Tuesday I went into work, still a bit sick, and asked to be traded off food to a demo in which I didn't have to serve the public fattening delights and talk about what a great value they are. I ended up getting a spot-shot carpet cleaner which left me plenty of time to pull out The Stand and start reading from my cart, and... think of shit and get all weirded out.

1.) Gamma-ray bursts. I didn't know much about them until Alex started mentioning how he couldn't sleep one night because he kept thinking about how a gamma ray burst could hit us and lead to mass extinction. There's not shit you can do about it, you'll never know it's coming....

2.) Death in general. I am painfully aware I am mortal, considering people started dying off in my immediate family when I was just 11. It fucks me up to think about the fact I won't be here one day.

3.) The fact Alex is older and a man and statistically will die first. My dad's in his mid-50s and in poor health, and my brother is 12 years older than me. I don't want to be old and alone.

4.) I keep thinking about the eye-gouge accident I saw last basketball season where the lad from I think Villanova got his eye knocked out of his head, and it fucks my eyes up and then I get afraid to touch my face.

What are some things that you think about occasionally that just fucks you up?

my grandma dead in her casket, that weirds me out. Just cause its my grandma, i miss her.

SpisaRibb said:

That's understandable. And people never look how they're supposed to, so far as I've seen anyway. I'm freaked out at the idea of being in a casket one day, looking so dead. I'm even more freaked out about alternative methods to dispose of my dead body.

I worry about #3 all the time, in fact, I worried about it this morning.

CortestheKiller said:

The fact that we "exist" on a "planet" that's situated in infinite space. I mean, what's up with that?

gemini13 said:

Well, things willin', you'll probably still have your daughter.

Ace said:

That is pretty fucking odd sometimes, innit?

CortestheKiller said:

I want to be creamated, but I dont know if I trust that the people who do these services to actually do it, thats my biggest concern.

SpisaRibb said:

There was a case back in my hometown awhile back... a funeral home scandal. The guy was taking money, before the time of death, so they'd have the burial of their dreams. Pre-paying for their funerals you know, while they could. Anyway, ol' Reid Rippetoe was pocketing the money, buying himself nice things and such. I think he's doing jailtime for awhile now.

CortestheKiller said:

Shhh, now I'll worry about that!!

Ace said:

Yourspendingtoomuchtimeonthecouch.

gemini13 said:

Yeah, no guarantees, are there? I'll probably die before all of these people I'm so worried about and love so much. I hate the idea of them moving on.

CortestheKiller said:

That and the continuing popularity of Jay Leno.

Just the thought of getting an IV freaks me out so much that I usually have to hold my wrists or the inside of my arms until the impulse passes.

xplnyrslf said:

If, in fact, you exist at all.

Ace said:

I never noticed he was that popular.

gemini13 said:

I'm worrying about this for the first time in my life. My girlfriend is 18 years older than me. She's very healthy, but I'm pretty healthy too, so statistically, I'm likely to lose her pretty young. And I'm not having kids. And my sister takes terrible care of herself.

Though, I'm actually MORE terrified of the idea of dying before her, 'cause I can't think of her being in that kind of pain and dealing with it alone.

So, either way = Which is why it's bugging me.

how sometimes i see things that crawl out the walls.

When an orger suddenly stops posting,
do you ever think they might have died?

Think of all the dead orgers

PANDURITO said:

actually that has crossed my mind, I worried about NovaBreaker

actually I have not stopped worrying about him

People in large animal costumes, like at Disney. They creep me OUT! For serious. I mean, if I see them on tv or something, I don't think much of it, but if they walk up next to me I get sooooo weirded out.
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your threads

ZombieKitten said:

I think there was a thread on that once... if something happened to you, how would the org find out?

I think we need an orger buddy system. So's if you want to go away for a long time SOMEONE can report back they've heard from you and you're doing fine, that kind of thing. And so we all can be notified, if, ya know, the worst...

PANDURITO said:

I have that with customers in my store. We used to get this VERY old lady in, coming for her daily supply of cigarettes.

We had an awful hot summer this year and during that she stopped coming in. I am pretty sure she passed away, poor thing.

The thought of having my testicles popped.

Of having my nails ripped off.

Or my teeth twisted and pulled out - that tearing noise.

Spookymuffin said:

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mrdespues said:

You're alive!

I get creeped about being old and alone too...or random cosmic occurences...or the thought of life on our planet seeming so small in our universe.