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PrintableGeez, I hope Chico is okay.    Thanks, Vina, for the update. I'm glad that Chico has you to lean on in his time of need.
Chico, you are a beautiful person, and we're here for you! You are not alone, we are here to help you get through this! 
typo edit [Edited 11/3/06 15:26pm] RIP, mom. I will forever miss and love you. | |
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CortestheKiller said: unlucky7 said: I feel like that a lot....it was worse last night...i'm too chicken to try anything. I think it's wrong for these people to be called cowards. No one knows what they are going through.
I agree. I've reached a low before, and the only thing that stopped me from doing it is I was too chickenshit to follow through. I'm a pretty open book on the topic. Ultimately I'm glad I didn't have the balls to do it, and I learned a very valuable lesson. Things can be shite MOST of the time, but they won't be ALL of the time. It took me awhile to pull through from it all, but the good worked its way back into my life eventually. 
Glad you got through it. Keep in mind that we are in a Mercury Retrograde until November 17th. During this time anything that can go wrong, usually will, and it tends to lead a lot of people towards depression when it hits. As for suicide... sometimes you just want to give up and throw in the towel. During times like these, I think about what my actions would do to those who love me. It's difficult when things become so bad in your mind that you feel you can't escape it, but you can, and you will. You just have to muddle through the darkness. It will subside eventually. The fact that you wrote this thread shows that even though it has crossed your mind you really don't want to do it, and I'm thankful for that. I hope that you know that so many people in your life, including those here on the org, love you and are here for you. This will pass, hang in there. | |
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Mazurack said: CortestheKiller said: I agree. I've reached a low before, and the only thing that stopped me from doing it is I was too chickenshit to follow through. I'm a pretty open book on the topic. Ultimately I'm glad I didn't have the balls to do it, and I learned a very valuable lesson. Things can be shite MOST of the time, but they won't be ALL of the time. It took me awhile to pull through from it all, but the good worked its way back into my life eventually.
Glad you got through it. Keep in mind that we are in a Mercury Retrograde until November 17th. During this time anything that can go wrong, usually will, and it tends to lead a lot of people towards depression when it hits. As for suicide... sometimes you just want to give up and throw in the towel. During times like these, I think about what my actions would do to those who love me. It's difficult when things become so bad in your mind that you feel you can't escape it, but you can, and you will. You just have to muddle through the darkness. It will subside eventually. The fact that you wrote this thread shows that even though it has crossed your mind you really don't want to do it, and I'm thankful for that. I hope that you know that so many people in your life, including those here on the org, love you and are here for you. This will pass, hang in there. HAHAHAHAHAHAH I'm a scorp, I was just thinking about this. It's TOTALLY hittin me, cuz its in my sign, and it REALLY IS hittin' me.  | |
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luv4all7 said: Mazurack said:
Glad you got through it. Keep in mind that we are in a Mercury Retrograde until November 17th. During this time anything that can go wrong, usually will, and it tends to lead a lot of people towards depression when it hits. As for suicide... sometimes you just want to give up and throw in the towel. During times like these, I think about what my actions would do to those who love me. It's difficult when things become so bad in your mind that you feel you can't escape it, but you can, and you will. You just have to muddle through the darkness. It will subside eventually. The fact that you wrote this thread shows that even though it has crossed your mind you really don't want to do it, and I'm thankful for that. I hope that you know that so many people in your life, including those here on the org, love you and are here for you. This will pass, hang in there. HAHAHAHAHAHAH I'm a scorp, I was just thinking about this. It's TOTALLY hittin me, cuz its in my sign, and it REALLY IS hittin' me. Oh, yeah, it's hitting you big right about now then! The last one kicked my ass! The 17th is coming up! Just a little while longer... | |
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CHIC0 said: why/how do we reach these lows? the easy way out? sure is. pain vs. feeling nothing? a coward or someone whose body and soul are completely tired and drained, that ending it all becomes so inviting. ache and tears vs. peace. ironic? why not be dead if you're already dead inside. feeling undeserving and having the world confirm it. i don't know...what exactly makes sense and what doesn't. or should i even care.
 
sounds like a bad case of the blues.  i think the blues can be caused by environmental and physiological factors. sometimes chemical deficiencies too.
what works for me is to get enough sleep, try for a good diet, exercise and learning something new. existentially the question of death is intriguing, but seeing as how it's our ultimate destination anyway there's really no sense in rushing the process imo. take care | |
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My best advice is to talk to somebody, there are people out there that want to help, who will help you, you just have to make the intial contact. Theyre professionals and they will help you to deal with how you feel right now. There does come a point when you cant just pull yourself out of it and you need to let others help you, call somebody, youve got nothing to lose. | |
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VinaBlue said: AndGodCreatedMe said: Thx No problem.
Everyone, please just keep praying for him and send him POSITIVE energy. I know it's hard to not get worried. I had a friend of mine here at work send a message to a prayer line. I told Chico to call me ANYTIME if he needs ANYTHING. I'll keep checking in with him.    Also don’t forget that the Holidays’ are nearing, so do keep checking on him because the suicide rate always skyrockets around or during this time of year. | |
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I really don't know how it affects other people but I recently saw The Bridge (a documentary about people jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge where it shows about a dozen people actually jumping off to their deaths in 2004). It's been hard to get it out of my mind.
