LleeLlee said:

I know - I can't wait to take advantage of ludicrously drunk girls, film it all and then sell it later.

Zogmuffin said:

you'll have an independence that will be great, being away from home,your own rules, a sense of yourself that you've never had before. Those years can be the best of your life.

Zogmuffin said:

If there's one thing I hate more than taking advice it's giving it. But I will say one last thing - never lose your sweetness, Ben. Let's put all the bullshit aide - you think these thoughts because you're sensitive, meek and fragile. You're lashing out at the thickest, highest brick wall at the limits of imagination if you're pitting your own sense of righteousnes against what you perceive to be the collective wrongs of the human race and the lack of answers regarding our conciousness and existance.
Keep a fucking tight hold of that sweetness inside because it's the most precious part of you and it's the only thing that'll keep your mind shielded on dark nights of the soul. Well, that and masturbation.
All the shadows and the pain are coming to you, Ben. It's true. I'm sorry, pain's in the post. To be blunt, life is pain and learning how to cope with pain. Sometimes - a lot of times - mids and bodies throw in the towel. But there's a crack in everything - that's how the light gets in. And all the demons crowding your future are a lot easier to fight if you're on your feet. So shape up soldier, and let's at least try and frighten off the dragons we can't slay.

I can feel myself starting to feel better now. Maybe it's this glass of white wine, but more likely it's because I talked to all of you and you all helped. Thank you.



Make no mistake, I'm neither cured nor feeling perfect - but within me rose up a small feeling of warmth and happiness. It's staying there at the moment and it feels nice. Thanks.

Zogmuffin said:

Glad you're feeling better.

it was nice talking to you on IM. we'll chat again later.