Moderator | Samaar said: Sweeny79 said: God, I'm crying like a baby here... I don't know why I let people get to me.
While crying isn't necessarily a bad thing, hope you are feeling a little more "up" soon. I know it's not...it's just I hardly ever cry, I swallow it all...so when it comes out it comes out like a freaking hurricane. In spite of the cost of living, it's still popular. |
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fantasyislander said: Sweeny79 said: days where you feel like you are stuck inside a dryer set on tumble and the buzzer is broke so you just keep flip flopping around.
I just wanna be good and do good and feel like I am needed. But I am so not needed in most situations. At work I feel like I can never do enough,with my family I feel like everything I am is just so at odds with everything they are and I do nothing but make them scratch their heads and go WTF??, with Rich and those few who I love I feel like they could do much better than me and that what I give isn't half of what they need, so at times I just give up and avoid people. I feel so down today...and I don't know what else to do. I need love. Love me. i'm feeling down myself today. i'm lost and don't know where i'm going.... sorry. for you too | |
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Moderator | Spookymuffin said: Sweeny79 said: Well I was thinking voice chat .... less typing while blinded by tears the better I don't have msn do they have voice chat?? Pease answer in English. Yahoo and Microsoft did a deal - orgnote me your email and I think I'll be able to add you even though you're on yahoo im. They do voice chat but I don't have a mic and I'll have to lock all my doors por culpa de mis hermanos. WHY THE FUCK DO I KEEP SLIPPING INTO SPANISH? Oh my God I figured it out....It's a psychological link between Guiness and Spain because I only drunk Guiness in Spain - that's phenomenal. Anyway, back on track..I really want to help you so..yeah - orgnote your email. In spite of the cost of living, it's still popular. |
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Samaar said: fantasyislander said: i'm feeling down myself today. i'm lost and don't know where i'm going.... sorry. for you too i'm telling you, numb is the way to go. it keeps the tears away..... usually. | |
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fantasyislander said: Samaar said: for you too i'm telling you, numb is the way to go. it keeps the tears away..... usually. I'll still say a little drinky drinky with your hubby hubby is the way to go. And flirt it up with him! | |
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Moderator | fantasyislander said: Samaar said: for you too i'm telling you, numb is the way to go. it keeps the tears away..... usually. Hon... I was like that for many many years... it wasn't worth it. I can't be like that anymore. In spite of the cost of living, it's still popular. |
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fantasyislander said: Samaar said: for you too i'm telling you, numb is the way to go. it keeps the tears away..... usually. yes - numb works for a while but eventually the feelings come out anyways..at the worst time- at least it works that way for me anyways.. | |
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Sweeny79 said: Samaar said: While crying isn't necessarily a bad thing, hope you are feeling a little more "up" soon. I know it's not...it's just I hardly ever cry, I swallow it all...so when it comes out it comes out like a freaking hurricane. Then maybe you're just overdue. | |
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Moderator | shanti0608 said: fantasyislander said: i'm telling you, numb is the way to go. it keeps the tears away..... usually. yes - numb works for a while but eventually the feelings come out anyways..at the worst time- at least it works that way for me anyways.. amen alleluia In spite of the cost of living, it's still popular. |
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Sweeny79 said: Samaar said: While crying isn't necessarily a bad thing, hope you are feeling a little more "up" soon. I know it's not...it's just I hardly ever cry, I swallow it all...so when it comes out it comes out like a freaking hurricane. That's why I cry whenever I feel like I need to. I would be suicidal if I held it all in 2010: Healing the Wounds of the Past.... http://prince.org/msg/8/325740 | |
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Moderator | Samaar said: Sweeny79 said: I know it's not...it's just I hardly ever cry, I swallow it all...so when it comes out it comes out like a freaking hurricane. Then maybe you're just overdue. It piles up let me tell ya... In spite of the cost of living, it's still popular. |
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Moderator | SupaFunkyOrgangrinderSexy said: Sweeny79 said: I know it's not...it's just I hardly ever cry, I swallow it all...so when it comes out it comes out like a freaking hurricane. That's why I cry whenever I feel like I need to. I would be suicidal if I held it all in I got a lot of pride that stops me from doing that. I wish I wasn't like this. In spite of the cost of living, it's still popular. |
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Sweeny79 said: fantasyislander said: i'm telling you, numb is the way to go. it keeps the tears away..... usually. Hon... I was like that for many many years... it wasn't worth it. I can't be like that anymore. i've never been like that. it's something new i'm trying out this afternoon. it's not working very well. | |
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Moderator | fantasyislander said: Sweeny79 said: Hon... I was like that for many many years... it wasn't worth it. I can't be like that anymore. i've never been like that. it's something new i'm trying out this afternoon. it's not working very well. It's a waste of time babe... rock out to some music, talk to a friend, kick the shit out of a pillow, paint, write, scream at the wall....but numb don't work. In spite of the cost of living, it's still popular. |
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Sweeny79 said: SupaFunkyOrgangrinderSexy said: That's why I cry whenever I feel like I need to. I would be suicidal if I held it all in I got a lot of pride that stops me from doing that. I wish I wasn't like this. Well damn honey, don't be too proud to cry in front of yourself In the end if we don't have ourselves, we have nobody..... 2010: Healing the Wounds of the Past.... http://prince.org/msg/8/325740 | |
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Moderator | SupaFunkyOrgangrinderSexy said: Sweeny79 said: I got a lot of pride that stops me from doing that. I wish I wasn't like this. Well damn honey, don't be too proud to cry in front of yourself In the end if we don't have ourselves, we have nobody..... Ack, I am nobody so I feel like I don't have the right to cry. that's the core of it. In spite of the cost of living, it's still popular. |
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Sweeny79 said: SupaFunkyOrgangrinderSexy said: That's why I cry whenever I feel like I need to. I would be suicidal if I held it all in I got a lot of pride that stops me from doing that. I wish I wasn't like this. Get some NIN ready. I'm going to cheer you up. The only reason I don't cry all the time is because my sadness almost immediately turns to anger and then numbness. It's weird. I'll probably end up commiting suicide one day. Sad but true, but I accepted that fact about 2 years ago. | |
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Moderator | Spookymuffin said: Sweeny79 said: I got a lot of pride that stops me from doing that. I wish I wasn't like this. Get some NIN ready. I'm going to cheer you up. The only reason I don't cry all the time is because my sadness almost immediately turns to anger and then numbness. It's weird. I'll probably end up commiting suicide one day. Sad but true, but I accepted that fact about 2 years ago. You know what I told you, you needed to do the other day... I still think that's the best thing for you sweetie. In spite of the cost of living, it's still popular. |
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Sweeny79 said: Spookymuffin said: Get some NIN ready. I'm going to cheer you up. The only reason I don't cry all the time is because my sadness almost immediately turns to anger and then numbness. It's weird. I'll probably end up commiting suicide one day. Sad but true, but I accepted that fact about 2 years ago. You know what I told you, you needed to do the other day... I still think that's the best thing for you sweetie. Go to sleep because I'm an alcoholic? I really think that's on a different tangent... | |
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Moderator | Spookymuffin said: Sweeny79 said: You know what I told you, you needed to do the other day... I still think that's the best thing for you sweetie. Go to sleep because I'm an alcoholic? I really think that's on a different tangent... No you fucker... jeez...orgnote. In spite of the cost of living, it's still popular. |
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Sweeny79 said: SupaFunkyOrgangrinderSexy said: Well damn honey, don't be too proud to cry in front of yourself In the end if we don't have ourselves, we have nobody..... Ack, I am nobody so I feel like I don't have the right to cry. that's the core of it. Ok, now I'm going to have to forget about my domestic abuse thread for a second so I could beat your ass talking like that One thing I've been learning is to not let the failings/insecurities/weaknesses define ourselves. It's easy to get caught up in all of those because they are such dominant and strong emotions and experiences and allow them to shadow the goodness of ourselves. You don't have to be perfect to do great things or to be great. It's our imperfections that shed so much light on the greatness that we possess in spite of the failings.... I love you baby 2010: Healing the Wounds of the Past.... http://prince.org/msg/8/325740 | |
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Moderator | SupaFunkyOrgangrinderSexy said: Sweeny79 said: Ack, I am nobody so I feel like I don't have the right to cry. that's the core of it. Ok, now I'm going to have to forget about my domestic abuse thread for a second so I could beat your ass talking like that One thing I've been learning is to not let the failings/insecurities/weaknesses define ourselves. It's easy to get caught up in all of those because they are such dominant and strong emotions and experiences and allow them to shadow the goodness of ourselves. You don't have to be perfect to do great things or to be great. It's our imperfections that shed so much light on the greatness that we possess in spite of the failings.... I love you baby Ok now I'm really crying... I know what you say is true. i say stuff like that to other people all the time. It's just so hard for me to forgive myself for my short commings. I love you too. In spite of the cost of living, it's still popular. |
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Sweeny79 said: SupaFunkyOrgangrinderSexy said: Ok, now I'm going to have to forget about my domestic abuse thread for a second so I could beat your ass talking like that One thing I've been learning is to not let the failings/insecurities/weaknesses define ourselves. It's easy to get caught up in all of those because they are such dominant and strong emotions and experiences and allow them to shadow the goodness of ourselves. You don't have to be perfect to do great things or to be great. It's our imperfections that shed so much light on the greatness that we possess in spite of the failings.... I love you baby Ok now I'm really crying... I know what you say is true. i say stuff like that to other people all the time. It's just so hard for me to forgive myself for my short commings. I love you too. Me too. It takes work to be able to recognize the intellectual truth of that as a spiritual truth You'll get there 2010: Healing the Wounds of the Past.... http://prince.org/msg/8/325740 | |
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SupaFunkyOrgangrinderSexy said: Sweeny79 said: Ack, I am nobody so I feel like I don't have the right to cry. that's the core of it. Ok, now I'm going to have to forget about my domestic abuse thread for a second so I could beat your ass talking like that One thing I've been learning is to not let the failings/insecurities/weaknesses define ourselves. It's easy to get caught up in all of those because they are such dominant and strong emotions and experiences and allow them to shadow the goodness of ourselves. You don't have to be perfect to do great things or to be great. It's our imperfections that shed so much light on the greatness that we possess in spite of the failings.... I love you baby That was a wonderful thing to say. *switching back to asshole mode* | |
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Sweeny79 said: fantasyislander said: i've never been like that. it's something new i'm trying out this afternoon. it's not working very well. It's a waste of time babe... rock out to some music, talk to a friend, kick the shit out of a pillow, paint, write, scream at the wall....but numb don't work. cant right now, i'm at work. but i think alcohol tonight sounds like a good idea. | |
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Moderator | SupaFunkyOrgangrinderSexy said: Sweeny79 said: Ok now I'm really crying... I know what you say is true. i say stuff like that to other people all the time. It's just so hard for me to forgive myself for my short commings. I love you too. Me too. It takes work to be able to recognize the intellectual truth of that as a spiritual truth You'll get there I'm trying but it's a hard climb. In spite of the cost of living, it's still popular. |
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Moderator | purplerein said: Go see a funny movie. little miss sunshine will do
naw I don't need to cheer up right now... I need to work on why I am feeling what I'm feeling. I do wanan see that movie tho... In spite of the cost of living, it's still popular. |
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Moderator | fantasyislander said: Sweeny79 said: It's a waste of time babe... rock out to some music, talk to a friend, kick the shit out of a pillow, paint, write, scream at the wall....but numb don't work. cant right now, i'm at work. but i think alcohol tonight sounds like a good idea. alcohol... the cause of and solution to all of life's problems... In spite of the cost of living, it's still popular. |
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