're really not making much sense.  I interpreted your introspection as feeling as though you haven't done enough or aren't good enough and feel guilty about it.(thus the cross reference) My response is: don't beat yourself over the head feeling you're inadequate. You aren't. (I read your profile a while back and thought you were from Australia) Culturally the Chinese are academic high achievers...take a look at the Asian population at Berkley. They don't feel guilty about doing well. and you shouldn't either. Nor depressed nor apathetic. Unless you LIKE to feel bad. Sometimes I get a little too excited about a point I'm trying to make. About nailing you to a cross, where in Sweden did you say you live???? Or maybe good old fashioned Chinese torture of bamboo shoots up the nail beds? I could save a trip and send you one of those self mutilating back whips.  [Edited 1/7/07 10:33am] | |
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I interpreted your introspection as feeling as though you haven't done enough or aren't good enough and feel guilty about it.(thus the cross reference) My response is: don't beat yourself over the head feeling you're inadequate. You aren't.
Ah, okay. Well I do feel like I am good enough (in the sense that I have the ability to reach far) but I don't feel like I've done enough. So yes, I do feel a guilty about that. What I was trying to say though, which I've also repeated throughout this thread, is that it is difficult for me to do as much as I feel like I should since it is harder to better something that is already good than to better something that is bad. Thank you either way for saying that I shouldn't feel inadequate. My efforts feel that way quite often, and that's why I started this thread; to see if others in a similar situation to mine felt the same and how they cope with it. 
(I read your profile and a while back and thought you were from Aust)
This is the only information I've ever had in my profile: "There once was an orger named Retina who loves the ladies but claims beauty is inna. His tongue praises and shocks I want to smell his socks and bake him a non-rhyming pizza. There once was an orger Swedish after some Canadian time, he became Japanesish He'll have to eat sushi and sleep with his bunny You may call him sweet, you may call him funny I know he's neither from Palestina nor Jewish. -MarieLouise" And I still don't know if Aust. means Austria or Australia, but that's okay.  | |
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Grrr, just as I had responded there you go, editing your post....  
xplnyrslf said: Unless you LIKE to feel bad.
Oh, I definitely don't. I know some people love to be martyrs, but I'm not one of them. Sometimes I get a little too excited about a point I'm trying to make.
That's okay, it happens to me too. About nailing you to a cross, where in Sweden did you say you live???? Or maybe good old fashioned Chinese torture of bamboo shoots up the nail beds? I could save a trip and send you one of those self mutilating back whips.
[Edited 1/7/07 10:33am] Oh no, you're not getting out of your commitment that easily! I'm expecting you to arrive soon (in Stockholm by the way) and treat me to a nice s&m session!  | |
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ZombieKitten said: retina said: And you did get it. That was a great achievement. Did it give you a certain satisfaction, or did you feel like it was only a step on the way of fulfilling your full potential? yes, thank you it was. (The bigger achievement was probably my stoner sister also managing to get one too)
The degree was a means to an end. I didn't care about the qualification so much, but you have to have it in my line of work to get a job. I was glad when I finished university, but also so afraid of stepping out into the real world, at the time of an economic recession here. I put off the job search for nearly 2 years - I was so afraid of rejection, and as fragile as my self-esteem was back then, it was probably the right thing to do. At the time that piece of paper gave me no satisfaction at all. Maybe my profession wasn't up there in the same social standings as a medical one, but my parents could see from an early age that it was what I was meant to do, and my father always wished it was something he could have done too, so instead of pressure I felt only support. That's great. I bet they're very proud of you.  | |
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I'll bring some of my sexy lingere.
I KNOW I could do better and be better, but I've gotten lazy and glutinous, so this is it. I always edit, I even edit the "edit" thing at the bottom so it looks like I've only edited once. Fools everyone. | |
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xplnyrslf said: I'll bring some of my sexy lingere.
Damn, I like how this discussion is turning out! 
I always edit, I even edit the "edit" thing at the bottom so it looks like I've only edited once. Fools everyone.
Except those that do it routinely themselves.  | |
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mdiver said: not perpetuating the issues passed down to me by my parents.
absolutely | |
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ZombieKitten said: mdiver said: not perpetuating the issues passed down to me by my parents.
absolutely  You agreed with me
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mdiver said: ZombieKitten said: absolutely You agreed with me
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BlackAdder7 said: What kinda hemp wearing patchouli oil dressing kinda hippie bullshit is this?
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Shanti1 said: BlackAdder7 said: What kinda hemp wearing patchouli oil dressing kinda hippie bullshit is this?
The usual?? | |
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xplnyrslf said: Shanti1 said: The usual??  | |
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