...when you are just that sick and tired of yourself and how are you are that you can barely stand it?

I know this is probably a silly thread to start but fuck it...

I need a hug and yeah I'm begging

Natisse said:

Your not alone.

I don't know what ya do.

Lemme know when ya figure it out.

I find something to be upset about other than myself. Seriously, though. I watch sad movies or listen to music that will make me melancholy for other reasons. Transfer it all away from me.
That's the short-term fix. If you figure out the long-term fix, let me know.

well here's your hug did something happen to make you feel this way?? Honey don't be so hard on yourself. Did you do something embarrassing?

Well we all do things once in a while that we think to ourselves "why am i the way i am"? but it will pass. You are who you are for a reason, thats what makes each and every one of us so special in our own way. But you have to be comfortable with yourself too and your ways.

don't worry, whatever it is you are concerned with won't last forever.

whooo can I run to





when i need looooove

I need a hug today too.


Sometimes other people's happiness makes me puke. Just joking.

Seriously, I just try to stay busy and it passes eventually.

thank you all ...I'm so sorry to start this thread I know damn well it's the wrong place for it but I just need to exhale today

thanks again

shellyevon said:

hope you're ok Shelly

I always try little steps to make it better.

You know yourself best, so you know what steps are needed, probably.

Small steps can make a big difference.

Natisse said:

I'm ok, just having a down day. I'm going to go for a long walk and clear my head.


Are you gonna be able to get to see Bedouin when they're in London? Free concert with Gogol Bordello in Selfridges on Sunday at noon, in the basement. Go EARLY if you're going. They're doind a signing in the Vans store on Carnaby St. around 3:00. That should cheer you up.

doing nice things for other people helps to take your mind off of the chaos in your life too.

I drink Must be something in the air sweetie. We all need a hug today. Will give you a call tonight if I am sober

missfee said:

At one time in my life I was at this point too, we already talked about this once, remember, Tisse?

I decided to do volunteers work. I first did shopping for elderly and just meeting some of them opened up the viscious circle I was caught in.

After that I decided to do work in a children's hospital; I used to organise activities, keep the children occupied, but in the end it turned out that they wanted me to read stories. So I did just that.

ellieadore said:

Me too, but I didn't wanna say it.

I didn't drink since Sunday and I've had a headache ever since, but like today, my head hurts that bad that I can't even go to the store to get laundy detergent.

Depression's and how to get out of it is unique to everyone, but I've always found the way I get out of it is be totally alone, revel in the most depressing and hateful music I can find and just sort my shit out, self-discover, think about what's actually at the root of the feelings. it's worked every time, because I find I can take control again.

ellieadore said:

So, you are depressed all of the time?

Hehehe

But hey! Good idea! I will pop open a beer at six.

Natisse said:

You wait until that passing phase is over.

Spookymuffin said:

interesting you say this because I usually have to have a hard cry to get everything out. Sometimes talking to someone is good, but I find it awkward because once you finally feel good about whatever it is that is bothering you, then the person you vented to usually wants to know why all of a sudden you are so chipper. And sometimes explaining to people who you vent to gets annoying, they don't always understand how you come to the kinds of conclusions that you do. That's why i feel now, that whenever i feel down on myself or i feel bad about something i did, or something thats going on in my life that is bothering me, i try to handle it myself. this way people can't come back as ask you "so whatever happened to that such and such situation". I hate having to give people updates.

luv4all7 said:

I have had a bottle of wine every night since Saturday.

HamsterHuey said:

Number23 said:

shellyevon said:

that's a definate!!! omg I'm SO there!! thanks hon I'm on thier friends list on MySpace I should be paying attention

enjoy your walk sweetie and take care

HamsterHuey said:

I love you yes I do remember hon... it's one of the reasons I look up to you

gemini13 said:

shellyevon said:

I love Gogol Bordelo

Number23 said:

You goof

Right, I'm going to have a shower because I'm sweaty and I stink.

ellieadore said:

hope you're ok hon please call me if you need or want to, sweetie... always there for you

Spookymuffin said:

Natisse said:

not now, I've just come out of a patch - no emotional-ness for me now