Sitting here alone.
Yet another dark as coal while the world keeps on spinning thread from the Org's misery.
But I can't help it, it just is; it just happens. nothing changes that.

it's my last night in paris. i spent today writing lyrics, smoking and drinking. I wrote three songs. All are miserable. All are cold. All wrapped up in such a way that no one could know how it feels, but yet they are still shit. Shit. SHIT.

Youth is wasted on the young.

Good.

Spookymuffin said:

go find a Parisian hooker

jerseykrs2 said:

Fuck off; not in the mood.

purplerein said:

I'd rather not. I don't want sex in any way, shape or form.

Go back again. It's not far.

orgnote me sweetheart

INSATIABLE said:

No need, seeds sewn far deeper than that.

I'm going to bed, it never makes a difference. Maybe life will change again tomorrow and I'll get the second epiphany I want. Then again, maybe my plane will crash, then it's bye-bye all of you, my material possessions, ties, love, friendship and everything...all lost in some place only to be forgotten.

Spookymuffin said:

fine.

CarrieMpls said:

Damn straight, I've been trying to tell him this.

AndGodCreatedMe said:

There's no need to be grumpy. I just don't want to bore you all. As usual when I open my eyes tomorrow the perception will have changed and everything will seem fine again, then I'll think I've been a fucking idiot for even writing this and want it gone.

Spookymuffin said:

hey! u know i love u and if u don't want to share your feelings that's fine..
i still love u

Spookymuffin said:

These sound interesting.

bummer kid


you always seem to swing for giddy to down and out

hormones suck

hang in you'll be 20 soon and solving the worlds problems


right ?

Maybe Madrid will be better?

Hey, think of it this way. At least you can write actual songs instead of only crappy underdeveloped poems.

oh lawd.

I never thought I'd say this, but I think American kids are actually far better than british kids at being miserable.

I you Ben.

CarrieMpls said:

Amen

oh my god. i've said it before, but you are so much like i was "at your age, sonny" that it's just not funny.

here's some advice:

* keep writing.

* don't smoke.

if you're anything like i was, you'll listen to the first bit and ignore the second. but seriously, you shouldn't... i get worried about the damage i've done in that area, still.

hold yer head up... not all the best songs are sad... i appreciate joyful, happy music a lot more these days... but my gosh, it's the hormones that do it, lad, and the smokes just make it worse... i feel ya.

ignore this old git if need be.

not necessarily- some people are more sensitive than others and the org is a place to share those feelings and let them out around other sensitive people.

CarrieMpls said: