You know that feeling when you feel so low and everything seems totally pointless? Absolutely everything in life is totally pointless? You might as well bide your time till death - hell, why wait?

Yeah, I got that now. It's shit. Where's some girl to flirt with or a whole load of drink? I'm bummed.

Zogmuffin said:

it's called puberty, Spooky..it won't last much longer. ps, if you want to flirt with a girl, wait till she comes to you
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ive been feeling like that pretty much all week

SammiJ said:

sorry Sammi...

Awwwww, your rite hon life is pretty pointless. Don't take it too seriously!

Your a doll! Get off the computer and go find yourself a hot young doll face to cheer ya up! If I was your age again, I wouldn't be waistin' any time!

luv4all7 said:

I would if I didn't live in the middle of the countryside with the only nearby place of social activity a pub full of retired men. It's shit.

purplerein said:

That's nice and all, but it could damn well go on forever.

But it does get easier.

purplerein said:

No, it's not - it's far more deep seated than that. I've felt this way my entire life. It's my outlook, it's my way of looking at things, and it's depressing and shit.

SammiJ said:

I do know that happier days come around.

CarrieMpls said:

Not trying to be funny here Spook, but alcohol is a depressant. You might want to cut back...

Zogmuffin said:

The brain cells associated with anxiety begin to die off in your early 20s - they can't replicate. That's why old people can pish themselves and masturbate at family gatherings (sometimes at the same time) - no insecurities means no fear. You have that to look forward to, so chin up, puff out your chest and develop a superiority complex like I did. You're smarter than the rest. Believe it.

Oh and if you haven;t heard The Holy Bible by trhe manic Street Preachers, it might make you feel a little less alone.

Number23 said:

Excuse my spelling, I'm pished.

purplerein said:

I'm not drunk.

Zogmuffin said:

I didn't say you were...but you do drink, and sometimes get drunk. Alcohol is a depressant

Number23 said:

Yes, but sometimes you can be 'fucked-up' without anxiety. Thanks for the advice nonetheless, I do enjoy cynnicism, it gives me a giggle.

purplerein said:

Not to sound to smarmy or anything but you're mistranslating "depressant" - that refers to how alcohol slows down the transfer of chemicals over synapses in the nervous system.
It actually makes your brain feel great, that's why we, as animals, enjoy alcohol - in the same way that monkeys do. Since all we really are is animals.

purplerein said:

There's sweetness to be found in meloncholy. There's joy in being sad.

Number23 said:

And true beauty is self-destruction.

Number23 said:

Number23 said:

You know, you're a wonderful poet, but you'd not make a good life coach.

Zogmuffin said:

I know what you mean hon hang in there...

Zogmuffin said:

not trying to sound smarmy, but alcohol is also a depressant, as in causing depression.

Number23 said:

And now you're speaking the language I speak in my head. The place I love to hide. The place I crawl into everyday; sometimes it makes me feel great, sometimes so alone, sometimes unhappy and sometimes nasty. I have too much of an affinity for it now I've found it to ever leave. It's the most creative side of myself I've ever found. I love it, but it's half the cause of all these problems.

Zogmuffin said:

We all get silly dark thoughts, man. You are living, breathing, walking, talking embodiment of your upbringing and your environment. We live in cynical, paranoid times where morals are built on sinking sands, where culture is disposable and recycled from greater glories. It's hard to know what's good and bad is a world which doesn't recognise justice or genius, so don't be so hard on yourself. Just keep kicking against the puritan, pious cunts who molest kittens with their mother's cutlery when no-one's looking and you'll, maybe, reach seom mishaped form of 'contentment'. That's all truly intelligent people have to look forward to, I'm afraid.

Number23 said:

He's right, ya know...and there are moments of peace to be had.

Number23 said:

Or pulling a taxi driver and leading a vendetta to clean up the world. I haet british society. it's a piece of shit.

Zogmuffin said:

Please, if anything, don't become so delusional in thinking the problem's in a focused area. It is, but that 'area' is much larger than you know.

listen to happy music... or something that doesn't depress you. unfortunately, when you're in a mood like this NIN might not be the best choice.



just trying to be balanced... you know i love NIN, but if you're already down some of it can just depress you more.


of course, don't go listening to rubbish pop crap. that will make you want to lynch yourself just the same.