It seems like the people who jump share a kind of lingering value for life in that they do it in a such dramatic, "glamorous" way. So the main points I got from this movie are: a) what a false illusion it is that jumping off the GG bridge offers some kind of romance b) how much suicide hurts people I do believe it is possible to love life and even be in love with life (because I am) even though the world is full of pain and suffering and everything EVERYTHING about this world is imperfect. But life does demand a certain technique and we can choose to take up the challenge. I choose life for myself and everyone. I will hold Chico in my meditation today. In the light, peace. | |
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Natisse said: life is for living...  | |
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VinaBlue said: Thanks MoonSongs for emailing me. I just spoke with him. I'm going to call him again after work and see how he's doing. I told him he can call me ANYTIME, my cell is always on. I might go and see him if he wants me to. He said he doesn't want to be around anyone... We'll see. Just keep praying for him and I'll keep an eye on him. If anyone gets really worried about him, you can message me. Chico and I have been friends since high school, so he's like a brother to me.
Peace, ~Vina You are a good friend Vina ~ thank you for being there ~ we're all so concerned about Chico and I knew you were the right person to contact because you've been such close friends. Please let me know if there is anything I can do and send him our love and light. nMusic is the language of the spirit. It opens the secret of life bringing peace, abolishing strife. --Kahlil Gibran | |
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I want to get some phone numbers to give to Chico so he has more people to talk with. I'm worried because I'll be out of town next weekend and I dont' want him to feel more alone. Orgnote me your number if you're up for it.
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VinaBlue said: I want to get some phone numbers to give to Chico so he has more people to talk with. I'm worried because I'll be out of town next weekend and I dont' want him to feel more alone. Orgnote me your number if you're up for it.
check your orgnotes | |
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AndGodCreatedMe said: VinaBlue said: I want to get some phone numbers to give to Chico so he has more people to talk with. I'm worried because I'll be out of town next weekend and I dont' want him to feel more alone. Orgnote me your number if you're up for it.
check your orgnotes ditto he should already have mine, but just in case... | |
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he's deleted both his MySpace and org account | |
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Keep praying everybody, please. He needs strength. He needs a sign. It's working, because an old friend called him out of the blue and gave him a lot of valuable insight. To me, that's a sign, that's divine intervention, but he still needs more. I'm getting numbers together for him so he knows people care and want to help if they can. Thanks everyone for your support.
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I just spoke to him and he sounds a LOT better. I think he was able to resolve the main issue that was bringing him down. He couldn't give me details because he's at work right now but I'll speak with him later.
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Natisse said: he's deleted both his MySpace and org account
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VinaBlue said: I just spoke to him and he sounds a LOT better. I think he was able to resolve the main issue that was bringing him down. He couldn't give me details because he's at work right now but I'll speak with him later.
Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers! Please send him our love when you talk. x | |
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VinaBlue said: Keep praying everybody, please. He needs strength. He needs a sign. It's working, because an old friend called him out of the blue and gave him a lot of valuable insight. To me, that's a sign, that's divine intervention, but he still needs more. I'm getting numbers together for him so he knows people care and want to help if they can. Thanks everyone for your support.
You should print this thread and send it to him. M MyeternalgrattitudetoPhil&Val.Herman said "We want sweaty truckers at the truck stop! We want cigar puffing men that look like they wanna beat the living daylights out of us" Val"sporking is spooning with benefits" | |
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VinaBlue said: I just spoke to him and he sounds a LOT better. I think he was able to resolve the main issue that was bringing him down. He couldn't give me details because he's at work right now but I'll speak with him later.
Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers!  You're welcome. Glad that Chico is doing better.RIP, mom. I will forever miss and love you. | |
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VinaBlue said: I want to get some phone numbers to give to Chico so he has more people to talk with. I'm worried because I'll be out of town next weekend and I dont' want him to feel more alone. Orgnote me your number if you're up for it.
Damn. I just saw this and sent you my phone number. tA Tribal Disorder
http://www.soundclick.com...dID=182431 "Ya see, we're not interested in what you know...but what you are willing to learn. C'mon y'all." | |
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theAudience said: VinaBlue said: I want to get some phone numbers to give to Chico so he has more people to talk with. I'm worried because I'll be out of town next weekend and I dont' want him to feel more alone. Orgnote me your number if you're up for it.
Damn. I just saw this and sent you my phone number. tA Tribal Disorder
http://www.soundclick.com...dID=182431 I was thinking how I LOVE reading the back and forth posts between you two. | |
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heartbeatocean said: I was thinking how I LOVE reading the back and forth posts between you two.
That's my CHICO-Sauve. I hope he calls me. tA Tribal Disorder
http://www.soundclick.com...dID=182431 "Ya see, we're not interested in what you know...but what you are willing to learn. C'mon y'all." | |
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