Maybe it's this obscure brew, but maybe it's not.

I have this dreadful feeling of wanting to fall in love right now just to share good times with someone special, but I've no one to turn to. It feels like poo.

What's making you feel down these days?

you


wanna hug?
[Edited 10/28/06 12:48pm]

Spookymuffin said:

it will happen when the time is right hon... be patient

as for me... the thought of saying bye to friends on this side of the world in 126 days

UGH.

Dont even talk to me

I will fall in love with you Ben as long as you promise to play nice Noone else will....

AndGodCreatedMe said:

No, reveling in my own misery drives me to all kinds of bad. Thanks for the offer though.

Natisse said:

Your friends will follow you if they're true friends.

susannah said:

I know. I can't help but blame my all-male environment, but to be honest it only creates doubt in my mind for everywhere else. It fucking sucks. I want to die sometimes, then again perhaps not. The "wish I'd never been born" cliché is more suited to me right now.

oh, a million things and no one thing at all.

Spookymuffin said:

are you putting yourself in situations to meet girls?....I would think being in a band would be an asset..sometimes, when you least expect it, or when you're not looking for it, you meet a really great girl.

Spookymuffin said:

Don't feel that way, it will pass. Soon as you're outta there and in the real world you'll feel loads better, everyone does

But I know, Patience is a sucky word

purplerein said:

it's been a massive asset, but most girls in the disgusting social circle eton creates are total sluts, self-conscious bitches afraid to be themselves, or taken.

It fucking sucks, I tell ye! I hate eton.

Spookymuffin said:

Oh, it's not just Eton. That's pretty much the world.

Spookymuffin said:

you're not allowed to go outside of eton?....and maybe there's one girl who's not in the dsc...look in the library...or science lab..

CarrieMpls said:

susannah said:

I hate bubbles. I want the real world. I want the pain, the struggle, I want the experience because then, and only then, am I truly living. I don't give a fuck about money - to be honest, a little bit of shit-living would probably help me. I want to experience so much and I'll be long dead before the half of it's done.

do you have any brothers or sisters, or are you an only child..?

Spookymuffin said:

You're in the real world. And if I'm not mistaken, you're struggling now. If that's what you want, embrace it while you can.

On the other hand, I could say buck up and do your time and you'll be out and on your own before you know it.

CarrieMpls said:

You haven't lived through eton. any sane etonian from a real world background will tell you it's a bubble. it's so far from real we're not true. totally isolated from anything dangerous/unnatural - completely upper class. people there are shocked that i go to gigs in brixton, or wear tight trousers. it's that intolerant.

Spookymuffin said:

Oh I felt EXACTLY the same when I was at school I used to watch all the people in their twenties and thirties who actually had lives and want them so much. And the person whose life I wanted most was my big cousin's, and I thought she was just sooo rock n roll, with her parties and her friends and boyfriends and living in the city. In truth she hated that time, but I know what you mean, you need the rough and the smooth.

Point is I had to wait for it, and so do you. But it will come, I swear

purplerein said:

3 bros, 1 step-bro, 1 step-sis. Big family.

susannah said:

I know it will. Trouble is is that rather than benefit me, I think this "privileged" education that my parents worked so hard to get me has caused me to react against it - it's almost as if I want to fail in life to be more real whilst my dad had to work from being a boat builder with 1 a-level and no degree to get where he is. It's fucking disgusting, I'm gonna be a big disappointment.

Spookymuffin said:

Ben, that is textbook, it really is. If you want it in Laymans terms, listen to Common People. I know sooooo many people in the same situation, the best education money can buy, houses, cars, holidays - and they get to their teens and all theyre interested in is fucking with it. I don't understand it, I just know that it happens to a very high percentage of people. Im from the other side, I grew up in a scummy council estate, with pretty much nothing and I've worked my ass off to get where I am now. Teaching the posh kids about rock n roll, that is!

I think it switches from generation to generation - if you think about it. But its definitely not unusual. Take comfort from that? Its your life, do what you want with it I say. I was a big dissappointment when I left school at 17 and went to work in a shop, but I proved all the bastards wrong when I decided off my own back to go to university.

It is only when you have truly found love that you really get to understand pain. Love can hurt you more than anything else in this world. Don't wish your life away

susannah said:

I know - I'm living the cliché!

ellieadore said:

I'm sure a bullet to the spine hurts quite a bit.

Spookymuffin said:

At the moment, I'd give that a go.

you should see the good in yourself that we see.

susannah said:

How about we do it together?

purplerein said: